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1. carry all the pain away by writhing

   Fandoms: Twilight Series - Stephenie Meyer, Twilight Series - All Media Types  

   • Mature
   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • F/M
   • Work in Progress

   14 Feb 2026

   Tags

   • No Archive Warnings Apply
   • Paul Lahote/Original Female Character(s)
   • Jacob Black/Leah Clearwater
   • Rachel Black/Paul Lahote
   • Nahuel (Twilight)/Original Female Character(s)
   • Paul Lahote
   • Jacob Black
   • Leah Clearwater
   • Jared Cameron
   • Kim Connweller
   • Sam Uley
   • Emily Young (Twilight)
   • Embry Call
   • Quil Ateara V
   • Seth Clearwater
   • Cullen Family (Twilight)
   • Denali Coven (Twilight)
   • Nahuel (Twilight)
   • Renesmee Cullen
   • Jacob Black's Pack (Twilight)
   • Blood and Violence
   • Vampires
   • Werewolves
   • Forbidden Love
   • hurt with only a little comfort
   • Vignette
   • Depression
   • Friends to Lovers to Enemies
   • Imprinting (Twilight)
   • but also anti-imprinting
   • Female Character of Color
   • fueled by depression and la dispute's album "panorama"
   • Suffering
   • Heartbreak
   • Swearing
   • Murder
   • Flashbacks
   • Grief/Mourning
   • Eventual Smut
   • this is gonna be a sad one so hold on tight spidermonkeys
   • Non-Linear Narrative
   • Whump
   • Not Canon Compliant
   • OC is Mexican
   • Post-Breaking Dawn (Twilight)
   • the pack doesn’t cut their hair
   • no matching (and inaccurate) tribal tattoos either
   • Character(s) of Color
   • the other theme song for this fic is "to wish impossible things" by the cure
   • First Love
   • Angela Weber is oc’s cousin and is also Mexican
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Broken canon friendships
   • Alpha Jacob Black
   • Heavy Angst
   • Character Death
   • Alternate Universe - Canon Divergence
   • Mild Gore
   • Suicide Attempt
   • Protective Paul Lahote
   • soft Paul Lahote
   • Doomed Lovers - Freeform
   • Angst and Romance
   • implied racism
   • NO CHILD IMPRINTS - Freeform
   • The pack is very anti-Cullen (and anti-vampire in general)
   • Vampire/Werewolf Romance

   Summary

   I will be the one who chases you out in the snow,
   go where you tunnel down and the trouble starts,
   I will follow you out and carry all the pain away

   —

   If Paul had known they would end up this way, he would’ve held her a little longer, a little tighter the last night he’d seen her. He would’ve relished the softness of her skin and the jasmine in her scent and the serenity of watching her eyes close as she drifted to sleep. He would’ve whispered to her—over and over and over again—that he was hers, that he loved her, that he would always choose her.

   He would’ve never let her go.

   And if he hadn't, they wouldn't be standing on opposite sides of the old treaty line, one flanking his Alpha, a lethal snarl ripping through his throat as a white-hot flame of rage burned inside him; and the other with her hand outstretched, skin glinting in the sunlight as sorrow and yearning and something predatory, something starving swam in the blood red of her eyes.

   No, it wasn't supposed to be like this. Paul's missing girlfriend wasn't supposed to be a bloodsucker.

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   Chapters:

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