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  1. Public Bookmark 78

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    Today, though, Shane told himself he hated him. He hated that Ilya left. Hated that he said nothing. Hated that he’d made Shane feel disposable.

    Sometimes Shane imagined flying to Russia, knocking on Ilya’s door, punching him square in the face and telling him exactly how much he hated him. But he knew the truth. Ilya would open the door. Shane would forget every practiced speech. And he would kiss him. Melt into him. Give himself over like he always had. Be fucked by him. And even if it was the last time they would fuck, at least he would know it was the last time this time.

    Shane didn’t hate Ilya.

    He hated that Ilya still lived in this quiet, unmovable place in his heart. It was the place that wouldn’t let him move on, wouldn’t let him heal, wouldn’t let him forget.

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    This story is canon through the 2014 Russian Olympics, then diverges. After Russia, Ilya ghosts Shane and never returns to the U.S., remaining behind to care for his father. Both Shane and Ilya carry the weight of their shared past into the present, set in June 2017.

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    15 Feb 2026

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    When Jackie Pike learns Ilya has been injured, it's her job to get Shane off the ice and to his side.

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    04 Feb 2026

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    It happened so quickly. One second, he was arguing with his infuriatingly beautiful husband with his stupid gorgeous freckles and big doe eyes. The next second the car hit a patch of ice. The following ten seconds he lost complete control of the vehicle. The final five seconds he heard a gut wrenching yell from the passenger seat and felt a blinding pain. Then, he felt and heard nothing.

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    Ilya and Shane have a fight. Then the car spins out of control. Both of their lives are changed forever.

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    15 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander and Ilya Rozanov, two names that would go down in NHL history.

    It's the annual NHL and NHLPA charity game for cancer, and Shane and Ilya are side by side, skates cutting across the ice, wedding bands beneath their gloves.

    Then, in a moment, everything changes, and Ilya is holding the life they so desperately fought for in his arms.

    “Shane. Shane, look at me. You stay with me. You hear me?”

    "I love you."

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    11 Jan 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 28

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    Shane finds a man washed up in the backyard of his family's beachside cottage, one who's left his old home behind in a dramatic and what seems to be permanent way, and Shane, in all his infinite wisdom, offers him a new one.

    or, the fic where the Hollanders (mostly Shane) take in a runaway mermaid for a summer.

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    11 Jan 2026