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Once, as a kid, his mother had told him about tragic geniuses. The great writers and all their neuroses and miseries, all the brilliant thinkers who drank themselves to death or cut their own lives short to avoid bearing the weight of their minds. He always knew the statistics - the predisposition of those with high IQs to drug addiction, the increased rates of mental illnesses in Mensa members, the loneliness associated with higher intelligence.
His brain had always been his greatest weapon, especially when he turned it on himself. An obsessive mind is an addictive one, and Spencer Reid was nothing if not obsessed.
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It had been Emily who had loved him enough to keep him grounded and sober. And without her, how could he ever be strong enough to do it? The constant craving for quiet had been drowned out by the sounds of her soft sighs as his body pressed against her, by the consuming sensation of her around him and on top of him and in the beating heart in his chest.
And slowly, an idea formed. He couldn't have Emily anymore. But he could find something close enough. Some approximation to act as a temporary sigil to ward off the ghosts at his door.
It had worked before and it could work again.
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Something about the moment seems loaded in the way their conversations always do. Layered, laced with double meaning and possibility. It’s the body language, her body angled towards him, their knees brushing each other, her palm resting on the couch in the scant space between them. It’s her voice, dry and cold, but softening on the last syllable like she can’t bring herself to twist the knife. It’s the crushing weight of a shared history, nights spent sweating in hotels and kissing in shadowy corners of bars on nights out with the team.
He’s not a kid, but he didn’t believe that until he had her.
(OR: After dying in Georgia, Spencer visits Elle to tell her he finally understands.)
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He tries to count how many drinks he’s had, but loses track and knows the answer is too many, no matter how high the actual number may be. He’s skinny and barely a drinker, and how much has he eaten? How much water did he drink before accepting David’s expensive aged whiskey? He realises, with a freeing kind of euphoria, the answers to those questions don’t matter. What matters is how lovely he feels, how beautiful the room is, how lucky he is that David Rossi has brought him on as his personal research assistant. How kind David has wound up being, generous with his payment and his possessions. How handsome he looks in the dim light of the empty study in the giant empty house, how Spencer wants to-
“Another?” David offers, holding up the carafe.
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Even with years of experience handling psychopaths, the man puts him on edge.
Maybe it’s his quiet confidence, the way he’d strolled into the police station with his head held high despite the handcuffs and the jeers of the arresting officers. Maybe it’s the sheer sadism of the kills, the array of tools and methods to ensure the most pain possible was inflicted on his victims. Maybe, probably, it’s the way every victim on their evidence board looks like Spencer, his own face reflected in those of the mutilated bodies of seven young men.
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Signs of Life by jukoist for caffiend
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Feb 2026
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There is a strong scent of antiseptic in the air, the kind that always haunts hospitals and morgues. Ilya thinks it is fitting. He thinks, perhaps, that some vital organ of his is failing irreparably, and he is only waiting for a doctor to call out his time of death.
“You have lost your memories.” It’s not a question. Ilya’s burning hand drops from Shane’s cheek.
“Yeah,” Shane says easily. “Wait, shit, did no one tell you?”
“Is it temporary.” Ilya’s voice is hoarse, pleading. “This memory loss, is it… tell me that it is temporary.” Please, please, God. I know I promised to give anything up, but-
Shane looks at Ilya with wide eyes. “They don’t know,” he says gently. He seems to be catching onto Ilya’s distress despite the drugs in his system.
Ilya feels cold all over. Yes, any moment now, they will cover him with a white sheet and take him away.
Shane's concussion in S01E05 leaves him missing his memories from the last decade. Ilya is now the only person in the world who knows the truth about him and Shane, and is forced to question whether to burden Shane with their complicated relationship or to walk away.
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16 Feb 2026
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The Ultimate Guide to Writing Smut Fic by QuinnAnderson for kali_asleep
Fandoms: Original Work
05 Sep 2013
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A comprehensive guide to writing both queer and het erotic fiction, written by published novelist Quinn Anderson. Includes lists of sexy words, references, and some general writing tips. Please feel free to use without credit.
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02 Mar 2025
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Blood and Water by AidaRonan for BatsAndBatsAndi (Starknip)
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
16 Sep 2023
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Self-taught witch Edwina Wynn Munson just wants to graduate high school and get the hell out of Hawkins. A spell that promises new beginnings? Sign her up. Sacrificing blood and body to the goddess Dulcana, Eddie gets what she always wanted. But at what cost?
As things turn deadly in Hawkins, Eddie realizes she's in over her head. She also realizes she's not the only witch in town. Together, she and Stevie Harrington have to figure out how to banish this hungry and possessive entity before it's too late.
Featuring sex rituals, library-based pining, and gratuitously hot outfits.
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02 Jun 2023
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“Mr Munson? Your complimentary champagne.”
Eddie Munson looks up from his phone, and his dark eyes widen in surprise. “Jesus Christ.”
“Uh. Steve, actually,” Steve offers awkwardly, hand still raised where he’d knocked. As first impressions go, Steve’s sure he is decidedly not making a good one.
“I’m sorry,” Munson huffs, shaking his head a little. His curls shiver around his face and oh god he’s even sexier in person. Steve is never going to survive. “I just- wasn’t expecting…”
“A man?” Steve preempts, with the knowledge that he’s one of two male attendants who tend to work this flight, and that it’s usually all pencil skirts and heels. Not that he’d be particularly averse-
“No, no. Someone so- attractive.”
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the flight attendant!steve/musician-model!eddie au we didn't know we needed.
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love is a battle i can win by palmviolet for beetlesandstars
Fandoms: Stranger Things (TV 2016)
25 Dec 2022
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"She’s taking a sip, dry and sharp on her tongue, when the doorbell rings a floor above, and she hears distantly Steve’s open delight, Robin, Dustin, back from the shit I won’t understand?
I’m a lesbian, Nancy thinks, taking another sip of wine. Eddie clinks his glass against hers and sneaks a slice of chorizo from Steve’s chopping board, tapping a finger against the side of his nose, shh, don’t tell, the way normal couples keep their secrets, the way honesty is earned and not borne on the back of a lie.
Love is a battle I can win. Nancy turns to face the door."
// Christmas 1994. Nancy faces her fears.
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22 Jan 2023