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They were done with their dance practice for today, and San glanced at the digital clock on the wall – 20:13. Well, they finished things really early today, and he was absolutely thankful for it because he was starting to feel exhausted, together with the slight anxiety creeping up. He gulps down half of the water in his bottle while sitting with his back resting against the mirror. At the moment he looked up, he saw Yunho carrying Mingi bridal style with Mingi's arms wrapped around his boyfriend's neck, with their laughter filling the room. San bites his lower lip and looks down immediately at his bottle, as he could feel his heart hurt and his face heating up while telling himself mentally to not cry out.
Seonghwa, who was turning off the music and computer, noticed San's facial expressions and how tense he was in the mirror. He nudges Hongjoong, who was next to him, before signalling to San with his eyes. The leader smiles slightly before making his way to the male.
"San-ah~ Why do you look so down?"
Upon the leader's words, the others stopped their own activities to look at San, which made the male blush in embarrassment with the attention he was receiving. Both Yunho and Mingi made their way quickly to San, beating their leader's speed before crouching next to him – Yunho at his right, Mingi at his left. Wooyoung covers his mouth with his hand, holding back his laughter, as he finds it cute and funny how embarrassed San is right now.
"Our Sannie, what's wrong? Are you sick?" Yunho asks as he placed his hand against the male's forehead, with Mingi looking at him worriedly. San shakes his head upon the question and stands up. He looks at the members and fakes a smile before telling them that it's time to go home. The others nod their heads and start packing to go home, but Yunho and Mingi know that the smile was fake, which made them think as to why San was faking his smile. Mingi looks at his boyfriend, and before he could overthink anything, Yunho holds his hand to give it a gentle, reassuring squeeze, and they stand up to go home.
Little did they know, San witnessed their little moment again, and it broke his heart even more. San sniffles as he fails to hold back his tears, and he rushes out of the room with his bag before he accidentally slams the door, which gets the attention of the members again. Yeosang and Wooyoung glanced at each other before rushing out after San while carrying their stuff.
"San-ah!"
"Choi San!"
San increases his pace in walking as the tears roll down on his cheeks before Yeosang grabs him by the wrist to turn him around. "What?" San asks as his lips tremble with the tears that keep rolling down. Both Yeosang and Wooyoung were shocked, as they had never seen this side of him. Yeosang holds his hands, and Wooyoung goes next to San to rub his back soothingly.
"What's wrong, Sannie..." Yeosang asks softly, and San squats down on the floor as he bursts out crying, which makes the two hug him immediately. The others rush out of the room after cleaning, as they were worried about San, only to find that he was crying in the middle of the hallway with Yeosang and Wooyoung comforting him. Mingi bites his lower lip as he tugs Yunho's shirt gently to get his attention. The tallest male looks at him worriedly before he and Mingi go to San.
"Sannie… What's wrong? Is there anything you need? Please tell us…" Mingi said as he strokes the male's head, and San looks up at him with his red, teary eyes, which is a painful sight for the members. "I just… feel a bit unwell and exhausted," San said softly, and Hongjoong urged them to go home immediately for San to rest. Yunho carries San bridal style in his arms with the members following them from behind before they leave the company with their manager.
As they were in the car, San was seated in between Yunho and Mingi with his head resting on Yunho's shoulder. Mingi holds San's left hand in his right one to stroke the knuckles gently with his thumb. San was closing his eyes as he pretended to sleep because it was impossible for him to actually sleep when he was sandwiched in between his crushes. At this point, he wouldn't be surprised if Yunho and Mingi caught on to his feelings for them. Seonghwa, Yeosang, Wooyoung and Jongho, who were at the back, noticed how Yunho and Mingi are around San, and they look at each other knowingly.
Hongjoong, who was at the front passenger seat next to the manager, glanced at the others through the rearview mirror and just smiled to himself. Their manager noticed that the male was smiling, which made him call out to Hongjoong softly. "The kids look cute at the back. Do you think something happened to Sannie, hyung? I've never seen him that distressed, and he broke down in the middle of the hallway…" The manager hums as he's thinking. Hongjoong rarely shows his concern in front of the members, but instead, he shows it and expresses it to their manager. Seeing how worried the leader looks regarding San's condition, he just knows that the leader will definitely talk to the male and might sit him out during practices.
"I'm sure he's okay, Hongjoong-ah. He might be too exhausted, which explains why he burst out into tears. Don't worry so much, mhm? Just make sure he takes his vitamins and all those important things. Let me know if things get out of hand," the manager advises, and Hongjoong hums while nodding his head in response, telling himself on the inside to not worry so much about the younger. He leans his head back against the chair, looking outside the window – enjoying the night scenery.
At the back seat, San, who was resting his head on Yunho's shoulder, fluttered his eyes open only to meet with Mingi's eyes, who was fixing his necklace that was slightly tangled. Mingi saw it and instantly smiled. "Hey, Sannie. How are you feeling?" Yunho hums questioningly before glancing down to also look at San before flashing his wide, happy smile when San's orbs look at him. Fuck. Why are they looking straight at him? How is he supposed to think straight right now...? San hums softly while nodding his head before he smiles a little, genuinely, at them.
"There's the smile that we love so much," Yunho said as he leaned down to peck the male's forehead before Mingi poked his cheek softly. "Our pretty Sannie." San blinks his eyes and bites his lower lip at their words. It seems like both of the tall males love his reaction so much that they start to shower their love and affection on him, but the thing is, he has never seen the two of them act this affectionate to anyone else. Yunho nuzzles his nose against San's forehead, with Mingi pecking his left cheek. At this point, anyone to see the three of them would think that they're a couple, a cute one. San accidentally let out a soft whine, which made Yunho and Mingi squeal, as they found it adorable.
San hides his face as he's blushing, trying to hide his red cheeks as he doesn't want them to think otherwise of him. Jongho, who was in his playful mood, decided to tease him with the idea from Wooyoung even though Seonghwa told them to not do it. Yeosang, too, was afraid that the 'idea' would backfire, but the two of them went ahead with it nonetheless.
"Is Sannie hyung blushing?" Jongho asks playfully with Wooyoung cooing over them before they giggle. Mingi cups San's cheeks gently with his hands to make the male look at him, and San curses internally. Mingi giggles softly over how cute the male looks with his cheeks all red. Yunho ruffles the male's hair gently and pokes San's cheek with his index finger. "Oho~ I wonder why our Sannie is blushing. Do you like us, San-ah?" Yunho asks, and San's breath hitches just like a deer in the headlights. The others except Hongjoong could see how tense his body was, and before they could question him, the manager announced that they've arrived at their dorm. San covers his head, slightly hiding his face with the hoodie he's wearing, before getting up from his seat to leave the van first and rushes inside to get in the elevator before the others could follow him.
Once again, he left them clueless, wondering what just happened in the van. The manager was shocked by the male's odd behaviour, which made him urge the others to quickly head upstairs and check on San. Fast forward to where San is; he enters the shower before the others could get to him and question this and that. He knows that they'll still ask him when he's out of the shower, but for now, he just wants to be in the bathroom, under the shower with warm water over his body as he tries to not overthink. But what exactly does Yunho mean just now? Do they know that he likes them? Or was he just playing?
San doesn't know when he starts liking them romantically, but both Yeosang and Wooyoung make him realise that he likes Yunho and Mingi at the same time. If you ask him the reason he likes them, he wouldn't know what to say. His feelings for them are just unexplainable – it's too much in a good way, maybe, but unexplainable. Maybe it's because they care so much for him that it flutters his heart; maybe it's how they express their feelings honestly that makes him feel connected to them. There are so many things and possibilities, and he just doesn't know how to express them. All he knows is that he wants to be a part of them, have what they have, and share everything together. Even though that sounds selfish, he really wants it; he craves it so bad.
His thoughts were interrupted when he heard the sound of a passcode being entered before the front door opened with the sound of footsteps following after. The living room was filled with soft murmurs before he heard his name being mentioned a few times, then he heard Yunho's voice loud and clear. "It's okay, guys. Mingi and I will talk to him later. I feel like only the two of us could actually get something out of him. We noticed how tense he is today whenever he's with us, so... we just wanna know what happened or what he's thinking."
The others responded with hums and okays before they went to their room, as Seonghwa said that he was in the shower. San leans his back against the wall and heaves out a deep sigh, thinking about what to do or say when they call for him later. Should he tell the truth and maybe mess up the friendship? Or should he keep his feelings inside and suffer, but the friendship is okay?
After about half an hour in the bathroom, the male turns off the shower and gets dressed before leaving the bathroom with his towel wrapped around his head to dry his hair. He opens the door slowly and walks out, dropping his dirty outfit in the laundry basket before he gasps in shock at the moment someone called his name. He turns around to see Yunho making coffee in the kitchen with a smile on his face. That damn smile that makes his heart flutter.
"I'm sorry, did I scare you?" Yunho asks, and San shakes his head, telling him not to worry about it. "Can Mingi and I talk to you? We have something important to tell and ask you. Is that okay?" San nods his head at the question while flashing a smile. Right, he needs to do this for his own sake.
Yunho smiles widely and tells the male to sit on the couch while waiting for Mingi, who was at the balcony, bringing their dry clothes in. The male hums in response and does as he was told – sits on the couch with his hands clasped tightly together, nervous of what they're going to tell and ask him. San rubs his face with his hands and tells himself to be mentally and emotionally prepared for whatever's coming for him after this.
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After a few minutes of waiting on the couch, Yunho came to him while bringing a small tray with 3 cute mugs and a bowl of snacks on it. The tall male placed the tray on the coffee table in front of him and plopped down next to him with his right hand placed on San's left thigh. Before San could even process things, Mingi sat next to him and wrapped his left arm around the small male's shoulders. San's heart was beating so fast that he thinks he's going to go into panic mode sooner or later. Yunho gave his thigh a gentle squeeze as reassurance, and Mingi cleared his throat to get both their attention. San looks to the right at Mingi, blinking his eyes as he's super nervous of what they have to say to him.
"Sannie… Before we say anything, I just wanna ask – are you okay today?"
"Please be honest with us, San-ah. We literally could see and sense how tense you are today, especially with us. Did we do or say something that hurt your feelings?" Yunho asks after Mingi's question, and San just wants to bite his fist. He really forgot how transparent he is with the members and how both of them always, always know what's going on even without anyone admitting anything. San bites his lower lip and looks down at his hands as he's fidgeting with his fingers nervously. Mingi glanced at Yunho to give a signal, and the tallest male nodded slightly.
Yunho slips his hand over San's to hold the male's hand gently before stroking his knuckles with his thumb to soothe him. Mingi placed his hand on San's back to stroke it there soothingly. As much as they wanna get answers out of San, they don't wanna pressure him or stress him out. San takes a deep breath and exhales before he leans back against the couch while still holding onto Yunho's hand. Both of them are looking at him with love and concern at the same time, which actually pressures San just a teeny tiny bit.
"Is it us?"
"Do you feel uncomfortable with us?"
"Did we do too much skinship with you or something?"
"Say something, anything, San-ah…"
San takes a deep breath again before he blurts out. "I like you guys. I like… the two of you at the same time..." Mingi and Yunho look at each other before Yunho speaks up. "We like you too, Sannie. Both of us do." The male groans out in frustration and stomps his feet against the floor, which made both Yunho and Mingi smile widely before they held it back because San was kind of being serious at the moment.
"No… I like you both romantically, as in I wanna date both of you at the same time. I wanna be included in everything that you're doing, wanna be loved and pampered by both of you like how you guys did to each other. I don't know, but I feel so left out and jealous whenever the two of you are being affectionate towards each other, and I have no right to feel that way because both of you are boyfriends; I'm the outsider here…"
"No, Sannie. You're not an outsider, never. Don't say that," Mingi shakes his head as he tells San softly while stroking the male's back gently. He looks at Yunho, who was running his fingers through San's hair while looking at the smaller male lovingly, and Mingi could feel happiness spreading inside of him. Yunho nods his head upon Mingi's words, agreeing to it before giving the two of them their own cup of coffee.
San looks at the cup and takes a sip of the drink with so many thoughts playing in his head. He doesn't know if they're mad or confused with his words, feelings for them as they didn't say anything yet. He placed the cup on the table before fidgeting with his fingers again, which caught Yunho's attention. Yunho clears his throat to signal something for Mingi, and the two of them scoot closer to San so that their knees touch.
The smaller male presses his lips together tightly and Yunho leans in to press a soft kiss against his cheek. "San-ah. We understand your feelings and we're honestly so grateful you told us thatㅡ"
"It's okay… I understand. You respect my feelings and all but I know how things are. I'm sorry for liking both of youㅡ" Mingi placed his index finger against his lips to stop him from speaking before telling him that Yunho is still talking and they want him to listen and pay attention to what they're about to tell him, as it's urgent. San nods his head in response and calms down, telling Yunho to continue. Yunho flashes a smile at San while stroking his head gently before continuing.
"We're glad that you told us because... Sannie, we like you too. No, we love you. At this point, anyone can see that we've been head over heels for you ever since trainee days. When we first saw you, you were so cute, innocent and just… you. How you are from the day we met until today – now, you're still the same. Still the same kind, cute, innocent, empathetic, caring Choi San, and we fall even deeper and more for you," Yunho confessed while holding both San's and Mingi's hands in his as he looks at them with adoration and love in his eyes. Mingi giggles softly as he leans in to nuzzle his nose against San's cheek before nodding his head.
San looks at Yunho with tears welling up in his eyes - feeling loved, wanted, touched and other sort of feelings. Yunho panics when the male cries as he cups his cheeks gently in his big hands, wiping the tears away, with Mingi frantically asking what was wrong or if they said something hurtful. San shakes his head before breaking out into smiles.
"No, you guys didn't say anything wrong. I'm just so happy right now… And I feel bad because earlier, after we were done with the dance practice, I saw how happy you guys are, and I feel so jealous. I thought to myself that I want it too; I wanna be happy like that with you guys and… I feel so sorry because I shouldn't feel that way, but I did. I burst out crying because I was exhausted. I've been thinking about some stuff that drained me out a bit, and seeing you both today made me feel jealous and made me realise that I want both of you, which seemed impossible before this. I'm sorry for behaving like this…"
Yunho and Mingi were quiet for a few minutes as they were digesting the male's words before hugging San tightly in their arms. The male widened his eyes as he was stunned at their sudden actions before closing his eyes, smiling widely that his eye-smile, dimples appeared and hug them back. His heart was beating fast, his stomach flipped, and all sorts of thoughts were rushing in, but he loves this; he loves the affection and the warmth he's receiving.
San looks at them after Yunho pulls away from the hug, and Mingi laughs out when he sees how red the smaller male's cheeks are. Yunho chuckles and pokes his cheeks teasingly. "So… are we boyfriends now?" Mingi asks while playing with San's ring on his index finger, and the question made both Yunho and San smile widely, failing to hide their true happiness. San looks at Yunho and Mingi for confirmation before Yunho nods. "Yeah, we're boyfriends now if Sannie wants us to be." San blurts out a "yes" instantly, which makes him blush in embarrassment at the sudden fast response.
Mingi exclaims happily and cups the male's cheeks in his hands to make San look at him before he presses his plump lips against San's soft ones. The male's eyes widened as his body tensed; he definitely didn't expect for this to happen, but he managed to catch on – San closes his eyes and places his hands on Mingi's cheeks as he tilts his head to the side to deepen the kiss. Both of them could taste the slightly bitter coffee in their mouth and Yunho wraps his arms around both of them while looking, feeling so damn fucking happy that the three of them finally got together after this and that thoughts.
Both of them pull away from the kiss slowly to rest their foreheads against each other's; the corners of their lips twitched upward into a huge smile. San pecks Mingi's nose softly, and Mingi mutters a soft 'beautiful' at San. Yunho makes San turn to look at him as he says it was his turn to get the love from him. The smaller male blushes again as Yunho captures his lips gently with his hands wrapped around San's slim waist. Mingi placed his hands on San's thighs to give them soft rubs as he stared at his two beautiful boyfriends. Oh, he's definitely in love with them. So, so in love. Yunho was really skilled in kissing; San has to admit that because the tall male sucked on San's tongue easily before kissing San again but deeply this time. San was feeling absolutely overwhelmed, in a good way, of course.
After a few minutes of their make-out session, San pants out heavily with his right hand placed on his chest to feel his heart beating so damn fast. Yunho laughs softly, with Mingi giggling cutely next to him. San looks at them again, for the umpteenth time, unable to believe that he finally told them his feelings, they've sorted things out and now… are boyfriends. The three of them in a relationship at the same time.
Mingi pecks San's left cheek, with Yunho following to do the same on his right cheek. San giggles as both Yunho and Mingi smother him with kisses and affection before someone clears their throat. They look to the right to see Jongho with the others, but well, they don't look unpleasant or mad; they look happy. They congratulated the three of them before telling them to stop sucking each other's faces since dinner is arriving soon. Mingi rolls his eyes in annoyance with Yunho and San just laughing at his reaction before they clean things up to have their long-awaited dinner.