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Dazai knew, before he set a single step into the agency, that they did things differently. He would not be allowed leniency with murder, nor would torture be a method to extract information, so on, so forth. Don't punch orphans—whatever. These are all things he was expecting. The...vegan thing was not.
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23 Feb 2026
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I could do so much more with you, he’d sworn, studying Sheep-stained bracelets — longing for a claustrophobic place in his skeptical ribcage. To wound from the inside.
See?, he would have said, from that carcass. You bleed too.
Or: Soukoku, in three acts.
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27 Dec 2025
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A family is a group of people who love each other, Chuuya decides.
How Chuuya learns what it means to love someone.
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Heart Swells; Pacific Daylight Time by imsrryoisin
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
17 Nov 2025
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No matter where you go, there you are.
Short-ish "what if" fic about Dazai living with Fyodor after defecting from the PM, and how he has to cope with his own existence.Bookmarked by epexe
18 Nov 2025
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It is so fucking dumb. Dazai isn’t the jealous type.
But there are days when he hates Kyouka so much it sears itself into his skin, like a blade against his wrists, like his own fingers jammed down his throat, like he’s going to wrap a rope around his neck and hang himself from the ceiling if he has to look at her for a single second longer. Because he sees himself in her, in all the worst ways, and he sees who he could have been if things were different. And he’s never been one to waste time dwelling on the what-ifs, but he sees Kyouka and he thinks—
And then he tries not to think.
aka the author and dazai locked in a wrestling match for 7k words. loser has to start hrt.
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14 Oct 2025
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Surviving Strategies of a Coder (as explained by Fyodor Dostoyevsky) by themadtree
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
19 Aug 2023
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"It's complicated."
"I thought we liked that sort of thing."
"That's the problem."
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- Part 2 of csoaw-verse
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12 Oct 2025
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an endless road to rediscover by littencloud9 for codhya
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
17 May 2024
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on road trips, new beginnings, and dazai discovering what it means to have a family
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05 Oct 2025
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Your name carved over the door ( Someone will draw a new one ) by urranus
Fandoms: 文豪ストレイドッグス | Bungou Stray Dogs
16 Feb 2024
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“Then what are you afraid of? Death?” Dazai places his clean hand on Chuuya’s thigh and does not even try to pay attention to the other’s reaction. “Arahabaki?”
All he wants is to take off those dark gloves and kiss the ginger’s knuckles. “Losing the things you love makes you talk bullshit.”
Or Soukoku's last mission, before they got too caught in the moment and lost each other.
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25 Aug 2025
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The sallowness of his skin against Chuuya’s own skin, stained gray with makeup washed out under water. The jolty, shivering movement of his throat against Chuuya’s shoulder. The deep, heavy breaths Dazai is taking to stay awake. Chuuya can almost hear him counting down the seconds in his head- he wishes he’d stop. All these small things he takes in before this bubble vanishes, before they step out and deal with what’s waiting for them outside.
Chuuya comes to Dazai's rescue again. He thinks he always might.
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19 Aug 2025
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For the record, Dazai should not be responsible for anyone’s mental state considering his own personal history, but Chuuya’s going through a rough time. Old habits die hard, and taking care of one another sits as the very foundation of double-black.
Besides the hair braiding, helping Chuuya with his breakdown involves getting a lot more wet than Dazai anticipated. It’s not a particularly thrilling development.
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09 Aug 2025
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They are not healthy, at least in the traditional sense. Both of them killers, empty the clip, hear the crack of the bullets. Something vicious and bloody hidden behind the teeth and burrowed under the tongues that only emerges when slotted together.
Dual despair, dual destruction. Double black. Rot to the soul.
or; there is nobody else quite like them
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29 Jul 2025
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“I need you to hit me as hard as you can.” Dazai says without any preamble, walking right up to them.
“What?” Atsushi sounds aghast. “Why would I?”
“Dazai-san—” Akutagawa begins.
“Bet.” Chuuya says, and punches him square in the face.
Shockingly, this is actually the better of the two interactions Chuuya has had with Dazai.
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22 Jul 2025
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In which Fyodor wonders whether it’s possible to still crash a wedding despite having been invited.
["Not Yet Corpses, still we rot" Bonus Chapter]
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- Part 2 of corpses
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17 Jul 2025
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Summer is a stale routine. A maddening, ever-present loop. An instigator of decay.
Until it isn’t.
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- Part 1 of Ebb and Flow
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17 Jul 2025
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The two things Dazai hates most in life are pain and losing.
And this is what losing looks like: a dance with Death, a sweet embrace, a gentle caress, and then Death leaves. It looks like one eye opening to find life once again crashing in; a promise of breath, not of rest.
And this is what losing feels like: biting metal and bubbling, boiling blood. Something manic rising from the chest into the throat, escaping lips like a high pitched bark. It feels like slicing skin to slivers but still not ever feeling like anything was pieced together in the first place. Losing feels like a lack of control and a fire formed from a pile of bones.or; Dazai, pain, losing, and identity over the years
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14 Jul 2025
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Acceptance is harder than one might think.
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- Part 4 of Counting down the days
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01 Jul 2025
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He thinks about Chuuya, or rather, he thinks about the god residing under his skin, the manic glint in his eye, head thrown back in laughter, exposing the delicate line of his throat, thinks about gravity twisting his bones into inhuman angles, the blood pouring out of every orifice on his body. He thinks about Chuuya, beautiful, frightening, human.
learning how to let go and how to drive, not necessarily in that order
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26 Jun 2025
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When he slows down to observe the campus around them, Dazai stalls. When Chuuya thinks he has a coherent thought to voice, Dazai hums under his breath and Chuuya's mind goes blank. When Chuuya turns in a slow circle to take in the trees and buildings around him, Dazai hovers like he expects Chuuya to fall. One time, Chuuya catches Dazai looking at him with a small smile. Softer around the edges than four years ago.
"What are you looking at?"
Pink tickles Dazai's cheeks and he looks away.OR; Chuuya and Dazai met at 12, separated at 18, and found each other again at 22.
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06 Jun 2025
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Dazai can't stand the taste of contradictions and yet, he is one.
or, a collection of headcanons of Dazai's time in the Mafia placed into a semi-linear narration.
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- Part 1 of symbitoic
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04 Jun 2025
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However he does it doesn't matter now, really, because Chuuya is dissociating fairly heavily on the elevator ride up to his place, and he's already being filled with the familiar sick feeling of dread that he gets whenever he's in the vicinity of his unfortunate coworker. This is not a good sign for how Chuuya's night is going to go. It's - he checks his phone, sighing softly at the three percent battery remaining notification that immediately flashes upon turning it on - seven pm, and his entire day has been nothing but hell. His throat is dry and sore, his head is pounding, and he hasn't eaten since lunch. When he visited Lippmann's family in their home in Tokyo.
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Several months after the events of Stormbringer, Dazai takes a fight too far.Bookmarked by epexe
12 Apr 2025