pilotflyingj
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as much sweetness as i can decently manage by pilotflyingj for marichat_04
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies)
09 Feb 2026
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If the walls of their apartment could talk, they’d speak of quiet nights in, Steve dozing in Bucky’s lap while Bucky read after dinner. They’d remember the muffled sounds of Steve’s Ma’s old record player in the background, playing Armstrong and Sinatra. They’d tell how Bucky would carry him to bed and how Steve clung to him in his sleep. If the walls could talk, they’d speak of love.
So, so much love.
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- Part 2 of because you have lived
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wear your heart on my sleeve by pilotflyingj
Fandoms: Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
07 May 2025
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When he sees her, his breath catches and tears immediately spring to his eyes. She’s so beautiful. He’s missed her so much.
“Ma?” he says, voice catching on the single syllable.
She turns to fully face him, and her expression melts into a smile, her eyes soft and loving in that way they only ever were for him.
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will you forgive my soul (when you’re too wise to trust me and too old to care) by pilotflyingj for xoxoxes, marichat_04
Fandoms: Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
02 May 2023
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Faith is a fickle thing, but Steve finds himself comforted by the idea that maybe the afterlife is real, Heaven or something close to it, and maybe when he dies — actually and fully dies, that is — he’ll get to see his Ma again. He’ll get to see her smile for longer than he can make the image linger in his brain, he’ll get to greet her with a kiss on the cheek and get one from her, too.
And the flowers. He’ll get to give her those flowers.
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- Part 1 of because you have lived
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the best and worst day of june was the one that i met you by pilotflyingj, xoxoxes
Fandoms: Red White & Royal Blue - Casey McQuiston
28 Oct 2022
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It’s not so much the words Rafael says that piss Alex off. It’s his tone, it’s the way he speaks to Alex like he’s still as naive as he was then, like he’s still that bright-eyed teenager that could be convinced to do or believe almost anything so long as it would help him be the man he wanted to be — a man like Rafael Luna.
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god knows where i would be if you hadn't found me sitting all alone in the dark by pilotflyingj
Fandoms: The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV), Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
26 Jun 2022
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Then Sam says his name, a gentle “Buck?” and it’s hushed, kind, and it blows out the flame in Bucky’s spine, calming him, because he is safe, and he’s loved, but there’s still hurt curling in his gut when he lets himself fall into Sam’s arms – because while he’s incredibly grateful for Sam, for one beautiful moment he thought Steve was there.
Recent series
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because you have lived by pilotflyingj
Fandom Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Captain America (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
09 Feb 2026
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“To know even one life has breathed easier because you have lived. This is to have succeeded.” - Ralph Waldo Emerson
(Or: Steve, Bucky, and their journeys through grief for each other, and for everything they thought they knew.)
Slow updates because this series is like, terrifyingly personal and difficult to write, but it’ll be finished eventually!
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Sharp by BirdOfHermes
Fandoms: Captain America (Chris Evans Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe, The Avengers (Marvel Movies), The Falcon and the Winter Soldier (TV)
07 Aug 2025
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You are a SHIELD agent and have worked with Sergeant James "Bucky" Barnes for several missions when one finally goes wrong. You just barely survive an encounter with a very skilled knife-wielding Hydra agent, so you ask Bucky to show you how to better defend against knife-play and the resulting training session reveals two things: (1) Bucky's as sharp as the knife he fights with and (2) it's damned hard to keep a secret crush at bay when Bucky looks hot as fucking hell handling a knife. BuckyReader one-shot. Post FATWS, but pre Thunderbolts.
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- Part 48 of White Wolf's Bane
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In Your Arms by otpcutie
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies)
15 Sep 2025
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After an incident at the White House, Steve takes care of an injured Bucky.
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- Part 4 of The President's Boy
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What I Bid by buckybarnesdeservestobehappy (hutchabelle) for Senshi
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Captain America (Chris Evans Movies)
10 Dec 2025
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When Bucky returns to the Tower after a secret mission, Steve’s waiting for him. Bucky’s ready.
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Bucky sets up a camera in the bedroom to try and help Steve work through some of the self-image hangups that predate the whole Captain America thing. Steve fights him (almost) every step of the way.
Includes an original illustration.
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Bucky brings home an old fur stole and the two of them reminisce. (By which I really mean: history has a weight, and what are they supposed to do, not fuck about it?)