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  1. Public Bookmark 52

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    “Breathe,” Chuuya says. “This is gonna hurt like a bitch.”

    Dazai’s lips twitch. “Doesn’t Chuuya have anything for me to bite on?”

    Chuuya pauses despite himself. “…I thought that,” he starts, then stops. He clears his throat, eyes flicking briefly to the floor before coming back to Dazai’s face. “Because of Dostoyevsky. I thought maybe—”

    Dazai waves one hand dismissively, the motion weak but sharp with irritation. “Yeah, yeah, yeah. Because that holier-than-thou demon’s been leaving me gagged for days, you think I wouldn’t want anything in my mouth.”

    He grins when he says it. It’s a perfect imitation—angle of the mouth, familiar lilt—but his eyes are flat, glassy in a way that has nothing to do with humor. “I don’t,” he adds. Then, after a beat: “I also don’t want Chuuya to hear me scream.”

    or: dazai gets kidnapped and tortured. chuuya gets him back, and realizes that care is just another kind of exposure. the kiss might be a mistake. or it might not. it’s also inevitable.

    Whumpuary 2026 - Day seven - Gagged (Alt)

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    29 Jan 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 40

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    "You're a pack animal," Dazai stated. It wasn't an insult. It was a categorization.
    "Shut up."
    "You require the proximity of other biological beings to regulate your parasympathetic nervous system."

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    5 times Dazai and Chuuya shared a bed + 1 time they actually slept together

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    05 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 77

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    “I just wanted to—”

    “To talk? You thought sitting here, all sad and tragic, in our spot, would spark some nostalgia?” Chuuya scoffed. “That I’d come
    running back like some pathetic—God, I can’t believe I even came down here.”

    “I know you hate me,” Dazai said, standing up. “But—”

    “Hate you?” Chuuya tilted his head, as if he was considering it, with the kind of detachment that hurt worse than fury. “Nah. I hated you for about two years. Now I just… don’t really think about you at all. Or at least I didn’t, until you decided to make a grand comeback no one fucking asked for.”

     

    or, dazai comes back to his hometown at twenty-two, four years after leaving Chuuya without a word, trying to fix what he broke between them. In which, he isn’t particularly good at.
    small town childhood friends to lovers to messy exes to... we'll see about that.

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    22 Dec 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 20

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    I'm not gonna let you die, he thought.

    Because that was what he always did - preventing Dazai from dying, saving him even when the idiot wanted precisely that. Chuuya saved him, even if he knew that it wouldn't be appreciated, even if knew that his help wasn't even wanted. He kept doing it, doing his best to keep an eye on Dazai and save him from himself even when he knew he would receive nothing more than a cold glance in return, protecting him in battle even when he knew he wouldn't receive any thanks for it.

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    14 Dec 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 58

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    Dazai is the only one under whose skin Chuuya can’t get. Or can he?

    (Useless abilities prove useful when applied right. Kissing someone can be as scary as getting your neck snapped. Parenthood is a lesson in resilience. Every farm is also a slaughterhouse. A prayer is just an exquisite form of humiliation. And loving Chuuya is hungry work, but Dazai knows how to put his money where his mouth is.)

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    07 Dec 2025