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    Shane loses his game to a blizzard and his boyfriend to a bad hit, all in the same night.

    Snowed in with his parents in Montreal, he watches Ilya get stretchered off on live TV, and discovers that when your relationship is a secret, no one at the hospital thinks to call you.

    In Ottawa, Ilya wakes up with broken bones, a serious concussion, and a neatly edited brain. The months where he was lonely and depressed and fighting with Shane? Gone. He’s mentally living in the soft, hopeful beginning of things—and the more everyone tiptoes around him, the more wrong it feels.

    The Centaurs step up. The Hollanders dig in. Shane tries to convince himself that “temporary amnesia” is not the same thing as losing him.

    They’re still together. They’re technically fine.

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    23 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

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    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    19 Feb 2026

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    “I wondered if you might be able to… hint that Rozanov and I are friends. On my Instagram and other social media. So, once we announce it, the fans won’t be as shocked,” Shane said.

    Nicole blinked. “You want me to soft launch that you and Ilya Rozanov are friends?”

    “Soft launch?”

    What was this life Nicole had found herself in? About to explain a soft launch to two-time MHL MVP Shane Hollander?

    Rose tells Shane to hire her friend Nicole as his social media manager. Over many months, Nicole starts to notice that Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov might be a little bit more than rivals and friends.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    We Dem Boyz
    Vaughny added J.J, and unknown number.

    Vaughny: Fellas, I just spoke with the rookie in Ottawa, Boodram, and we realized there is no safe space in the league for minorities for us. I would make a big group chat, but I think the four of us is good enough.
    J.J: Ahhh, shit. Sounds good to me. Welcome to hell – I mean welcome to MHL Boodram!
    Vaughny: No, you were right J.J. Welcome to hell.
    Boodram: 😂😂. Thanks guys. I appreciate it.
    Shane: Yes welcome!
    Shane: Also, what does the name of the chat mean?
    J.J: Ahhh Captaine….

    Or Carter Vaughn creates a group chat with Shane, J.J and Zane and they become each other's support system.

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    17 Feb 2026

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    He remembers their last hook up, a month or so before this. He thinks that’s where his brain had started to go on the fritz. When he’d just finished blowing Ilya in the shower and Ilya had hit him with ‘You need to get laid, Hollander. Waiting for a quick fuck every couple of months is not healthy.’ Shane had acted all indignant and puffy, but only because Ilya had hit a bit too close to home with that, and he’d been so cavalier about it too. Because yeah, maybe Shane had never made a conscious decision to do it, but he felt like he only existed in short hour long snippets when he could slip away and be with Ilya. And that fucking terrified him.

    Then because Ilya was Ilya, he had to one, two punch him by saying, ‘I have ruined you. No one else would do.’ And Shane had to lock that deep in the caverns of his mind because of how true those words rang. He didn’t want it to be true, but it was.

    “I think, maybe, this whole thing is starting to mean something different to me.”

    — Or Episode 4 remix/Chapter 13 rewrite. Shane doesn’t leave after the tuna melts in Boston.

    Part 2 added.

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    17 Feb 2026