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    It wasn’t like he had to throw up, Ilya reasoned. It was just a bad habit, and he quit those all the time. But he was leaving the cottage in two days, and the thought of packing up this life with Shane into his carry-on and flying back to Boston alone was tying him in knots. He was just stressed, and vomiting made him feel lighter. He didn’t need to, though.

    Or, a study of Ilya's recklessness and unhealthy coping as a foil to Shane's ED-coded behaviors, where he has his own disordered habits. He has it under control, until he doesn't. This work is fully finished, just updating as I edit :)

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    19 Feb 2026

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    Yuna is confused when her son asks them if they can go visit Ilya Rozanov, her son's long-time rival, at the hospital, but slowly, when they take him home with them to care for him until Shane can get there, the puzzle pieces are starting to fit together.

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    13 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 11

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    Shane Hollander is doing well. He has a beautiful girlfriend, a healthy lifestyle, a real shot at the Stanley Cup. Ilya Rozanov is also doing well. His hockey has never been better, he's with a new girl every night, and it looks like the Bears might also have a shot at the cup.

    That's how it looks to everyone else. Thousands of people watch every game, but no one else picks up on the nuances, the all-too-frequent injuries, the dizzy spells. No one but them. And what the hell are they supposed to do about it?

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    11 Feb 2026

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    Shane thinks he's doing a good job at hiding the truth behind his performance diet.

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    30 Jan 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 70

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    Kip should have known. 

    It was right in his face, was it not? With the smoothies? 

    When Scott had won one game then spent the next few months ordering the same thing every game day. Then there are the strange superstitions, the unpredictable bursts of anxiety, and the impeccably neat house. 

    Kip really should have known. 

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    18 Jan 2026