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    Ilya was quiet for a long moment. "I'm scared I'm going to end up like my mother."

    Ilya is struggling while Shane is on the road with the Metros, and the distance, combined with a brutal depressive episode, leaves Ilya spiralling. When everything becomes too much and the intrusive thoughts won't stop, Ilya takes Anya for a walk - and somehow ends up at Shane's parents' house.

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    18 Feb 2026

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    Ilya celebrates a win against the Metros with his team, but his mind is already at Shane's apartment for his prize. He can't ignore his fans though, even though he can sense something is off.

    He wishes he had gone straight to Shane's apartment instead.

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    16 Feb 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 9

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    The doctors call it a miracle. Maddie calls it a recovery.

    To Buck, it just feels like being tired.

    But Eddie is there, steady and grounding, with his quiet commands and his warm hands. Eddie knows when Buck needs to rest. Eddie knows which plates are easier to hold, which clothes are softer against surgical scars, and exactly how to cut an apple so that everything feels... simpler.

    It starts with a weighted plush toy to stop the nightmares. It moves to a hand-fed snack to save his energy. It’s a slow graze of nails against a scalp until Buck doesn't even remember how to make a decision for himself—and he doesn't want to.

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    or, Eddie showed Buck it was easier to be little. (set after S2's truck bombing)

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    15 Feb 2026

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    “Holy shit! Have you all seen this?!” He yelled out with glee, breaking through the noise of the locker room. Several heads turned to look in his direction. Cameau’s eyes were glued to his phone, and he had an almost manic smile on his face. He continued to swipe down his screen and let out a booming laugh. Hayden caught Shane’s eye and raised his eyebrows in question to gauge whether or not Shane knew what had Cameau so fucking happy. Shane just shrugged and rolled his eyes. 

    “Are you going to tell us what you’re looking at or just keep laughing like an asshole?” Mitty piped back as he zipped up his bag and threw it over his shoulder. Drapeau walked over to Comeau to glance over his shoulder at this phone, and his eyes almost comically bugged out. He let out a sharp laugh. 

    “Who would have thought Rozanov was a fucking faggot!” Drapeau exclaimed as he threw his head back. 

    Shane felt like his heart stopped. The air was suddenly thicker. His vision blurred. He was pretty sure he was about to pass out. 

     

    Or, ghosts from Ilya's past make Shane realize he was always going to risk it all for the other man.

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    15 Feb 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 44

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    "You're freezing," Shane said cautiously.

    “No, no, I am so warm. But it is great! Here, look, I made food,” Ilya said and all but tore his hand back because Shane was trying to turn it over to where the cut was. He turned back to the frying pan.

    The meat was burnt. Why did that keep happening?

    “Ilya. You're really, really freaking me out right now.”

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    Ilya was a hiker. He lived on mountains and in their ravines. It was life as he had known it for over a decade. It was how Ilya was, a trait passed down from his mother.

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    11 Feb 2026