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    In the early hours of Saturday, the Hockey world was ablaze with the news that Ilya Rozanov was dead. Killed in a tragic car accident leaving behind a slew of devastated fans and a grieving husband still reeling in shock.

    The news also came as an incredible shock to Ilya when he awoke that same day, hungover and bleary, but very much alive. 

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    21 Feb 2026

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    It wasn’t that Ilya was jealous. It was just that…he sort of was.

    It's finally the off-season, and Ilya cannot wait for a perfectly boring summer at the cottage with his perfectly boring husband.

    Shane, however, has other ideas.

    (AKA Ilya gets jealous of a literal plant.)

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    17 Feb 2026

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    “You’re gonna have a good time once you’re there,” Buck continues, and Eddie knows he’s right— knows that any time spent with Hen is enjoyable; that Karen, though he hasn’t hung out with her in this capacity before, is a delight; that he could really use a distraction from the misery that is his life.

    Right now, though, Eddie wants to curl into a ball, tuck himself underneath the passenger seat, and decompose right into the Jeep’s recently-refurbished car flooring.

    That wouldn’t be fair to Buck, though.

    Lately, Eddie’s felt like his entire existence has been unfair to Buck.

    Five new things Eddie learns about himself in Christopher’s absence, and one thing he rediscovers.

    (Written for 9-1-1 Gotcha for Gaza.)

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    14 Feb 2026

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    To be clear, Ilya is grateful the rookies aren’t growing up the way he did in the NHL. Ilya took the hazing to the chin – humiliation rituals, beat downs, grueling practices to prove he could “hang” with the big guns on the team.

    That being said, there’s still some part of Ilya that balks at the request by the gaggle of rookies to watch The Iron Giant, a veritable children’s movie at the team’s latest movie night.

    OR: Five times Shane and Ilya were the support system for the Centaur rookies they dreamed of having when they were younger.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    Five times Ilya spends time with Yuna & David Hollander without Shane once he moves to Ottawa & one time when Shane is with them too. Otherwise known as the Hollanders adopt a second son & Ilya learns that he deserves the love from a family that he lost too early.

    5 + 1 Ilya & Hollander Parents

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