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    "Why are you not scared?"

    "I am scared," Ilya admits. "I just am tired. Of hiding me. Of hiding you. Of hiding how much I love you. I want to go to the rink— how do you say it? Authenti."

    "Authentically," Shane supplies, automatically.

    "Yes. Authentically. I want to go to the rink authentically, as me," Ilya confirms.

    Ilya looks at Shane, pauses until Shane meets his eyes. "I want to say: I, Ilya Rozanov love a man, and that man's name is Shane Hollander."

     

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    Or, sometimes it takes a little more time, and some courage, to be with the one you love.

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    10 Feb 2026

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    It’s winter in Ottawa and Ilya has hunkered down in his big, empty mansion to weather a nasty flu. Then his phone buzzes.

    — Guardian™ Security Alert: Movement detected at front door
    — (1) Missed Call: Yuna Hollander

    Or: The Hollanders have a new son to take care of. Ilya has no idea what’s going on.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    When Shane Hollander is publicly outed during a routine press conference, the truth is ripped from him before he’s ready. The fallout is immediate, brutal, and impossible to ignore. As the world watches, judges, and demands answers, Shane and his teammate (and partner) Ilya Rosanov are forced to navigate violence, visibility, and a sport that doesn’t always know how to protect its own.

    Through targeted hits, swallowed whistles, media pressure, and one very public fight, Shane learns the difference between what the world takes and what he can claim back; on the ice, in the locker room, and in the quiet moments where love becomes a shield instead of a weakness.

    A story about survival, solidarity, and choosing when to answer.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    They’re seventeen and they’re forty-five and they’re every age in between, and Ilya isn’t sure if he believes in fate – not quite – but there isn’t a single moment from the past three decades that hasn’t felt like it’s been ushering him quietly towards some form of destiny.

    There are other ways to die, beyond the physical; slowly and agonizingly, locking the truth away until it’s indistinguishable from the lies. And there are other ways to live; slowly and carefully and secretly, and then out loud, all at once.

    Or: love between the lines, glimpses of the moments spent in secret before the arrival of the abstract ‘some day’. Five times Shane and Ilya hid themselves from the world, and one time they didn’t have to.

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    06 Feb 2026

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    This was different. This wasn’t hockey, or a competition, or a well-honed skill. This was her chance to welcome Ilya to their family.

    The five times Yuna Hollander opened her heart to Ilya, and the one time Ilya found a home within it.

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    02 Feb 2026