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    He's in his bed in Montreal, tangled in sheets that are damp with sweat, his heart hammering so hard it hurts. The room is dark and quiet and wrong, because Ilya isn't here, Ilya is in Ottawa, two hours away, and Shane's hands are shaking as he grabs for his phone on the nightstand.

    His fingers fumble with the screen. It's 3:17 AM. He should... he shouldn't do this. Ilya has practice tomorrow. Today. In the morning. Shane knows this because they'd texted about it yesterday, before the Bears-Centaurs game, before Ilya had taken that nasty check in the second period that Shane had watched on his laptop with his stomach in knots, before Shane had gone to bed alone like he does most nights, before his subconscious decided to torture him with the worst thing it could conjure.

    He stares at Ilya's contact. The photo is from months ago, Ilya grinning at something off-camera, eyes bright, so impossibly alive that Shane's throat closes up.

    He needs to hear his voice. Just. Just to know he's okay. Just for a second.

    When Shane has a nightmare about Ilya getting injured, he phones his boyfriend. Ilya returns the call, and so much more.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    The Centaurs win in overtime.
    The crowd is deafening. The music is loud. The locker room is louder.
    Shane can’t seem to come back down from any of it.
    His teammates notice. Ilya does too.

    After the applause, there’s still the quiet.

    Or, Shane has a shutdown/overload after a game.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    After the longest season of his career, Ilya retreats to the cottage with Shane, expecting rest, recovery, and a month of stolen peace. Instead, exhaustion lingers. Small things feel wrong. And the body that has always carried him through pain begins to falter in ways he can’t explain.

    As concern grows and outside eyes begin to notice, the life Ilya and Shane have carefully built—careers, borders, futures—starts to feel fragile. When a medical crisis shatters their summer before answers arrive, love is no longer something they protect quietly. It becomes something they fight with.

    A story about what happens when the body speaks before you’re ready to listen, and the people who refuse to let you face it alone.

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    08 Feb 2026

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    Ilya has everything he is supposed to want.

    It still isn’t enough to quiet the noise in his head.

    When Shane hears it in his voice, he comes anyway.

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    07 Feb 2026

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    The first call comes early, when Ilya is still skating along the edge of a dream. Shane is tucked in warm at his side, and his hair scratches at the underside of Ilya’s jaw, and the tender patch that always tickles just beneath his ear. He can hear the vibration against the wooden bedside table, the soft buzz buzz buzz incessant as a mosquito but he ignores it to go back in the warmth of his sleepy haze.

    Later, when the sun is fully up and Shane pulls from his warm and sweaty side, he checks his phone. It’s an unknown number, the region code is for Russia.

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    Ilya's niece reaches out to him eight years after he's last seen her. It makes him think about the things he never let himself miss.

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    07 Feb 2026