drunkkidd
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Dazai doesn't have a problem with eating.
He just doesn't like it very much.
The Agency disagrees, but they don't know his habits like he does.
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- Part 1 of bsd is my suffering sandbox
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Dazai sees the way Kunikida stares.
He sees the way Yosano keeps an almost obsessive record of her medicines and bandages, razors and scalpels.
He sees the way Atsushi has begun to turn his head as Dazai walks in, eyes always lingering on the bandages wrapped around his wrists and burning into the skin under.
He feels Ranpo's burning gaze, making his skin itch and burn as if there were a thousand ants crawling under his skin.
He sees Kyoka's too dark, too knowing eyes that bore into his chest till he is certain she has seen all his jagged edges and the void within him.
He sees the receptionists' careful actions, apprehensive words.
He feels the president's heavy, prodding gaze.
He fears.
They see too much, too clearly.
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- Part 2 of bsd is my suffering sandbox
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Sometimes, death is a greater mercy than life can ever provide. You cannot save everyone, especially if they do not want to be saved. If someone's life only served to grind them to dust, by saving their life, are you really doing the right thing?
Dazai's latest suicide attempt brings him closer to death than ever before; Kunikida is the poor fool who has to drag him back to life.
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Chapters 1 and 2 are describing the same event, simply from Dazai's POV and then Kunikida's POV.
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- Part 3 of bsd is my suffering sandbox
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“I…No, it's fine.” A sigh. “I guess I don't actually want to send it to them. I think I just wanted to use the excuse of a letter…to let out everything I couldn't bear to say to them face to face. That's all.”
As if able to sense Dazai's confusion, Odasaku begins to elaborate. “It's like buried feelings, or things I'd never truly admit to them; things I'd never really be able to muster the courage to tell them, through speech or otherwise. The letter is meant to hold these feelings and words for me, so they can stop weighing on my mind. In a way, I'm letting these things go.”
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Maybe Odasaku lied, because writing all those letters didn’t help with his heaviness at all. It only made him sick with regret. It only forced him into periods of obsessive writing, editing, rewriting, scrapping… It only served to eat him whole. But for some reason, Dazai couldn’t stop. It didn’t matter, anyways. Dazai had been a dead man, a ghost, these four years, so why did it matter if he’d wasted away toiling over letters to a fellow ghost? It didn’t matter at all.
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- Part 4 of bsd is my suffering sandbox
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I know he can see me. I know he’ll catch me. It is only a matter of time.
There is no hope. There is no escape.
The Blood God destroys all, and once he begins to hunt you, you won’t make it out alive.
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bsd fics centered around mental illness, tragedy or general pain & angst
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Is This The Way It Ends Now? by Seastar98
Fandoms: Death Note (Anime & Manga), Death Note & Related Fandoms, Death Note: The Musical - Wildhorn/Murphy, Death Note: Another Note
14 Apr 2018
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L dangled the note in front of him. It had appeared out of nowhere, as had the accompanying CD. It claimed to contain information crucial to their investigation.
Was this a trick? Another evolution of Kira's power? Perhaps a different supernatural force trying to help them against Kira?
He didn't know, but the only way to find out was to view it.
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- Part 1 of They're Only Human
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L runs across some familiar names while working through his records of the day’s deaths.
Bookmarked by drunkkidd
20 Jan 2026
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A Bleeding Heart Is A Beating Heart by brannrice
Fandoms: 전지적 독자 시점 - 싱숑 | Omniscient Reader - Sing-Shong
03 Aug 2022
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“1864 times, Kim Dokja. That is how long it took for me to realize what truly had to be done.”
Kim Dokja tried to step back. He tried to run away, to escape the stench of blood filling his senses and the bodies of his friends that lay dead on the ground.
“So, you’ll have to forgive me for being impatient.”
OR: Kim Dokja is in every one of Yoo Joonghyuk's regression rounds, from the 3rd to the last. Just how does that change things?
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19 Jan 2026
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Back when Tim's parents still cared about him. Back when his Dad actually paid attention to him.
When they would still celebrate his birthday.
Tim would always receive Dad Bucks™
He was told he could buy anything he ever wanted using that money.
However, since Jack and Janet Drake were always out of the country, he was never able to cash in anything from his dad.
But Bruce Wayne, who lives next door, is a dad...
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02 Jan 2026
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(I'm happier than ever)
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Raised to be an assassin, Tommy is named into the Watson household at ten years old.At the age of thirteen, Tommy Watson is dead and only the child of him remains. That is, until the Watson's need to come back.
Tommy is reborn when he is sixteen.
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I saw Black Widow and went "haha, SBI angst" and wrote this in a panic. After the first few chapters, updates will be sporadic :)- Language:
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30 Dec 2025