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Avalanche by ChelseaMorningGirl for dustjackets, TheTeaQueen, This_Immortal_Hope, JellybeanJellyfish, xxValkyriesxx, ACourtofLadyDeath, Pumpkinspice_Lou, janearts, wishcamper, moodymelanist, jsmelodies, Daughterofthesea
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
23 Dec 2025
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“Nesta.”
She doesn’t turn. Doesn’t move.
The bond in his chest is screaming. Her emotions crash over him in waves—despair, worthlessness, exhaustion, and underneath it all, a terrible calm. The calm of someone who’s made a decision.
“Step down.” His voice comes out harder than he intends. The voice of a general. But inside, he’s begging for her to listen.
“Go away.” Her voice is hollow. Empty. Nothing like the sharp, cutting tone he’s used to. Nothing like the fire he’s always admired.
This is worse than her anger. It’s defeat.
“No.” He takes a careful step closer, hands out like he’s approaching a spooked animal. “I’m not leaving.”
“I don’t want you here.”
“I don’t care.” Another step. The bond is pulling tight in his chest, urging him closer. Keep her safe. Keep her alive. “I’m not leaving you alone.”
He feels a flicker of something. Confusion, maybe. Or frustration that he won’t just let her do this.
“Please,” she whispers, and the word breaks his heart. “Please just go.”
“Not a chance, sweetheart.”
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When Cassian realizes how deep his harsh words hurt Nesta on Soltice, he takes her out of Velaris and brings her to Illyria.
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24 Dec 2025
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Heavy In Your Arms by ChelseaMorningGirl
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
24 Nov 2025
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"Excuse me," she manages, standing abruptly. The room tilts slightly, and she has to catch herself on the back of her chair.
"Are you alright?" Feyre is half out of her seat, concern etched across her features.
"Yes," she says. "I just need some air."
"You look pale," Cassian says quietly. He's watching her with those sharp hazel eyes that see too much. "Maybe you should—"
"I said I'm fine." The words come out sharper than she intends, but another cramp is building and she needs to get out of here before she breaks down in front of them. Before they have more ammunition to use against her.
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Nesta's first fae cycle hits during a tense family dinner, but she doesn't understand what's happening to her body. Determined not to show weakness, she pushes through the pain until she collapses during training the next morning. When Cassian discovers the extent of her suffering, everything changes.
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24 Nov 2025
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The chair scraped against the stone as he stood.
"Everyone hates you! And you know something –"
As he said the words, a bellow that echoed off the walls, Cassian took a step forward, towards her, as if he was unable to resist pulling in her direction, when they fought like this.
But she didn't meet him halfway, as she had in the past.
No, instead, when his body moved, Nesta flinched.
Flinched so violently that she yielded two steps back, her body stumbling over the chair behind her, the silverware rattling with the force of it.
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For Nessian Week 2025: Free Day
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- Part 5 of Nessian Week 2025
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06 Oct 2025
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Beneath Your Fingertips (I Unravel) by This_Immortal_Hope
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
22 Jul 2025
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In Cassian’s mind, he wrote sonnets to this moment. Committed the view, the way she didn’t recoil from his gaze or sink deeper into the water, to his permanent memory. In his mind, he told her how achingly beautiful she was. How brave she was. He fell to his knees, dinner tray be damned, and sobbed. Admitted that the moments in which he thought she had been taken from him were the worst of his 500 years of life. Worse than any pain he could fathom. Cassian was no stranger to pain, always managed it with a stiff upper lip and a few bad jokes.
He knew, in that moment, that if Nesta had not returned from the depths of Oorid, neither would he. He would have rather the Middle claimed his immortal soul than face the reality of leaving that place without her.
In his mind, Cassian said all of that.
Out loud, he barely managed, “I … You.”
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10 Aug 2025
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To Tame A Beast by jsmelodies
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
24 Jul 2025
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When Nesta is sacrificed to the monster in the woods, she doesn’t expect to like him.
Or to trap him in a snare. Or to force him into a bargain. But what’s a woman to do?
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31 Jul 2025
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Stay Here With Me (Lay Here With Me) by Pumpkinspice_Lou
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
27 Apr 2025
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After the War, Cassian gave Nesta a magicked piece of parchment. She never thought she'd actually end up using it.
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31 Jul 2025
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How To Catch A Wife by Pumpkinspice_Lou
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
20 Jul 2025
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Every year, mortals are taken to Prythian to become fae brides. When Nesta wakes up in Illyria, she learns that their bride tradition is The Chase, but what happens when it's the General himself that's determined to chase her down and make her his wife?
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31 Jul 2025
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What if the intervention at beginning of ACOSF went a little differently?
Nesta doesn’t know how long it has been since she was abandoned at the Respite, only that she has not seen her sisters nor her... Cassian for what feels like an eternity. When Azriel learns the extent of Nesta’s isolation, he knows he needs to rescue his sister. But as unrest is growing in Prythian and beyond, will he be able to rescue her from herself, or will it all be too little too late?
An alternate telling of ACOSF from multiple perspectives focusing on Nesta's journey to healing.
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19 Jul 2025
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I don't know anything, but I know I miss you by jsmelodies
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
22 Jul 2025
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“Come here,” he said. So close to a plea. “Everything else aside, just…come here, Nes. I’m still here.”
He wasn’t—he’d been more distant than ever. Coming to bed late, and leaving for the dining room before she even had the chance to wake up properly. It felt like their last conversation had been ages ago, before the girl fell onto Rhys’ lawn.
She remembered the night before it all happened. Their last night together: her hands held above her head, and him smiling and whispering words against her neck while he made love to her.
“You are the most precious thing in the world to me,” he’d said, under the bright moonlight.
She missed his steady presence, and the physical comfort he gave so easily.
She missed him.
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Or, Nesta and Cassian struggle to come back to each other after the events of CC3.
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18 May 2025
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Two Of Us by ChelseaMorningGirl
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
02 Mar 2025
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All she knows with absolute clarity is that she is burning. That she feels white-hot anger sluicing through her veins, that silver fire stoked higher and higher as Cassian’s words barrel into her like a battering ram.
“Well, everyone fucking hates you, so well done, Nes.”
Nes. Everything seems to quiet. As if what he just said is of no consequence at all. As if the little nickname has no effect. As if she hasn’t asked him to stop calling her that more times than she can count. Everyone fucking hates you. All at once, the anger is replaced by hurt. It starts small, a fissure in her heart that travels through her body like a spider crack.
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Cassian’s words affect Nesta so deeply that she closes herself off from him, from the inevitable hurt he will inflict. Will Cassian be able to convince Nesta of his feelings, or will they crash and burn?
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29 Apr 2025
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Fissure and Thaw by TheTeaQueen
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
28 Apr 2025
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Masks had always been familiar to Nesta Archeron.
Less shiny, less deadly than the one that occasionally framed her face, these were smaller, meant for everyday wear that hid her identity in different, more vital ways.
‘Stop bouncing on your toes, Nesta. Stay still.’
The earliest effort – to stop her body from constantly moving. Constantly needing to sway or rock up and down, be it at tea, or on the promenade.
‘Sound sweet when you talk. Simpering. No one likes a monotone. And for my sake, smile.’
The bane of her mother’s existence – that her voice was not light and melodic, like Feyre’s, but rather deep-toned and inherently cold. How her face rested in a perpetual scowl regardless of her mood.
‘Watch me, copy me. That’s right.’
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In which Nesta masks to conform to her peers, until she can't anymore.
Post-HOFAS fix-it, ft. Autistic!Nesta
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- Part 2 of Nesta Week 2025
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29 Apr 2025
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Grieving The Mother's Daughter by TheTeaQueen
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
25 Apr 2025
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“Children would liven the place up,” Azriel said, when Cassian had commented how quiet the House of Wind was one morning.
Her mate had brushed it off with a laugh, but Nesta began to wonder if he was simply holding his tongue. If he, too, desired to stop taking contraceptives and try.
It took a long time, she’d been told. Years, even.
And still, she closed her eyes and saw those women. Saw her sister. And her body revolted.
They never discussed it. Never voiced aloud whether or not either of them agreed with their family’s teasing – whether the idea of a child had become too tempting to ignore. Other than her initial declaration, at the beginning of all of this, that she wanted to wait a long, long while, they never had the conversation.
Instead, Cassian was content to brush off the teasing remarks with a smile, as if it were nothing.
And Nesta was content to keep drinking her tonics like clockwork, as if were everything.
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A study in Tokophobia, for Nesta Week 2025 Day 5: Mother
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- Part 5 of Nesta Week 2025
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25 Apr 2025
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Runaway by ChelseaMorningGirl
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
02 Feb 2026
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The declaration slams into her. Shackled. The fissure of her heart is so stark and sudden, she’s surprised nobody hears the resounding crack echoing through her. She staggers back a step, putting distance between them. It makes that bond, that thread attached to her rib, linking them together, ache painfully.
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When Cassian breaks Nesta’s heart, she leaves Velaris, determined to leave everything and everyone behind for once and for all.
Unbeknownst to him, Cassian is at risk of loosing not only the love of his life, but a chance at having the one thing he has craved ever since being dumped at the Illyrian war camp as a youngling as well.- Language:
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25 Apr 2025
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Conformity by becauseofreading
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
22 Apr 2025
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Post HOFAS - Spoilers mentioined so be warned
TW: body dysmorphia, depression, self-image issues, self-harm, ED references
Nesta is dealing with the fallback of giving the Mask to Bryce. Intent on finding a way to get back into her mate's and family's good graces, Nesta realizes she needs to change. She needs to change every single thing about herself.
As the Nesta they all know slowly begins to disappear before their very eyes, the IC and especially Cassian realize how much they value the eldest Archeron. Cassian wonders if he'll ever be able to get that version of her back.
Last chapter is for Nesta week 2025
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23 Apr 2025
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If you say so by A_Bookish_Morning
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
22 Apr 2025
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Nesta breaks down while on the Hike with Cassian, but it wasn't the kind of break Cassian was hoping for.
Nesta remembers her grandmother's words, her cruelty. And forces herself to put on her old childhood mask;
Obey the man of the house.
Don’t speak, unless spoken to.
Don’t resist.
Just be quiet.
Just endure.For Nesta Archeron Appreciation Week, Day 2: Mask
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23 Apr 2025
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Hell Hath No Fury Like a Sister Scorned by TheTeaQueen
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
21 Apr 2025
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Feyre had made this child out of love, with the notion that she’d be there to raise him. Nesta had thought, as High Lady, she’d have been granted the utmost care, the ability to make every single decision, to have a full working knowledge of her world.
Instead, they treated her sister no better than they did herself. With secrets.
Nesta closed her eyes, readying for her abduction off the streets.
Instead, the earth trembled, tilted, and abruptly, the male she felt too much for yet no longer knew how to deal with was stumbling away, flames erupting between them.
“Put your hands on her and you’ll lose them.”
Nesta blinked, pushing herself upright on the wall of whatever building she’d been leaning against, and looked over the barrier to see her sister in all her glorious fury, her hand outstretched.
“Feyre,” Cassian croaked, looking as shocked as she felt, something agonized in his eyes. “Rhys told me to-”
“Speak his name to me again, I dare you.” Her sister hissed. “I know exactly what he told you.”
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Or, a different take on Nesta revealing Rhys' secret, and how Feyre reacts.
For Nesta Week 2025 Day 1: Bonds
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- Part 1 of Nesta Week 2025
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23 Apr 2025
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Three Little Words by TheTeaQueen
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
25 Jan 2023
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“Do you love me?”
The question rang out in the empty silence of the House, filling the space with the nervousness it carried, the unsurety. It’s speaker stood stiffly, hands clasped together, brows furrowed, her eyes carefully schooled but hollow enough to indicate that she’d already expected a certain answer.
“What?” He asked, bewildered, as if he hadn’t heard her correctly. "Did you just ask me if I loved you?"
“It’s just…” she started, but stopped, and suddenly that anger evaporated. Nesta never stuttered, never fumbled over her words. “It’s just, you’ve never said it before. The words, I mean.”
Cassian stared at his mate for several seconds, blinking rapidly. That couldn’t be true. After everything they’d been through, it wasn’t possible that such a thing could have been missed. Surely, he had-?
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AKA an ACOSF fix it where Cassian says I love you because sometimes people need to actually hear the words.Ft. Rhys and Azriel telling Cassian he's a moron, Gwyn telling Cassian he's a moron, the House telling Cassian he's a moron, and Cassian making everything better and showering Nesta with affection.
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19 Apr 2025
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To Know That I'm With You by ClimbTheMountain2020
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
07 Jul 2025
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After Feyre Archeron's abrupt disappearance from the manor, Nesta is effectively sold to the Mandrays to save face. But with one sister waiting patiently to start her own life and the other inspiring Nesta to seek more for herself, she flees into the woods.
Fate has a tricky way of picking the Archerons up and setting them down exactly where they belong.
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- Part 2 of (AU)rcheron Sisters
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13 Apr 2025
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An AU where, when faced with an ultimatum by the inner circle, Nesta chooses to be returned to the mortal lands rather than electing to be forcibly rehabilitated at the House of Wind.
This is a darker version of events than Nesta's canon story where she has less plot armor.
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12 Apr 2025
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One Step at a Time by Hecuba1
Fandoms: A Court of Thorns and Roses Series - Sarah J. Maas
03 Feb 2025
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Starting with the famous Fall on the stairs, my alternative take on ACOSF where Nesta actually goes on a healing journey and a more realistic take on how she and Cassian find a way to each other.
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09 Apr 2025