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“English is… is not first language,” the woman said quietly. Her accent was thick, and unmistakably Russian.
“Oh, sorry! I’m speaking too fast, aren’t I? Sorry,” she took a breath, and held out her hand. “I’m Yuna,” she repeated. The woman took her hand quickly, her hands bony and delicate.
“Irina,” she replied, before gesturing for Yuna to sit with her. Quickly, Yuna did. “Sorry, I have not been in Canada long.”
“No problem at all; welcome to Canada! Is that your boy?” Yuna asked, gesturing over to the child that had similar hair to Irina, which was poking out from under his helmet. He was taller than Shane, though his little hockey outfit still seemed to still dwarf him. He had a serious look on his face, but his eyes were light as he watched the other boys play. He was tapping his stick on the ice, clearly itching to get into the game.
“Ah, yes,” Irina nodded, taking a few seconds to translate the question, “Ilyusha.” Irina looked over at her son, a small smile on her face. “Is my Ilya.”
Or: Ilya and Irina move to Canada for a fresh start when he is six years old. He meets Shane Hollander at ice hockey practice, and they grow up together (and of course, fall in love).
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25 Feb 2026
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He’s breathing the same air as Shane Hollander. Carbon dioxide is passing from Hollander’s lungs to his. You should be mine, he thinks of commanding, on the off chance Hollander will obey. You’re the center of my world and you should be all mine.
In which Ilya has a habit, and an obsession.
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25 Feb 2026
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hell was the journey (but it brought me heaven) by sagedelights
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
03 Jan 2026
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"9-1-1, what's the address of your emergency?"
He freezes, his mind far too scrambled by panic and pain to answer.
"Hello?"
"I-I don't know," he says, realizing that he's shivering violently.
"Alright, sir, can you give me your name?"
"Shane."
He can't tell them his full name. He isn't supposed to be here.
"Okay, Shane, can you tell me what's going on?"
"They broke in," he says, his voice just barely above a whisper.
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Shane is injured during a game and he gets left behind while the Voyageurs are on a road trip. Ilya invites him to stay in Boston. Neither of them anticipates what comes next.
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- Part 1 of Hollanov Whump
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10 Feb 2026
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Shane heard the blade coming down right by his ear. The schlick of it as it sliced through the ice, echoing in the arena, the place eerily silent in a way Shane had never witnessed before.
Then, a gasp.
Or, Shane Hollander takes a blade to the throat.
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10 Jan 2026
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in the middle of the darkest night (in the middle of the hardest fight) by GatheringBlue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
18 Jan 2026
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“Ilya,” he clarified, wincing as he swallowed, his throat feeling like he’d eaten a fistful of glass. “I need to call Ilya.”
He fumbled around for his phone, desperately needing to hear his fiance’s voice. Together, they could figure this out. They’d make a plan. Ilya could drive with his parents from Ottawa and–
But Ilya wasn’t in Ottawa. He was in Russia.
No.
No.
They’d kill Ilya in Russia. They’d kill him, or arrest him, or– or–
Oh god, they’d kill him.
__________________________________________________________________________A family emergency means Ilya is in Russia when Hayden's FanMail video ends up on Twitter, outing them to the entire world. It, predictably, ends horribly.
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- Part 2 of heated rivalry fics
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