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1. i want the one i can't have (and it's driving me mad) by barkatthemoon

   Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling  

   • Explicit
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • F/F
   • Complete Work

   30 May 2025

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Sirius Black/Remus Lupin
   • Sirius Black
   • Remus Lupin
   • Regulus Black
   • James Potter
   • Peter Pettigrew
   • Female Sirius Black
   • Female Remus Lupin
   • Alternate Universe - College/University
   • Alternate Universe - Muggle
   • Alternate Universe - Everyone Lives/Nobody Dies
   • Pining Remus Lupin
   • Lesbian Remus Lupin
   • Unrequited Love
   • Not Actually Unrequited Love
   • Trans Regulus Black
   • Transphobia
   • Bad Parent Walburga Black
   • Bad Parent Orion Black
   • Past Suicide Attempt
   • References to Depression
   • I understand that these tags are dark but stick with me
   • They are a very small part of the plot
   • Angst and Fluff and Smut
   • Remus is THIRSTY for Sirius
   • Pathetic Remus Lupin
   • the poor girl is a mess
   • Female Sirius Black/Female Remus Lupin
   • Vaginal Fingering
   • Oral Sex
   • Face-Sitting
   • Sex Toys
   • Cunnilingus
   • Eventual Happy Ending
   • which is guaranteed in all my fics
   • lesbian angst
   • Female James Potter
   • Female Peter Pettigrew
   • they don't get a lot of screen time though
   • Catholicism
   • Atheist Character
   • Diabetic Remus Lupin
   • Explicit Sexual Content
   • Mild Spit Kink
   • technical kidnapping of a minor
   • the minor is fully onboard with being kidnapped
   • committing a felony as a love language
   • gender affirming care
   • Bisexual Sirius Black

   Summary

   She wishes that she didn’t turn into such a goddamn mess every time she’s within ten feet of Sirius’ presence. With just one look she’s reduced to a puddle of mush, mind conjuring fantasies that are both sweet and horribly depraved, and if she were a cartoon character there would probably be little hearts blooming in her eyes as steam pours out of her ears.

   Remus Lupin has had a crush on Sirius Black since the moment she saw her. The only problem, other than the fact that there's no universe in which Sirius would want to go out with someone like her, is that she's pretty sure that Sirius is straight.

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