Chapter Text
The only one who's got enough of me to break my heart
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Ash groggily wakes up to the sound of his – or Goh’s – Rotomphone repeating the same sentence like a mantra through his still sleepy and tired mind. With enough, but not much wakeful energy, he gets out from the bed, successfully not waking up Goh. He’s surprised that his partner still can peacefully sleep through this noise, or maybe Goh’s just a good pretender that he’s still sleeping so Ash can be the one to get the annoying call.
“Gary, it’s 6 a.m”, Ash sleepily mumbles, covering his yawn. Pikachu’s ears twitched at the mention of the familiar name, but it’s still not enough for him to leave the bed’s warmth.
“We’re gonna be at the Laboratory in 30 minutes”, the boy wakefully announces, and Ash blinks slowly at the information. He wishes he could share Gary’s excitement right now, but he’s still sleeping inside.
“Gary, it’s 6 a.m”, Ash repeats, dreaming already to come back to bed and snuggle into Goh’s body again.
“I know, that’s why I’m calling earlier to let you know that we’re planning to come”, Gary smirks and Ash rolls his eyes. “I got takeout coffee, don’t worry”.
At least there’s that. Coffee sounds nice.
“I don’t think 30 minutes is earlier enough”, Ash quips back with definitely way more patience than he usually would have for Gary, especially that early in the morning. Goh stirs in his sleep as he finally registers the lack of Ash in the bed and his distant voice, but still being present in the same room.
“30 minutes is kind enough coming from me”, Gary says, and Ash can picture him having that stupid smirk all over his face.
“This better be important”, Ash says, glancing at Goh, who finally turned to face him. Goh blinks slowly at Ash’s blurry figure, and Ash forgets how to breathe for a moment. Goh looks absolutely gorgeous like that, his messy bed hair sticking in every direction, his mind still foggy from the abrupt waking up, and damn, Ash loves when Goh is still not functioning enough because that’s a good opportunity to kiss him all over his beautiful face. But it’s not gonna happen because–
“It is important”, Gary eventually offers and Ash sighs. Gary apologetically smiles even if Ash can’t see him, but by the soft tone of Gary’s voice, Ash can swear the boy sincerely means it.
“Okay, see you soon”, Ash covers another yawn before he almost hangs up, but stops in his tracks as a thought comes to his mind. “Oh, by the way, to deal with your ass that early in the morning, I need at least five coffees, so make sure to do a quick stop to buy me more”, Ash teases as he hangs up, not even trying to listen to Gary’s further protests.
Ash tiredly sighs as he puts his phone down on the counter. He hears a chuckle near his ear and two arms hugging him from behind. There’s a kiss to his nape and Goh nuzzles into his shoulder.
“An unannounced guests?”, Goh chuckles, and Ash hums, turning in Goh’s hold to face him. They are inches apart, and Ash would like to–
“Do you think we have time so I can kiss you as a good morning?”, Ash whispers, and there’s a sudden shiver on Goh’s spine at the way Ash has said it.
“If we get dressed and eat something in fifteen minutes…”, Goh tilts his head as an invitation, and before he can ponder anything, there are lips all over his face. A kiss to his cheek, to his forehead, to his nose, to his neck–
Goh hums appreciatively at the feeling of Ash being all over him. He loves it. He loves Ash’s lips on every inch of his skin.
“Ash”, Goh breathes out as he’s being overwhelmed in the most positive way. Ash hums again as he fucking-finally leans to connect their lips together, and maybe– maybe they should go back to bed, because they way Ash kisses him makes him weak in the knees.
Goh holds onto Ash’s shoulders hard as he brings their bodies closer. He deepens the kiss as one of his hands travels onto Ash’s chest and just stays there to feel his fast heartbeat. Goh chuckles into the kiss before he regretfully pulls away, but he puts his second hand on Ash’s cheek, and the boy leans into it comfortably. They catch their breaths heavily as they stare into each other’s cloudy eyes.
Goh tilts his head before he bursts out laughing, which wakes Vee and Grookey up, and they look in confusion around the room to pick up what has woken them up. “At least you’re more wakeful now, maybe you won’t need that coffee after all”.
Ash lets out a chuckle on his own as well. Yeah, maybe he won’t.
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But Ash did need that coffee anyway, and Gary bought five just as Ash asked him too. Ash is sipping his third one as they all stare into the wedding invitation that Tokio and Gary brought up with them. Ash doesn’t understand why they had to come that early to bring the wedding invitation, but the way Gary’s eyes sparkle with excitement, Ash can tell that it is important enough to Gary to come that early and give them the anticipated invitation that everyone was waiting for, so it can be important to Ash as well.
“I’m glad you were able to finally decide on the perfect date”, Goh muses as he delicately holds the paper in his hands. His eyes sparkle too, but for a different reason than Gary’s or Tokio’s. Ash puts the coffee on the counter as he leans to place a kiss atop of Goh’s head. Small gesture, but it’s enough to get his thoughts on the right track again.
May. They decided on next year’s May. A perfect month. Spring, but slowly turning into summer. The weather should be nice, and they both made sure the wedding wouldn’t interfere with any of their friend’s important tournaments. Everyone should be there, and it’s gonna be perfect. It will be perfect, Goh knows it. And he can’t wait to be a part of it. He subtly glances at his own empty ring finger. He doesn’t feel any sorrow from the emptiness on it anymore, but wouldn’t it be perfect if he could go to his best friends’ wedding with his own finger being adorned with a ring as well?
Goh’s eyes squint with sadness, and Gary tilts his head as he notices the change in Goh’s mood. He exchanges a concerned look with Ash, and Ash puts a hand on Goh’s shoulder and squeezes it in comfort.
Gary clears his throat to get rid of the uncomfortable silence that fell in the room. “We um, hope to see you there?”
There’s some questioning tone in Gary’s voice that Goh hoped not to hear. He shakes his head to himself as he blinks once to get rid of his moodiness and clear his mind.
“You’re joking, of course, we will be there. No doubt about it”, Goh says, and Gary and Tokio breathe out in relief. “The invitation is so beautiful”, Goh looks at it again with some fondness in his eyes. Ash stares at it too, admiring its beauty as well. He squeezes Goh’s shoulder again, and Goh turns to face him. They catch each other’s gazes and they stare into each other’s eyes for a moment. Blue to brown. There’s some comfort and reassurance in Ash’s gaze that Goh, for some reason, appreciates right now. Ash smiles at him, and Goh puts his own hand over Ash’s hold on his shoulder as he turns his attention back to Gary and Tokio.
“So, will your parents be at the wedding?”, Goh changes the topic. There’s concern in his voice, but Tokio cuts his worries off.
“Yeah, they will”, he breathes out as he intertwines his and Gary’s hands. Gary kisses his knuckles, and Goh chuckles when Ash copied the move to his hand too.
“We’re on better terms now, they've grown closer to Gramps as well”, Gary chuckles, and Goh smiles at them.
“Well, that's great news then, I’m glad to hear that”, Goh says as he steals a few sips from Ash’s coffee, and Ash looks at him, offended. Goh rolls his eyes, but he gives him the coffee back anyway.
“Sorry for waking you up that early, Gary was supposed to let you know about our visit yesterday”, Tokio says, annoyed with his fiance, and Gary laughs sheepishly.
“I’m a busy guy, I might have forgotten, sorry”, Gary admits and Tokio rolls his eyes.
Goh smiles at them sympathetically, saying that it’s okay, and it’s Ash’s turn to roll his eyes. It’s definitely not okay, he lost around four important hours of needed sleep, and any amount of coffee won’t fix it. Goh saw the eye roll, so he hits Ash with his elbow. Ash scoffs in return, and Tokio laughs, saying that they should already be going anyway, because they have their flight to Johto soon.
Ash hopes for a nap, but Goh shakes his head, saying that he needs to feed the Pokemon and write the latest research report for the Professor. Ash rolls his eyes, but helps with feeding their Pokemon family, then lays on the couch, almost dozing off when Goh is working on the report. Goh glances from his laptop from time to time to watch Zorua and Grookey, who are playing around the dining room.
“Ash? Can you hide the wedding invitation from Gary and Tokio in the drawer in our room? I don’t want them to tear it off or something”, Goh says, not fully looking above his laptop, but still glancing at the playing Pokemon to make sure they’re not doing any damage to the room.
“Yeah, sure”, Ash says, trying to cover his own yawn. Goh turns to face him when he realizes Ash was probably almost falling asleep.
“Oh, sorry, were you asleep?”, Goh asks with concern in his voice, but Ash mumbles a sweet it’s okay as he brushes a kiss atop of Goh’s head, before he takes the invitation from the table before they could be damaged. Pikachu jumps on his shoulder to accompany him, and Ash pets him a few times. “You can take a nap upstairs if you’d like. I won’t disturb you”, Goh says, turning his attention back to his laptop. Ash wishes Goh could disturb him, but he nods his head nevertheless in understanding, saying a sweet don’t overwork yourself, before he heads to their room.
Pikachu jumps happily on the bed, curling in the corner of it. Ash chuckles at the sight before he opens the drawer to hide the invitation in there. He places them with extra care in there – just like Goh would want to – when a medium sized notebook that he hasn’t seen before catches his attention. He carefully takes it into his hand, and he opens it in the middle of it. With a terrified look, he closes it and puts it back to the drawer. It’s not an ordinary notebook, it’s a diary. Goh’s diary. And Ash has found it.
He takes a deep breath. He knows he shouldn’t even touch it, it’s something personal to Goh, but Ash didn’t know that Goh was writing a diary, so curiosity takes the best of him as he takes it back into his shaking hands. He quietly closes the door on the lock, and lays on the bed.
He traces the diary carefully with his thumb. It’s pretty old, which means that Goh probably started to write in it during his childhood, which would make sense – Goh was left alone for most of his days, so he filled the lonely days with spilling his thoughts into the paper. Ash exhales a shaky breath when he finally opens it on the first page. He chuckles when he sees how clumsy, but still pretty readable Goh’s handwriting was in his childhood.
Ash closes his eyes for a second before he opens them again to start reading it. Just a few pages, Ash promises himself.
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Dear diary,
My Grandma gave me to you so I can fill your blank pages with my thoughts whenever I feel lonely. I’m sure I will do that often. I’m always lonely, but I don’t need any friends, what friends are needed for anyway? I’m better on my own. Hope you will keep me company whenever I need it.
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I’m going to school again tomorrow. I hate this place, it's like hell. My classmates make a lot of fun of me. I don’t think I fit in there. I don’t wanna go there anymore. I don’t know how to tell that to my parents. I’m sure the teachers called them multiple times already so I don’t wanna worry them further.
💛
I met this kind girl today named Chloe. She invited me over to her house to do homework together. Her dad is a Professor, how cool is that?!
Chloe seems nice, maybe I’ll stick around her more often.
💜
I’m sorry for not writing anything for the past few days. An Abra keeps appearing in the apartament and I’m having so much fun playing with him!
❤️
I tagged along to the Pokemon camp with Chloe. It was so cool! We met Mew, who saved a baby Kangaskhan. I wanna be a Pokemon trainer one day and choose Mew as my first Pokemon ever. I’m going to Johto soon with my parents. Maybe I’ll meet Mew there and we can become friends?
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I don’t know how to tell Chloe that after that vacation break, I won’t be going to school anymore. My parents agreed to that. I really like Chloe, she’s always so kind to me. But…I hate it here. Some classmates are so nasty to me. I hope she will understand.
🖤
I met this guy named Tokio today, I had so much fun with him. We promised to see each other the next day, but he never showed up. Why…did he break his promise?
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I don’t need any friends.
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Dad’s sad today. He keeps looking at the picture of him and his Growlithe from a few years ago. I wonder what happened. That Growlithe doesn’t live with us anymore. I never met him, I wish I could.
🤎
It was my birthday today and my parents had to stay at work to work overnight. Did they forget that it’s my birthday today?
💙
Chloe always brings school homework to me. We’re doing it a lot together. She’s always so kind to me. She always brings a smile to my face. Sometimes I’d rather research Mew instead of doing all of that homework, but seeing Chloe makes me happy.
🤍
Chloe said she read a beautiful book today called Today Was A Fairytale. I don’t believe in fairytales. Friends are useless. I don’t think I would find anyone who would want to spend the rest of their lives with me. Chloe thinks she’s my friend. She…is, but…she chose me as her friend. I wish I could make a friend on my own, not someone who sticks to me because they feel sorry for me. I’m better on my own after all .
Ash puts the diary aside for a second, processing what he has just read. Reading about Goh’s lonely childhood was tougher than always imagining it, and seeing most of the pages covered in wet stains from tears didn’t help with it. He wishes he could turn back in time and hug little Goh, saying that one day everything’s gonna be okay. He can’t, but he can at least give a big hug to the present Goh instead.
He glances at the clock to see that only one hour has passed since he started to read the diary. Pikachu is still in deep slumber, and Ash chuckles to himself as he pets the Pokemon a few times, but the familiar touch isn’t enough to wake Pikachu up. Ash carefully hides the diary under his pillow, in hopes that Goh won’t look for it anytime soon. He heads to the dining room, leaving sleeping Pikachu alone for now, only to see that Goh has fallen asleep with his head on the table as well.
He brushes a kiss atop of Goh’s head, before shaking him gently and whispering a soft baby, wake up.
Goh slowly opens his eyes and blinks a few times to get rid of the blurriness and to see Ash more clearly.
“I think you’ve fallen asleep here”, Ash softly whispers as he moves his hand through Goh’s hair that’s falling on his eyes. “Let’s go upstairs”.
Goh shakes his head. “I need to finish that report”.
Ash chuckles at Goh’s stubbornness, but closes his laptop with swift movement, and Goh groans, hoping the last edits that he made to the report would be saved.
“You need some rest”, Ash softly says, kissing Goh’s shoulder, and it’s a matter of time before the boy would give in. Ash hopes so at least.
“No, I don’t, I need to–”, Goh still stubbornly argues, but Ash cuts him off.
“Yeah, rest”, he softly repeats, taking Goh by his hand. Goh sighs, but eventually follows Ash to their room.
All it takes is – Goh’s head in the crook of his neck, Ash’s hand moving through Goh’s hair in a comforting movement – and Goh is fast asleep. Grookey and Vee are curled together next to Pikachu in a deep slumber as well.
Ash nervously glances at Goh. He feels his breath on his neck, which means that the boy is surely in a deep sleep and won’t wake up anytime soon. Ash takes a deep breath as he quietly pulls out Goh’s diary from under his pillow to continue reading. He really hopes Goh won’t wake up anytime soon to catch him reading it.
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I did some research today. Lugia should appear in Vermillion soon. I’m so excited about it.
💛
I think my true fateful encounter was with the boy I met today. His name is Ash and he jumped on Lugia’s back just like I did. We had a ride on Lugia together and I’ve never seen Vermillion from this point of view. I was so mesmerized by the view, and maybe a little bit by Ash’s brown eyes. He’s weird, he said he heard Luiga talking to him? – that’s crazy, I didn’t hear anything. He seems cool, though, and he’s nice. I decided he’s gonna be my friend. I finally made a friend on my own! We’re gonna be research fellows at Professor’s Cerise Laboratory from now on, and I promised Ash’s mom that I’m gonna take care of him. I hope I can. I never took care of anyone in my life before but I feel like I want to spend the rest of my journeys with Ash. He feels like home, and I’ve never felt that feeling before. I feel so safe when he’s next to me. I’m so excited to see what our next adventure will be.
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I thought that Ash is like everyone else, but he isn’t. We had an argument today and I thought I lost my first true friend. He said he doesn’t need me as his friend and it hurt me so much. I know he said it because we were angry at each other, but I don’t think I can picture my life without Ash. It’s crazy because it’s only been two days since I met him, but something about him feels different. I like when he’s around me. I’m glad we made up and we’re still friends. He still saw me as his friend even if we argued earlier. It made my heart warm for some reason.
❤️
Ash effortlessly stood in front of two Hyper Beams to protect hundreds of Ivysaur, battling with only Pikachu. He said he also wanted to protect me and it made me feel so…I don’t know this feeling but it made me so happy inside. I wish I could be brave as Ash one day. I was so mesmerized by his courage, and…him. The kind of flawless I wish I could be. Can he tell that I can’t breathe whenever he’s near me?
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I think I’m in love.
🖤
Ash and I visited Galar for the first time today. Ash loves scones for some reason, but he seems like a type to love every kind of food anyway. We met this strange Scorbunny, it’s such a cool Pokemon!
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That Scorbunny followed us and it turned out he wanted to be my partner. I felt bad for declining it, because I wanted to catch Mew as my first Pokemon, but in the end Scorbunny’s hard work and determination helped me to understand what I truly want. I hope we can be good friends.
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Since I caught Scorbunny as my first Pokemon, as my goal I decided to catch every single Pokemon until I reach Mew. I think I’m good at catching, I caught a lot of bug type Pokemon today.
🤎
I lost my first Pokemon battle today, it felt so frustrating. Ash is…so good at them. I wish I could be as good as him. Watching Ash battle made me realize that Pokemon battles can be fun. I can’t wait to battle next time and see how really fun it is for myself.
💙
Ash’s determination to help any kind of Pokemon is always so mesmerizing to me. I love to admire his courage everyday. I think I’m falling for him harder and harder each time.
🤍
Today my parents met Ash for the first time. It was so embarrassing, and my mom was giving me subtle glances during our whole time together. I think they like him quite a lot.
Goh stirs in his sleep, and Ash, terrified, clumsily hides the diary under his pillow, stopping breathing for a second. Goh doesn’t wake up, but he burrows himself further into Ash’s embrace, and Ash kisses him atop of his head, tightening the grip around his body.
Ash didn't pull out the diary to read it for the rest of the day. He lets everything he has read so far sink in as he decides to take much needed rest as well and lets the tiredness finally wash over him.
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Dawn and Chloe invite the boys for another double date, and who would they be to decline the offer. The weather is nice today, a little bit chilly, but the shining sun makes up for it. Goh stretches his arms to bask in the weather, and Grookey almost falls down from his shoulder.
The walk to the Trio’s restaurant isn’t long, but it is longer with the slow pace they are walking at. No one’s in a rush, they just want to enjoy the time together and the nice weather that is in the air around them.
Ash glances subtly at Goh, but the boy catches it anyway. He offers him a warm smile, intertwining their hands together. Ash squeezes Goh’s hand in return as he focuses on the road again. He isn’t very talkative today, and well, he slept well, even if he spent most of his sleeping hours on reading Goh’s diary. There's just a lot on Ash’s mind since he accidentally came across it and started to read it. Goh’s thoughts are a lot to process, starting from his lonely childhood to the time they spent at the beginning of their journey. And the worst thing is that… it’s not the end of the diary yet. There’s still a lot of entries written there, and Ash is scared to find out what there is to discover yet. To discover how Goh felt when they went separate ways and Ash left for Alola, ghosting Goh for almost a year. Ash is aware that it was a hard time for Goh, he doesn’t need to read the diary to know that, but Ash knows that Goh sometimes isn’t completely honest with his feelings. There’s more of them hidden under the surface, and the diary is the key to that.
“Penny for your thoughts?”, Goh cuts off the train of thought in Ash’s mind as he playfully nudges him. Ash laughs, but he squeezes Goh’s hand in return.
“I’m just glad we can spend some time together, that’s all”, it’s not completely a lie, and Goh seems to buy it because he leans to place a quick, but soft kiss to Ash’s cheek.
“Me too”, is all Goh offers, fidgeting with their threaded hands, and Ash chuckles at the feeling.
“Do you know what you will order?”, Ash asks, and Goh hums deep in thought.
“We could have ice cream again”, Goh offers and Ash enthusiastically nods his head.
“Sounds nice”, he says as he chuckles at Chloe’s and Dawn’s little race to the restaurant that is already nearby.
Ash looks at Goh with a questioning look, and Goh shakes his head. “Nah, I don’t run”.
They both burst out laughing before Goh adds. “Besides, if we walk slower, there’s more time for me to enjoy the feeling of your hand in mine”, Goh stops walking for a second, and Ash stops as well, catching Goh’s gaze into his own eyes.
They stare at each for a moment just like that, like there wouldn’t be anyone around them. Ash’s mind screams do it, but his heart says that it’s still not the right time, even if Goh looks so beautifully gorgeous with the sun reflecting in his ocean blue eyes, and the shine of it enveloping his tan skin. Him getting on one knee and putting a ring on Goh’s finger would only add to the beauty of it now, but instead, he leans forward to catch Goh’s lips into a quick, but still sweet enough kiss. Goh laughs into the kiss, but as he pulls out, Ash catches the beautiful glint in Goh’s stare – it’s always pure love and honesty. Ash’s breath catches in his throat as he realizes that he has already ruined everything.
He shouldn’t touch Goh’s diary at all. It’s too late. He’s already done it, and he can’t stop himself from reading it further. He’ll ruin it all over and over like he always does.
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Today Ash passed out on the street, and I didn’t know what to do. It was so scary, I thought I was losing my best friend. Thankfully, I was able to call Chrysa and she drove to pick us up. Ash is better now, he was just sick, but I felt like I didn’t take enough care of him like I promised his mom.
💛
What’s up with Scorbunny? He tries so hard to learn that fire-type move. I don’t think he’s gonna learn it by trying to force it. His moveset is already perfect.
💜
Scorbunny evolved and…my heart aches. Raboot ignores me all the time. He doesn’t high five me anymore, and he’s sleeping in a different bed than me. I feel like it’s all my fault. I want to talk about it with someone, but I don’t know how. I don’t know how much of it I can handle anymore.
❤️
I almost left Raboot in Hoenn. I would’ve left one of my best friends without even telling him that, just like…Tokio did to me. I hate myself so much. Ash told me about his Charizard – if they could get better, then I’m sure me and Raboot will be as well. He already sits on my shoulder again more and more with each passing day. It makes me so happy.
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I caught Sobble today and I forced him into a battle. Then, he ran off. What kind of trainer am I? I wouldn’t blame him for hating me. With Ash’s help I was able to realize a lot of things today. All I have in my mind is his reassuring gaze, staring straight into my eyes and his comforting hold onto my shoulders. He will never know how much it meant to me.
🖤
We visited Ash’s mom today. She’s doing great. Pikachu ran off because he was jealous of Ash training with Riolu more than with him, and for some reason he ended up running to Pallet Town after Delia. It was nice to accompany Ash to Pallet Town to help him reconcile with Pikachu. Ash is always the one soothing my worries, it was nice to do it for him in return.
🩷
My parents got a few days off from work so we drove to Johto – to the place that left the scar on my heart, to the place I got betrayed and lied to. You have no idea how surprised I was when I met Tokio for the first time in years. It turned out Tokio wanted to meet me back at the shrine but he got sick. It was just a big misunderstanding. Now, knowing the truth, maybe one day I’ll heal from the pain of all of it.
🩶
Ash battled this strong Gym Leader named Bea and he lost. I don’t think I’ve ever seen Ash so upset before . He was so hard on himself. I didn’t know how to comfort him so I held his hand for a moment. I enjoyed this feeling a lot – holding Ash’s hand in my own. I hope Ash felt the same way.
🤎
Ash wasn’t feeling like himself today. He’s still upset about losing to Bea and all those other trainers. He dropped a class, he was so upset about it. We went to Hoenn today and we battled a super strong Flygon today. Well, mostly Raboot and I battled that Flygon because Ash was still lost in his mind. Ash inspires me a lot, especially when it comes to Pokemon battles, so I wanted to do it for him too in return, so he can start feeling like himself again. I think it worked. I’m glad he’s feeling better now. We admired a sunset on the way back home together, but somehow I felt like Ash wasn’t looking at the sunset but at me. Maybe it’s just my imagination.
💙
Alola is so beautiful. Ash has so many kind friends. Kiawe was intimidating at first, but I think I understand him more now. He asked me to take care of Ash, I will gladly do that. I’m glad we came here. Now I get why Ash feels like at home here. Alola is home. I hope we come here again in the future.
🤍
Chloe accompanied us on a trip to find some fossil Pokemon today. It made me so happy. I think she had so much fun with us. Maybe she will travel with us more often from now on?
🌸
“She’s so adorable”, Serena coos, referring to Goh’s Eevee. She dozed off on her lap, and she’s guilty of even trying to stand up to interrupt her nap. Sylveon saves her, though, by taking Vee into her feelers to put the napping Pokemon next to her gently on the floor instead. Serena thanks her with a smile before she turns her attention back to Goh. “Did you think of what you would like Eevee to evolve into?”
Goh tilts his head. He honestly didn't think of it before, never put any thought into it. He…would be okay with any of the Eevee evolved forms, he doesn’t own any yet after all, but Goh feels that he shouldn't be the one making this decision.
“Whatever she wants to evolve into”, Goh eventually offers, looking fondly at napping Vee, and Serena follows his gaze.
She chuckles. “I expected that answer. No matter what form she decides, you’ll still be good friends”.
“I think so too”, Goh smiles, and Serena looks at him again, seeing that his smile is rather sad. “She was pretty hesitant of me at first, we didn’t get along well”, Goh confesses, and Serena nods to his words. “Ash said that Vee reminded him of your Sylveon back when she was an Eevee, but with the difference that your Eevee was hesitant of other people around her”.
“Oh yeah, that’s true”, Serena admits, chuckling softly. “She was pretty shy, but she’s grown into a confident Sylveon”, she says, putting a comforting hand on Goh’s shoulder. “Whether Vee wants to stay as Eevee or evolve, she will still love you. I can tell you both care a lot about each other”.
Goh’s eyes soften at Serena’s words as he finally offers her an honest smile. “I’m glad you think so”.
“What’s up with the sudden mood shift?”, Ash asks, walking to the table with tea in his hand. Goh can tell that he has tried his hardest not to spill anything on the whole walk to the table. He appreciates the gesture. “I ordered you the tea you wanted”.
Goh thanks him with a smile before he answers his question. “Oh, nothing. We were just talking about Vee’s possible evolution”.
“Cool. I can picture her evolving into Umbreon or Espeon”, Ash truthfully says, kissing Goh atop of his head, and Goh doesn’t miss a beat how both of them are evolving through friendship.
“Or maybe even Sylveon”, Serena offers too, chuckling when Ash sneakily tries to steal some sips of Goh’s tea.
Goh swats his hands away, but intertwines one of them with his own, and Ash immediately squeezes the hold. He whispers a quiet you’re not gonna drink it all anyway, and Goh rolls his eyes, but does share the tea with Ash, because that’s true.
They’re waiting for May so they can all go shopping. Goh personally never enjoyed shopping, he never really cared about the clothes he was wearing (he looks great in anything he wears anyway), but Serena is an expert with style and fashion and she insisted that Goh needs something fresh in his look, so he agreed to spend a few hours in the shopping centre.
“Going with us?”, Goh whispers when May finally arrives with Lisia, but Ash shakes his head.
“Nah, I’ll stay here at the cafe and enjoy the weather. Go and have fun”, Ash encourages, and Goh nods his head and places a quick kiss on Ash’s lips before they head off to the centre.
Pikachu whines on Ash’s shoulder before jumping on the table and giving his trainer a judgemental look. Ash sighs. “I know, buddy, I’m playing with fire right now”.
Pikachu agrees, but decides to stay out of this and take a nap while Ash is destroying Goh’s trust they rebuilt together by turning every page of the diary further and further.
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I battled Zapdos today, I lost, but it was so fun! I can tell Flygon and Raboot enjoyed the battle too. Raboot even learned a new move! During the battle, I felt like falling apart, but Ash once again soothed my worries. He’s such a good friend.
P.S It turns out that having a yummy dinner is more important than having a bath.
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I’m so sorry for not writing anything for the past fews days. They were crazy but full of fun adventures.
Ash and I traveled to the Galar region and we got separated. I was worried sick about him, and I missed him. I met this cool girl named Sonia. Her driving skills are terrifying. I was able to Dynamax Raboot, that was so fun, and Sonia and I were able to research that ancient hero legend. I’m sure she’s gonna be a good Pokemon Professor like she wants to. The other day, I had a tough battle, and Raboot evolved into Cinderace! The first thing he did was hug me and I never was happier in my life. He’s bigger now and he won’t be able to squeeze into my shoulder anymore, but I’ll make sure we’re still gonna be good friends. Then, I finally reunited with Ash. His Riolu evolved into Lucario, how cool is that?! For a second, I wanted to hug Ash, I really missed him. I think it’s the longest time we were apart, except for my recent trip to Johto. I didn’t hug him and I regret that. I hope one day I can tell him how much he means to me. Then, we battled Eternatus, alongside Zacian and Zamazenta and Ash and I were able to catch it. The first legendary Pokemon I caught! I’m so excited for our next adventures!
💜
Today Ash and I battled Mewtwo. A Pokemon similar to Mew. I really wanted to catch him. I didn’t, but it still was so much fun to battle him. Mewtwo brought us back to the Cerise Laboratory and Ash said something about the future being in the palms of our hands. I wonder what he meant by it. I’m really glad it’s not the end of our journey yet. I hope it lasts forever.
❤️
Today I…had to go back to school. I only took the brief test and the rest of the day thankfully was focused on the Eevee thT Chloe has found and caught. Her first Pokemon partner! I’m so happy for her.
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Today was the worst day ever. I attended school again and I was so anxious for the whole day. Chloe tried to distract me and it helped a little, but then some of the classmates followed us and made fun of me. One of them pushed me to the ground, and they called me a cry baby. Is it wrong to express my feelings this way? I feel like I’m weak. I couldn’t even stand up for myself. Chloe is the best. She stuck with me even when the classmates were telling her not to be friends with me. She chose me. I hope she knows how much it means to me. I will always appreciate her. I also had a panic attack, it was scary but Ash comforted me, I really wish he could know how much it meant to me. I couldn’t fall asleep so Ash laid next to me and kept me company. I had another panic attack and Ash tried to soothe me by touching my chest. I panicked. It reminded me of how the classmate pushed me to the ground. I think I’m scared of people touching my chest, it brings me bad memories. I see his face and his hand all over me all the time. It hurts and I hate it. I feel bad because Ash just tried to comfort me, I hope he knows that I really appreciate everything he does for me.
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My parents were so understanding towards the whole situation and we decided that I need a break. Even if I appreciate the break, I can’t wait to be back with Ash and Chloe to do more research. I miss them.
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The classmates that made fun of me were expelled. I’m so relieved to hear that. Maybe the school will be more enjoyable to attend from now on.
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I caught Suicune to help him escape from the hunters. He got hurt and he didn’t trust me to heal him. I’m glad he understood my intentions. I tried to release him but he wanted to stay as my Pokemon. I’m so grateful for that. I hope Suicune can roam the world peacefully. I wonder if we’ll ever meet again.
🤎
Today’s day was crazy (and maybe a little bit fun). I had Gulpin stuck to my head and Ash walked me to the Cerise Laboratory by the hand. He was holding my hand! We held hands!! His hand was so soft and I loved how safe I felt. It felt so special. I was so blushing under the Gulpin on my head and I’m glad Ash didn’t see it. It was so embarrassing. I really wish Ash knew how much I loved the feeling of his hand in mine. Chloe encouraged me to play that game when you take off the flower’s petals to find out if your crush feels the same about you, maybe it’s my wishful thinking…
💙
He loves me not.
🤍
Ash holds Goh extra tight this night. As the boy is quietly breathing into the sleep, he kisses him atop of his head and intertwines their hands together. With the last bit of energy before falling asleep, Goh squeezes Ash’s hand back. Ash wishes Goh would know how much he enjoyed holding his hand for the first time ever too. Nothing has beaten that feeling. Maybe Ash will be brave enough to tell Goh that, but it would be equal with confessing to Goh that he has read his diary, and he’s not ready for that. Not quite yet.
🌸
Why would you wanna break a perfectly good heart?
Why would you wanna take
our love and tear it all apart now?