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    Shane watches helplessly as Ilya is sent headfirst into the boards, spine twisting, skates lifting off the ice as his body folds under the force. The sound of impact is thunderous and wrong - echoing - louder than the crowd, louder than the goal horn, louder than the pounding of his heart against his chest, as Ilya’s body finally crumples into the ice.

    Ilya had no time to brace, Shane knows he had no time to brace because Shane had no time to brace.

    And he’s not moving.

    “Ilya!”

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    Or what it means to break, and come together again.

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    The closet in the hall holds the thicker comforter that he sleeps with in the winter. Shane doesn’t recognize his own hands as he yanks it out from the top shelf, watching it tumble onto the floor and trail behind him as he hefts it into his bedroom, laying down on his bed and pulling it over him.

    He ducks his head underneath, blanketing his own sight in blue-tinted darkness. The ringing in his ears lessens, the ache behind his eyes softens. Shane knows what he’s done, but maybe if he just doesn’t think the word, it doesn’t have to be true. Maybe he can ignore all of these implications and keep doing what he’s been doing for so long, avoiding the change that looms over him like an executioner’s blade.

    The nest is still wrong.

    The realization makes his breath catch in his throat. Panic collapses like a dying star in his chest—not an outward explosion, loud and impossible to ignore, but a quiet implosion, the integrity of his choices quickly falling away in the face of instincts he’s been suppressing like this for five years.

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    Or, Shane and Ilya spontaneously bond. Neither of them are ready for the domino effect of consequences.

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    28 Feb 2026

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    “I used to be so mad that she was gone sometimes, but it’s okay. I forgive her. I would forgive her every time.”

    Something in Yuna’s eyes fractures, like a bird bone under the sole of a shoe. “Your mother is very lucky, then.”

    “Yuna,” Ilya says, and he tries very hard to not look at Shane, to not see the unforgiving, enduring hurt in his eyes when he looks over at his mother, so far away from her that he can’t come home, even though he desperately wants to. He looks at Yuna instead, and somehow, even as he braces against the ice-cold concrete and lets the sound of the whistling wind settle in his ears and has been looking at her for a long time now, he finds himself entirely unprepared for familiar Yuna’s eyes will be when she turns her gaze from the distant streetlamp to him. “You’re very lucky too.”

     

    Shane Hollander is a ghost with a comatose body that won't work, unable to move on because his mom won't come visit him. Ilya Rozanov is the only person who can see and hear him, and against all odds, this is still a love story.

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    27 Feb 2026

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    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

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    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    26 Feb 2026