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“Put on the pink hat, Shane.”
“Uh, why?”
“Canadians,” Ilya groans, “I want to see you in pink. Pretty in pink, yeah?” He shoves his hand into the toque and waggles his fingers around. Like a sock puppet. Or like--Ilya smirks.
Shane is aware that he’s physically breathing, but he can’t feel any oxygen actually going to his brain. His vision is narrowing on the pink until it’s all he can see. It’s pink like women’s clothing is pink, not the salmon or beige ties in his gameday closet. It’s pink like a man isn’t. “I, uh, okay. Yeah.”
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29 Jan 2026
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After suing Bobby to come back to work, it isn't really the warm welcome back Buck had been hoping for. He's solidly on the outside of the 118 family now; it hurts less, thanks to this, when Buck has to leave again for a deployment. Buck comes back hurt, quiet, and tries to live again with everything that's happened to him on his deployment.
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23 Sep 2025
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Eddie swallowed hard. “You’re okay. Let it out. I've got you”
Buck shuddered against him. Then he spoke, barely above a whisper “I don’t feel okay.”
Eddie closed his eyes for a moment, letting the words sink in, letting the weight of them settle in his chest. He tightened his hold, lowering his voice to something barely above a breath.
“Then I’ll help you to feel okay.”
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or Buck is still facing the aftermath of going trough omega separation syndrome and the road to recover is not as linear as everyone would like.
or a fic that was supposed to be a sequel for my previous oneshot but it spiraled (just like Buck will in this fic) into a new series.
I think it can be read as a stand-alone but you won't get a full picture without the previous story
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- Part 2 of Forwards Beckon Rebound
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10 Jun 2025
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shelter my eyes from the sun (and wait for the birds to fly by) by lizzybizzyzzz
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
24 Aug 2022
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There’s always been a lingering precedent- Buck was born to save, born to die trying to at the very least. Buck couldn’t save Daniel, could barely save Chris, dragged Eddie across hot pavement under a burning fire truck, couldn't save his sister or his parents from the lifelong heartbreak of losing a child.
Buck was born to save. He’s just not too good at much else.
(or, an evan buckley character study)
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10 Mar 2025
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Buck is tired.
Everyone is doing important things, moving on with their lives, while he's stuck in this heart wrenching loop of hurt, neediness and unworthiness.
So he lets go.
Eddie asks for another chance at making things right, at keeping Buck alive and happy, and gets several. Stuck reliving the same day over and over until he figures a way out, he finally learns to listen to the universe when it screams at him.
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07 Mar 2025