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I lied about a lot of things, I lied to Hell, I lied about being alone, I lied about being a good person, I lied, and I had to admit, God punished me.
No, this is not about my fall, not about my fate, not even about why I'm looking at you right now and almost crying.
I'm like a child, no one taught me how to tell the truth, no one answered my questions, no one ever let me be me.
But you made me feel good.
In humans, feelings like that are called love, but we are far from being humans, not even Angel and Demon.
We're nothing now.
We're on our own side.
Though now I'm not sure if we were ever on the same side, because I was the one who was with you, not you-you just didn't chase me away.
My eyes are watering, my hands are shaking, every part of my human body is trembling, every molecule of my gut is terrified.
I'm no longer hiding, no longer ignoring, no longer lying. Not to you, in the middle of the night, of the day, of Armageddon, I would come rushing in and encase you in an awkward embrace.
And you would always return the favour.
But not now.
Now I think back to that warm day when you thought you had fallen. You were trembling, almost sobbing, but what was your surprise at my indifference to the Rules. It was not my purpose to tempt you, only to draw you to my side for an endless friendship.
For a friend would be worth more to me than Hell, Heaven and God.
But I wasn't worth a cent to you.
I guess I wasn't wrong.
But here I am again, as if millions of years had passed, but you stood in the same place, looking at me in bewilderment and fear.
- Goodbye, we won't see each other again - I say and angrily head towards the exit.
Whether I lied to you or not, I don't know yet.
All I know is that my fear is stronger than my mind, and my right foot is pressing the pedal to the floor. I want to scream now more than anything, but my throat is just a muffled gurgle.
But I know one thing - I'm a Demon, and it's in my nature to lie.