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1. And If I Were To Apologise (Don't You Dare Accept) - Indefinite Hiatus by BackgroundCharacterMaterial

   Fandoms: 原神 | Genshin Impact (Video Game)  

   • Not Rated
   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Gen
   • Work in Progress

   07 Aug 2022

   Tags

   • Creator Chose Not To Use Archive Warnings
   • Diluc & Kaeya (Genshin Impact)
   • Other shit I can't be bothered tagging rn
   • Beidou & Diluc (Genshin Impact)
   • Diluc & Kaedehara Kazuha
   • Diluc (Genshin Impact)
   • Kaeya (Genshin Impact)
   • Jean (Genshin Impact)
   • Amber (Genshin Impact)
   • Lisa (Genshin Impact)
   • Mondstadt Characters (Genshin Impact)
   • Kong | Aether (Genshin Impact)
   • Kaedehara Kazuha
   • Beidou (Genshin Impact)
   • Albedo (Genshin Impact)
   • Klee (Genshin Impact)
   • Diluc and Kaeya are Adopted Siblings (Genshin Impact)
   • Angst
   • Angst and Hurt/Comfort
   • Poison
   • Poisoning
   • Dazai Would Be Proud Of Kaeya & Diluc
   • Suicidal Thoughts
   • Truth Serum
   • Side Effect Of Some Poison
   • Diluc Is Ace n Smex Indifferent
   • Kaeya Is Ace but he's also Kaeya
   • why? because I say so
   • It ain't even relevant but neither am I
   • Because I'm a fucking moron and writing this on a whimmm
   • Self-Hatred
   • Implied/Referenced Self-Harm
   • Scars
   • Kaeya is Bad at Feelings (Genshin Impact)
   • Diluc is Bad at Feelings (Genshin Impact)
   • Diluc Angst (Genshin Impact)
   • Kaeya Angst (Genshin Impact)
   • Diluc and Kaeya Reconciliation (Genshin Impact)
   • Addiction
   • Misunderstandings
   • Self-Harm
   • poison makes thinking hard and you can't lie if you can't brain
   • I've probably forgotten to tag a bunch of shit
   • you're going into this as blind as I am
   • Parental Beidou (Genshin Impact)
   • Kaedehara Kazuha Adopts Kaedehara Kazuha's Friend's Cat
   • Diluc Needs a Hug (Genshin Impact)
   • Diluc was on the Crux for a while
   • Beidou just kind of adopts anyone on her ship
   • Diluc was no exception
   • especially with the fact he was 18yo's at the time and very depressed
   • The cats name is Toka
   • Past Kaedehara Kazuha/Kaedehara Kazuha's Friend

   Summary

   Diluc wants to blame Kaeya. Wants to say that it's all Kaeya's fault that there are burn scars littering the Cryo User's chest. Diluc wants to say that if Kaeya had come to him on any other day, he wouldn't have reacted so badly. He wants to apologise to Kaeya, and wants to tell his brother how badly he messed up.
   Diluc doesn't want Kaeya to accept it.
   It's odd. Diluc loves his brother, Diluc cares about him, wants things to go back to how they used to. Wants to fight by Kaeya's side again, and wants to protect him as he did years ago.
   But he doesn't want Kaeya to feel the same.
   He wants Kaeya to glare at him, to tell him how it's all Diluc's fault. He wants Kaeya to be mad at him, to hate him because Diluc knows he doesn't. Diluc knows that whenever Kaeya is coming to Angel's Share, the look in his eyes is one of regret. One of self-loathing.
   Kaeya blames himself, even though the fault lies with Diluc.
   And Diluc hates that.
   Hates how much of a failure of a brother he is.
   Diluc hopes that maybe if Kaeya were to shift the blame from himself to Diluc, the Cryo User might seem genuinely happy again.

   ...

   Kaeya wishes Diluc didn't hate him.

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