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“What do you want from me, Eddie? What do you want?”
“I want to know why you’re leaving.”
Buck’s eyebrows twitch, mouth tugging downward. “I can’t sleep in your bed anymore.” Fiddling with his napkin, he adds, quietly, “What am I supposed to do when you get a girlfriend? Sleep on your couch for the rest of my life?”
Eddie does not understand. What does any of that have to do with Buck?
“I’m not seeing anyone, Buck.”
“Yeah,” Buck says, voice fraught. “You’re not.”
Eddie gets the feeling he’s missing something. He stares at Buck, searching his features, looking for what it is. What will make Buck stop looking at him like this, like Eddie’s being mean on purpose? Like he’s saying all the wrong things?
Or: Eddie has changed. Buck likes him like this, too.
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- Part 6 of cjo + 911
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15 Feb 2026
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Buck yelled back, “I’ve always liked him!”
Chim yelled, “That’s not the question!”
Buck yelled, “IT’S MY ANSWER!”
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Or newly dating Buck and Eddie invite the 118 over for a dinner party.
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This isn’t the first time something’s gone horribly, catastrophically wrong for Buck, but it’s okay. It’ll work out in the end. It always has so far.
This is just a temporary setback. He pinkie promises.
Or, Buck loses his leg, falls in love, and gets his job back. Not necessarily in that order.
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17 Jan 2026
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Matt Russo avoids thinking about a lot of things, like his family and his best friend Danny and the girl at the liquor store.
throuple endgame. himbo x himbo x mean goth bisexual.
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- Part 1 of College Town
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19 Dec 2025
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Buck’s hair is gray at the temples, buzzed neatly on the sides and a bit longer and curlier on top than Chris remembers him wearing it, and there’s a new scar through one of his eyebrows. He looks good, like he’s living a happy life, and the only possible reason Chris can imagine for Buck to be here at Helena Diaz’s funeral in El Paso is that Chris’s father brought him.
“Why would you come?” Chris snaps at him.
Buck blinks. “Why wouldn’t I come?”
“She didn’t mean anything to you.”
“I’m not here for her,” Buck scoffs. “She is dead. I’m here for him.”
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Chris is forced to grapple with the choice he made eleven years ago when his father comes back for Helena’s funeral.
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19 Dec 2025
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He feels like shit when he's hungry, and he plays better when he's empty. The cold air doesn't touch him as much. The floodlights turn silvery-soft.
And he likes eating. Keeps his hands busy, mouth busy, mind busy. Something to chew through, putty in the ears.
Go until he can't anymore. Cycle it back out. Be ready.--
OR: Buck's had on-again, off-again bulimia since he was 14.
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Title from Psychic Friend's "We Do Not Belong".
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03 Dec 2025
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Buck's new place is too quiet so he starts listening to podcasts. One contains a poem that comes for him like a heat seeking missile.
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13 Oct 2025
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The Compact by astolat
Fandoms: Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling, Fantastic Beasts and Where to Find Them (Movies)
25 Nov 2021
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Hermione frowned. “The real question is why the magic of Britain would be failing now, in fact.”
“That is not the real question!” Ron said loudly; he’d woken up fully by now, and Harry had too; it was starting to sink in that they’d found the problem. “The real question is, how do we fix it?”
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- Part 11 of Harry Potter works
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28 Sep 2025
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stuck in secrets that i've spoken by effervescentwolf for thelonggoodbye
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
01 Aug 2025
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“Maybe you should try casual. Date a friend who would still be your friend after you break up,” Buck says, and in the same breath, without thinking, “Date me.”
He snaps his mouth shut, his entire body flushing with heat. Eddie looks at him for a very, very long second. “You.”
Through the sudden panic, Buck’s mouth goes on autopilot, “No sex, just a few dates, we’ll have an amicable break up. I already know and love Christopher. And anyway, I’m a guy. So, no need to worry about you catching feelings either.”
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Spoiler alert: it’s not casual. They don’t break up. And they have sex.
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02 Aug 2025
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Buck needs to do something reckless. There's a lawyer's business card in his wallet, but Eddie's shop is right there, so he lets himself make a different choice.
(title from Noah Kahan)
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28 Jul 2025
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Really beautiful art and some profound lines
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“If I had,” Chris lingers on the words, watching Eddie intently through the screen, “If I had conditions?”
Eddie feels his stomach knot up. It’s the first time Chris has ever alluded to a willingness to come home. Usually he just shoots Eddie down with a flat “I know” before hurrying off the call. Eddie Diaz will be damned before he lets this chance slip through his hands.
“Anything,” his voice rings with desperation in his own ears, “Whatever you need to feel ready to come home. If I can make it happen, I will.”
Chris eyes him, young face serious as a judge presiding over trial. An apt comparison because only Chris could condemn or parole Eddie. His fate is in his son’s hands so completely that if he was going to therapy, Frank would probably be concerned. Finally, Chris opens his mouth and says something so earth shattering as to crack the foundations of his father’s mind.
“Marry Buck,” Chris says firmly.
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07 Jul 2025
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They’re on that fucking hill for hours, and the rain doesn’t get heavier but it also doesn’t let up at all. It’s honestly pretty fucking miserable, just getting increasingly sodden, and there’s a fear that anyone trapped under debris could drown if they’re really fucking unlucky. They’re trying their best, but a disaster like this? Even under the best conditions, you can't save everyone. These are not the best conditions.
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Or, a S8a au where aftershocks to an earthquake take Eddie, and Buck loses it just a little.
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07 Jul 2025
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About a week after starting back at the 118, and about three weeks before he was supposed to start getting a steady check again, Buck quietly moved out of his loft—
—and into his jeep.
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06 Jun 2025
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you don't even have to try (because you are the best thing) by and_the_sun_will_rise_again
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
31 May 2025
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"[Buck]: sorry this is making no sense i’m so tired lol
[Buck]: ummm. thinking of interesting things to say…did u know that blobfish dknt rly look like thag they just get suiqshrd from coming out from under all the pressure when the fish ppl brign them up
[Buck]: damn am i a blobfish
[Buck]: wow so when i say i’m not making any sense i do rly mean that
[Buck]: anyway
[Buck]: well im sensing it is timw for me to go to bed
[Buck]: thanks for putting up with my bullshit xo nobody does it like u
[Buck]: signed, ur blobfish"
Buck, renowned double, triple, and quadruple-plus texter; Eddie, who is into that shit; and the firefam, living, working, and supporting each other.
Ft: wandering philosophical conversations while hiking, ravi saves the day (tm), bolognese, babysitting jee-yun as a love language, and eddiemaddie bestieism
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When Christopher goes missing in El Paso, Buck travels there with Eddie to find him and discovers that it’s only the beginning of a journey he’d never expected to go on, and an ending he’d never hoped he’d find.
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19 May 2025
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i'm done with having dreams (you drain all the fear from me) by tobeyourlight
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
03 Dec 2024
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Eddie pulls Buck closer, though. He grabs onto Buck’s neck gently and plays with the hair on the back of it. He can smell Buck’s cologne and aftershave and it’s a smell he hopes he never forgets. There’s a warmth wrapped around him that is seeping into his core, and it all feels too good to be true.
It is, of course. Eddie wakes up to the sound of his alarm beside him.
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Eddie's having dreams about kissing Buck. Surely this doesn't have to mean anything.
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18 Apr 2025
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Eddie’s handsome, that’s obvious, Buck clocked that the second he met him. Part of him still can’t really believe that the guy he was so threatened by at first ended up as his closest friend, which is why these weird twinges are so unsettling. Buck isn’t sure if they’re real, for one, these odd flashes of what it would be like to lean over and kiss Eddie while they’re watching a movie or brush a hand over his back while they’re in the kitchen. And for two, it’s so far out of the realm of possibility that it’s barely worth thinking about.
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17 Apr 2025
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He wonders if Buck ever thinks about it.
The sheets sticking to his damp skin, their sounds of pleasure echoing around the room, Buck telling him all the things he’s thought about doing to Eddie before. How Eddie would let him without question, knowing Buck would still take care of him even when given all the power in the world.
What this means for himself is something that’s hard to bear thinking about.
Or, Eddie comes to terms with what he deserves.
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17 Apr 2025
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When Maddie comes home for winter break her sophomore year of college, she's expecting to leave to live with Doug and follow him to med school when he goes. Instead, she leaves with her brother.
In which Maddie raises a child, Evan spends time traveling and goes through El Paso on his way, Eddie gets a divorce and builds a family, and Buck comes to terms with everything that came before.
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07 Apr 2025
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What happens when the universe (and a determined writer) conspire to bring Dean Winchester and Eliot Spencer together as often as feasibly possible.
Or: The Adventures of BabyDean and CowboyBatman
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09 Mar 2025