depressobean
Fandoms
Recent works
-
Tags
Summary
How miserable it is to love a dead thing, to waltz in the arms of a shambling frame of bone and sinew puppeteered only by the phantom of who it once was. How shameful to feed off mere memory, drinking it like ambrosia and trusting in the relief it brings.
(my piece for the yttd epilogue zine, wherein sara as the sole survivor is accompanied back to her former life by the doll of her dead best friend) -
every time i think about love (i think about me thinking about you) by depressobean
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
15 Jun 2023
Tags
Summary
burning piles of corpses and swift executions, caught somewhere between necessary safety measures and abuses of martial law, have long since tainted any part of death that might have once seemed sacred. even despite this, in the face of her own failures there's little else ellie can do but try to assign some sort of meaning to the losses that have followed in her wake.
or: a character study of ellie exploring her reactions to grief and her own guilt through the lens of burial.
-
a voice that begs no forgiveness by depressobean
Fandoms: キミガシネ | Kimi ga Shine | Your Turn To Die (Visual Novel)
12 Apr 2022
Tags
Summary
As the Death Game draws to a close and its few remaining members vy for scraps of justice and retribution, Sara and Sou attempt to come to terms with all of the pain they put each other through.
-
Acrylic Resurrection by depressobean
Fandoms: キミガシネ | Kimi ga Shine | Your Turn To Die (Visual Novel)
19 Jan 2022
Tags
Summary
The piece I wrote for the All Year Round YTTD zine :)
Following the events of the massacre ending, Nao and Sara set up a picnic, attempting to find some semblance of peace and stability in the whirlwind of confusion and grief that their lives have devolved into. But their grief isn't so easily escapable- they should know that by now.
-
Tags
Summary
Tubbo flips burgers in Las Nevadas as he tries to make sense of just how much he has lost.
Recent series
-
the burdens brought by sacrifice by depressobean
Fandom キミガシネ | Kimi ga Shine | Your Turn To Die (Visual Novel)
01 May 2021
- Words:
- 30,594
- Works:
- 3
- Bookmarks:
- 5
Recent bookmarks
-
Tags
Summary
Ellie leans back. Slowly, the house falls quiet. She listens to the soft puffs of JJ’s breathing, the harsh whisper whistle of Joel’s and the gentle lift and fall of the wind passing by the back window. She watches Joel brush his thumb over JJ’s cheek, big and pocked and gentle, mainly - careful. Cautious. When Joel looks at JJ, she sees only kindness.
-
Or: Joel meets JJ.
Series
- Part 2 of all is wild, all is silent.
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 1,018
- Chapters:
- 1/1
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 24
- Kudos:
- 470
- Bookmarks:
- 55
- Hits:
- 4,300
Bookmarked by depressobean
05 Oct 2024
-
Tags
Summary
Ran is an assassin from another dimension assigned to take out the city Subbin’s new general. But once he gets tangled up in solving a kidnapping plot, misgivings towards an impossible target, a drill sergeant job, and a slowly unfolding mystery, he realizes it’s going to be a lot harder than he thought…
- Language:
- English
- Words:
- 69,354
- Chapters:
- 9/9
- Collections:
- 1
- Comments:
- 1,677
- Kudos:
- 4,951
- Bookmarks:
- 858
- Hits:
- 195,736
Bookmarked by depressobean
24 Jul 2021
-
Man in the Mouse by Montewave, Thecreativemess
Fandoms: キミガシネ | Kimi ga Shine | Your Turn To Die (Visual Novel)
29 Apr 2021
Tags
Summary
I reflect on my reflection
And I ask myself the question
What's the right direction to go
I don't know
Am I a man or am I a mouse
If I'm a mouse then I'm a very manly mouse
Am I a mouse or am I a man
If I'm a man that makes me a mouse of a man
I look into these eyes
And I don't recognize
The one I see inside
It's time for me to decide
Am I a man or am I a mouse
If I'm a mouse oh I'm a very manly mouse
Am I a mouse or am I a man
If I'm a man that makes me a mouse of a man
Here I go again
I'm always running out of time
I think I've made up my mind
Now I understand who I am
I'm a man
I'm a mouse
I'm a mouse of a man
I'm a very manly mouse
I'm a mouse of a man
That's what I amBookmarked by depressobean
18 Jul 2021
-
when the stars shine their brightest by orphan_account
Fandoms: キミガシネ | Kimi ga Shine | Your Turn To Die (Visual Novel)
29 Aug 2021
Tags
Summary
!! THIS IS BEING REWRITTEN. (Check most recent chapter.) !!
Joe Tazuna's thought process was a mystery, to say the very least. His day-to-day thoughts ranged anywhere from missing assignments to what color mirrors are. But when his head swapped places with his heart, it told him to ask his big time crush out on a camping trip. The thing is, he... went along with it?
...And she said yes? Wow.
While he never did seem to notice how entranced he was by Sara Chidouin, what he convinced himself to believe was that this absolutely wasn't a date. Or a getaway. Or a way of kind-of-not-really eloping with her in the woods. Nope. Not at all.
This is normal. Nothing out of the ordinary here. Just two completely normal friends engaging in 100% platonic behavior.
They won't end up sharing an awkward kiss by the end of their camping trip. Scandalous to even think about, really. Just homies doing... homie things.
...Right?
Bookmarked by depressobean
14 Jul 2021
-
Tags
Summary
Tubbo knocks on Wilbur's door. There are two actions he can take. Arrest the villain (finally gain approval) or throw the life he's planned into the pit (90% chance of adoption. 50% chance of death).
And what's life ever been without a little risk?
Series
- Part 1 of Rootless
Bookmarked by depressobean
12 Jul 2021