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The blooming twyre dizzies, but the point of touch is grounding.
His words, still, come clouded and vague, “This has happened before.”
“Not like this,” Artemy’s voice is rough and curt. Hopeful again. “You never stayed.”
He blinks. “I can’t stay. It’s not how this works.”
[Or; Daniil starts remembering.]
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27 Jan 2026
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I knew in my heart that if I slept, my body would take me back to the Crucible like a salmon beating upstream. It is that inevitable, my origin and destination.
When strange sounds are heard at the Crucible, Maria confides her investigation-- sparingly-- in the architect of its Focus, beginning a multidirectional exchange of letters between the visionaries and their perennial co-conspirators. But as unusual phenomena accelerate, the secrets of the Kains: the language of houses and dreams, experimental interactions with the fabric of time, the theory and practice of Memory, and the esoteric science of vitality and the soul-- as well as Maria's own secretiveness-- may threaten the future of their House, and even the afterlife of Wild Nina.
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25 Jan 2026
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A dead man bound to a chair, his guts spilled into his lap. An Innocence running in the rain, her silver hair stuck to her skull. A spy, his wife, her ex and his partner.
SHIVERS: SHE'S COMING BACK.
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18 Nov 2025
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A Study in Predation by Astral_Insanity
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
16 Aug 2025
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Body, eyes, hands, teeth.
Or,
“What? I dunno, I’ll just…” Yoshiki lifts his arm and bends it and is surprised to find how much it hurts. “Shit- wait…”
Hikaru watches him struggle to even touch the top of his head, then lights up and suggests, “Hey, why don’t I do it?”
“Do what?” Yoshiki mumbles, still preoccupied with figuring out the best way to go about showering.
“Wash your hair.”
Yoshiki keeps fidgeting with his hair for a second before he actually hears Hikaru, at which point he lowers his hands and turns around agonizingly slowly, like a rusted hinge that screeches when moved. “…What?"
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01 Nov 2025
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Dissecting Intimacy by stollenwurm
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
26 Oct 2025
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Humans are complex. Monsters are rather simple.
What does that make you?
“I don’t want ya to force yourself to be human,” Yoshiki says again. “So if it helps…”
You nod, eyes wide. Your insides shiver in anticipation. Even just the prospect of it has you excited. It’s lame, it’s so lame, but you can’t be bothered to care.
“Yeah,” you hear yourself say. “Let’s do it.”
Or: Love can be difficult when your love is not quite human.
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27 Oct 2025
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Heliotrope by Waiting_for_a_sunny_day
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga)
28 Nov 2025
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“Sorry, Yoshiki,” Hikaru groans as tears come out of one eye and more of him comes out of the other. “Ughh, I don’t – ”
Yoshiki can see how hard he’s trying to calm himself down, but it just isn’t working.
“It’s ok,” Yoshiki says, quiet. “It’s ok. Instead of shovin’ it back inside completely, can you try just...lettin’ it out? Just a little bit?”
He has no clue how any of this works, but maybe a half-measure is better than trying to force it all at once.
“Okay,” Hikaru says, but it sounds like a sob. More of the unknowable, incomprehensible swirl leaks out into the dark room.
“Yoshiki – shit – ‘m sorry but can I…” Hikaru’s face – what’s visible behind the bloom of him – twists in a small kind of agony. “Can I touch you? Not much. Just – ”
It's been years since Hikaru first took the body of Yoshiki's dead best friend. Despite everything - every horror and hurt - they managed to find a home in each other. Not quite friends or family. More and not. What they have is complicated, but precious.
But when Yoshiki escapes their small town – to college, to Tokyo – Hikaru follows. And things start to change for them both.
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- Part 1 of Heliotrope AU
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23 Oct 2025
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When Did You Start Being Yourself? (When in Tokyo) by Anonymous
Fandoms: 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Manga), 光が死んだ夏 | Hikaru ga Shinda Natsu | The Summer Hikaru Died (Anime)
11 Nov 2025
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(SPOILERS FOR THE MANGA)
Yoshiki kept his head down and stared at his clasped hands, struggling to stay present. The 5:30 morning train to the prefecture’s capital had been the earliest one they could find.
“Hey,” Hikaru whispered from beside him, “you think this plan will work?”
Yoshiki frowned, pressing down on his knuckles with his fingers. Despite wearing a long sleeved shirt, his newest gnarly scar was clearly visible on his hand, covering most of it. He still couldn't get used to it. “If it doesn’t, we’re both as good as dead, so…”
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When the mysterious company makes a move against Hikaru, he and Yoshiki are forced to flee Kubitachi, becoming a part of a plan that isn't even their own. Blindly putting their trust in Tanaka and accepting his help, the two run off to Tokyo. Things don't go how they expected. Both boys are forced to survive in an unknown environment as Hikaru is being hunted, keeping secrets from each other (and themselves) while struggling with inner turmoil.
Underneath it all, what keeps them going is their quest for acceptance and understanding.
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22 Oct 2025
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Feeling Not Found by Stargaleo
Fandoms: Pocket Monsters | Pokemon - All Media Types, Pocket Monsters | Pokemon (Main Video Game Series), Pocket Monsters: HeartGold & SoulSilver | Pokemon HeartGold & SoulSilver Versions, Pocket Monsters: Gold & Silver & Crystal | Pokemon Gold Silver Crystal Versions
18 May 2025
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The possibility that the same stubborn trainer who faced a terrorist organization head-on at 11 years of age would have anything to run away from never even crossed his mind. His rival wasn’t soft enough for fear—wasn't selfish enough to vanish just because she wanted to.
Crystal was long gone, and Silver was dealing with it fine. Six years was enough time to bury something. He couldn't fall apart over her anymore, not when he had a Gym to take care of now.
Then he came back.
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20 May 2025
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start again start again start again by m122y
Fandoms: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021)
10 Jan 2025
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Viktor is visited by a future version of Jayce, fresh from a world overtaken by the Arcane. And then it happens again. And again. And again.
(originally meant to be a crack fic poking fun at the prevalence of the s1!Viktor and s2!Jayce trope, but then I decided to place Viktor lovingly into the torment nexus and shake him like he's a cobb salad I bought from the supermarket deli)
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19 Jan 2025
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the line is covered in jellyfish by staroverlord
Fandoms: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021), League of Legends
28 Dec 2025
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When Viktor finally asks why Jayce stayed behind inside the Anomaly with him, Jayce stares at him as though he’s supremely disappointed by the question— as if Viktor has betrayed his own brilliance by asking something so irredeemably stupid. “How could I not? We’re partners.”
Partners, Jayce calls them. Not for the first time, Viktor wonders: Partners in what?
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Or: Jayce and Viktor survive the Hexcore, a blizzard, their own bodies, sharing a bed and all the things they’re too afraid to say. Slowly, they put themselves back together— piece by stubborn piece.
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- Part 1 of the thin semantic line
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10 Jan 2025
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Here at the End of All Things by queercatfan
Fandoms: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021)
05 Jan 2025
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After destroying the same world he always dreamed of saving, Viktor must live out decades of solitude.
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06 Jan 2025
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I've Been Trying to Make You Special by FourOddApples
Fandoms: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021)
26 Dec 2024
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The thing is…they're not dating.
Frankly, Jayce doesn't know what they are.
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Sometimes in the dark, late at night, boundaries blur. Sometimes two people exist in the in-between of all the things their relationship could be, with a lot left unsaid.
Jayce and Viktor have been dancing around each other for a long time.
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27 Dec 2024
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A being, a demon, sits at a door. It plays a game of skill with molecules. This one goes in, this one stays out.
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23 Dec 2024
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Catafalque by hexhomos
Fandoms: League of Legends, Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021)
07 Feb 2022
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“Worse than last time?” Jayce posits a guess.
“It’s, eh-” Viktor shrugs. Tilts his chin this way and that. A tsk. “Bearable. I’ve endured worse hangovers in college.” he was going for a laugh, but the punchline never truly lands. Instead, Jayce’s thumb rubs softly into the back of his palm, pressing like he wants to idle the muscle mass into something new. It’s such a small thing, whatever this is, and yet it steadies the flow of his blood; the relief of loosening a valve, flicking off a pressure switch. It’s the necessary cracking-open of his breast. Jayce squeezes. Viktor allows himself the luxury of a sigh. “You shouldn’t be here.” he mutters.
Jayce reflexively shakes his head. “I took the day off.”
“We both know that’s-”
“—I could take the week.” he insists, almost a threat, a flicker of that eternal stubbornness coursing through him.
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Viktor longs for a soft place in which to bury his teeth.
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- Part 2 of Arcane Works
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16 Dec 2024
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They land in a field of flowers.
There is a version of the Herald who knows this place. Who has walked a thousand iterations of this field, in a thousand worlds and a thousand lifetimes.
This Herald, the Herald of the right-here-and-now, knows only that he has found an unexpectedly soft landing.
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Jayce, in the Crucible.
Viktor, in the Garden.
And the Herald, in the worlds between.- Language:
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16 Dec 2024
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Viktor comes to himself in a body that is not dying. He knows this, intrinsically. It is one that hurts, but it will live.
The hands that clutch his shoulders are still, still, steady.
“Jayce?”
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Or, Viktor and Jayce wink out of existence, and wake up with a second chance in a new reality.
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13 Dec 2024
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Ex Materia by binomech
Fandoms: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021), League of Legends
10 Dec 2024
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Jayce and Viktor think they're the protagonists of their lives and it takes a village to undo the damage.
Featuring: Engineers who look down on soft sciences giving each other Skinnerian conditioning, the ineffable horrors of being old, a woman and a heir to a megacorporation, daytime drinking and backalley surgery as self-care, way too many trade agreements, and a campaign for Sevika to get a nap.
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- Part 1 of ex nihilo nihil fit
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11 Dec 2024
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Carve In Me With Gentle Hands by al_mp4
Fandoms: Arcane: League of Legends (Cartoon 2021)
01 Dec 2024
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Jayce Talis had died in that attack, in everything but body.
Days after, as he spends his time in his laboratory, doing nothing but staring at meaningless notes, at worn-down books, at his partner's face as it rests in its Arcane cocoon--his mind begins to splinter, breaking at the seams.
Perhaps it's because of guilt, or grief, or anger. Or perhaps, it is because of the very thing keeping Viktor alive.Or: the Hexcore decides that using Jayce Talis might prove to be worthwhile. It is only a matter of breaking him, first.
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- Part 1 of Jayvik Works
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07 Dec 2024
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Names had a peculiar sort of power. Naming something formed its nature, in a way. There had been no angel of the eastern gate before the Almighty spoke the name “Aziraphale;” a fallen angel had not become a creeping serpent until he heard the name “Crawly.”
But nature also informed the connotations of a name. The thousands of cheated merchants, scandalized priests and scathingly-reviewed poets who had uttered the name “Crowley!” in anger throughout the years had given the name its dark and bitter taste.
Anthonys, however, remained relentlessly ordinary. Anthonys were greengrocers, maths teachers, nervous and lovestruck young men who wore glasses and could hardly speak to the objects of their affections.
If “Crowley” was ninety percent pure cacao, “Anthony” was at best milk chocolate.
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08 Aug 2023
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“You know,” Crowley said, “demons don’t really go in for fairness.”
“Well, angels do.” Aziraphale was leaning forward in his chair, his hands folded together almost prayerfully. He looked at Crowley with wide eyes as if he were trying to convey something desperately important. “If there’s something I can do for you — anything, really — just say the word.”
"Do you mean like an assignment in America?” Crowley said, naming a place Aziraphale never liked to go because he found it loud and distracting and evangelical. “Bit of temptation in Washington?”
"If you like.” There were two spots of drunken color high on Aziraphale’s cheeks. “Or something else, I only mean to say that I am at your service.”
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08 Aug 2023