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- Hi, mom. How are you doing?
- You’re doing fine? As usual? That’s great, mom.
- Yeah, Chay’s back in school, and he says he’s enjoying it. I hope that’s the truth. I mean, he didn’t tell me when he decided to take a break, so who knows, really. But hey, that’s part of growing up, right? Rebellious phase and so on?
- He’d probably have told you, though. I always told you everything.
- I really miss you, Mom. I wish I could talk to you, properly. There are so many things I want to ask you. So many things I want you to hear me tell you.
- I’m being ungrateful, I know. At least you’re here now. That’s more than we’ve had so far.
- You know, back when I was a kid, I thought my life would be just like yours was – or, I guess, what I thought yours was like. There’s so much I didn’t know, back then. I wish you’d had the chance to tell me.
- I’ll never forgive Korn for taking that chance away from us. Or Gun, but Gun’s dead. I hope Korn dies soon, too.
- I can’t tell that to Kinn. He’d understand, but it would make him sad, probably.
- I don’t think you would have approved of Kinn. You tried so hard to get away from this life, and he dragged me back into it, after all.
- He makes me so happy, though. I think you would’ve forgiven him when you saw how happy he makes me.
- You know, I barely remember what you and dad were like together. I remember that you laughed a lot together, and that you’d pretend not to notice when I snuck into your bed in the mornings. You’d act all surprised when you discovered me, eventually.
- I also remember how you’d always say dad was the love of your life. Your soulmate. You knew right away that he was special. You said you felt it in your heart, deep inside.
- I waited for that special feeling for so long, you know? So long. I really held out for that instant, special connection. Just like you always said you did.
- It took me ages to realize that I was waiting for a fairy tale. A bedtime story you tell your kid before he falls asleep.
- Actually, I think I only fully realized when I met Kinn. No, when I fell in love with him, because those were two different moments. It wasn’t instant at all.
- If you’d gotten to talk to me about love when I was older, would you have told me that even soulmates take work? That it’s a choice you make every day?
- I think I’ll choose Kinn every day for the rest of my life, mom.
- Oh, wow, look at the time. It’s late already.
- You know what, mom? Next time I come, I’ll bring Kinn. I’ll introduce you to him. I think you’ll get along great.