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    It happens in an instant.

    Over Ilya’s shoulder, Shane sees the doctor and Wiebe give each other a look, and in a sudden bout of impatient anxiety, Shane ends up saying the words that come to ruin everything.

    “Don’t touch me.”

    The effect is instantaneous. Ilya’s hands fly to his sides, and Shane gets a front row seat as Ilya’s heart breaks before his very eyes. Eyes dimming and lips trembling in slow, painful technicolor.

    It causes Shane’s heart to break, too, and he vows, immediately, never to see such a look cross his husband’s face again.

    OR Shane embarks on a mission to heal his husband’s heart, one PDA at a time.

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    21 Feb 2026

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    It was one of his favorite things to do. Watching his person play. Ilya was the most alive during it, and Shane just loved seeing him shine. In the arena, all the weight Ilya carried seemed to fall away, allowing him to be light.

    Shane’s eyes never left Ilya, and when it happened, he barely registered at first.

    It happened so fast. Suddenly the puck hit Ilya’s throat. Shane’s stomach dropped.

    Ilya couldn’t breathe.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Ilya knew sadness could kill, and it could do it quietly like it took his mother.

    So he stayed charming, desirable, and useful. He never asked for reassurance, didn’t get needy.
    He would never admit he needed Shane. Right?

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Ilya has been watching hands his whole life. His father's hands taught him that touch meant pain. His mother's hands were the only gentle ones—until they went cold. Now he has his father's hands, and he's terrified of what they might become.

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    13 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is struggling to make ends meet. After his best friend Hayden sets up a dating profile for him on a sugar baby website, he learns that there are some men who will pay for anything - even companionship.

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    08 Feb 2026