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  1. Public Bookmark 36

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    “I already died. It’s not illogical to assume that I’ll do it again.”

    After the war, Katsuki sits down with his parents and makes them plan his funeral.

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    26 Mar 2025

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    He wanted his mother to touch him so badly, wanted anything she would give him even if it was just a pat on the shoulder - just acknowledgement that he existed, that his body was more than an unwanted quirk and a vessel for his father’s violence.

    He remembers he’d used to hug himself as he fell asleep when he was young, wrapping his bony arms around himself like it could even attempt to mimic what his mother’s hold might have felt like. It would take ages to get to sleep when the weather would seep through the holes in the house and sometimes he’d stroke his own hair, as filthy and matted as it was, just for some pathetic semblance of comfort.

    He just wanted touch. Wanted to be held. And as much as he cherished the gift, having an Endeavor plushie wasn’t the same as having a mother.

    or: hawks' mother didn't love him. he tries to cope through other people.

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    10 Apr 2023

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    pain.

  3. Public Bookmark 74

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    “i’m sorry,” he says when gojō has his hand on the door handle to leave.

    “i’m not mad,” gojō replies, a trip to absolve his guilt, and here he is leaving with veritable tonnes of it burrowing to catch at his heart.

    “i know,” he hears megumi whisper as he closes the door from the other side. he never meant to overhear it. “i wished you had been.”

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    21 Aug 2024

  4. Public Bookmark 88

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    “You brought snacks, Weretiger?”

    Atsushi opens his eyes; Akutagawa is glaring at him across the alley, and irritation coils hot in Atsushi’s gut.

    “Yeah, well some of us actually expend energy during a fight, rather than just standing in one place and letting our fancy Ability do all the work.”

    “Of course you’d see it that way; your understanding of Special Abilities is so painfully rudimentary,” Akutagawa scoffs, but there’s the barest tremble beneath his words, and when Atsushi shoves another bite of onigiri into his mouth, Akutagawa’s eyes track its movements perfectly.

    So that’s what this is about, Atsushi thinks, his anger dissipating as quickly as it came.  What an idiot.  You know you can just say that you’re hungry, right?

    The evolution of Akutagawa and Atsushi's relationship, as seen through six meals.

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    18 Aug 2024

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    Monoma takes his bullying of Class A too far and Vlad King has enough. Monoma is sentenced to staying in Class A until he shapes up. But Vlad King, Class A, and Class B all discover a few things they didn’t know about Monoma.

    Or: Monoma's mother expects perfection from him and loves conditionally and is overall an emotionally-abusive parent (though Monoma doesn't realize it and strives to please her). As a result Monoma goes overboard in showing off and being arrogant because he is terrified that if he fails too much his teacher and classmates won't care about him anymore either.

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    07 Aug 2024