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    Shane isn't used to people touching him. Then he meets Ilya Rozanov.

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    26 Jan 2026

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    Ilya doesn’t think much of his own impulses. He goes to a bar, he finds a pretty girl, he has sex. He catches Sasha’s eye from across the locker room, and then they’re in the same toilet stall, noises bitten away before they become dangerous. Svetlana invites him over when her father is away, and he kisses her on top of her quilted bedspread, hard from the feel of her under his hands and, a little bit, from the anticipation of the beating he’ll get if the Minister walks in on him. She scratches her fingers through his hair afterwards and he traces letters into the skin above her knee.

    So when he gets the impulse to buy Hollander flowers, he doesn’t hesitate. Maybe it’s because Hollander is so cute with his little freckles. Maybe because he gets irritated so easily, that flush spilling down his collarbones to his chest. Maybe Ilya just wants to reward him for opening the door after that CCM shoot, or for letting Ilya suck his dick after the All-Stars even with Scott Hunter next door.

    OR: 5 times Ilya got Shane flowers, and 1 time Shane got Ilya flowers

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    26 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    “I always felt like I was… dunno how to describe it. Like there was a wall, or something, like a glass wall between me and everyone else. Everyone knew something I just didn’t get. But you just… you just understood me.” He blinks. “I feel like you always just understood me.”

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    Instead of being outed by a video from Hayden Pike, what if Ilya and Shane were allowed to release their relationship the way they wanted?

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    26 Jan 2026

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    Shane comes to visit Ilya in Boston. Ilya isn't expecting him.

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    26 Jan 2026

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    When Shane thought back on his life, he could not identify a serious misstep. Nothing should be wrong with him. He'd done everything exactly how he was supposed to.

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    26 Jan 2026

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    “Why did you even come here?”

    “I came to get laid,” Ilya says honestly. “But my friend is not well, so.”

    Shane jerks his chin towards the door.

    “Still time,” he mutters.

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    26 Jan 2026

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    At this point Shane’s dick was nearly soft again. Ilya appeared to accept this with ill-grace, withdrawing his hand with an exaggerated sigh. “It is—for mood. Can lower sex drive, the doctor said.” He shrugged. “It's not a big deal. I fuck you some other way.”

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    26 Jan 2026

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    Shane opens his eyes and tears spill onto his pillow and into Ilya’s hand. He has that apologetic stare again. He says, “Love you.”

    “Nothing in the world could make me stop loving you,” Ilya says. “Do you understand?”

    With hesitation, his eyes darting around, Shane breathes out, “I understand.”

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    12 Jan 2026

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    11 Jan 2026

  10. Public Bookmark 11

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    As the marketing team starts gathering their things, the girls are still staring at the array of Lily’s crazy faces on the screen. Haewon is examining those other Lilies so intensely, the real Lily has to look away. She turns back to the screen too and catches the text I hope this girl never gets media training just before the marketing assistant closes the laptop and makes the image disappear.

    #

    Or: two times Lily and Haewon went viral and one moment just for them.

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    11 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    Moving more slowly, Lily notices how strange it is to press her lips against the hot, thin skin of Haewon’s eyelid and the shape of her eye underneath. Lily feels like an alien discovering humans for the first time. Well, she feels like that a lot.

    maybe love and intimacy were invented by ao3 user ninamonday

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    “I was thinking about the honeymoon phase thing.”
    “Yes?” Ilya said.
    “I think it’s different for us. I don’t want us to be all blissful and then only start fighting when we’re back to barely seeing each other. I think it’s good if we figure things out now, when we have the time. Whatever needs figuring out. So we have a solid foundation going into the season. Sort of like training camp.”
    “So this means you will keep getting mad at me for things,” Ilya said.
    Shane smiled, rolled his eyes. “Yeah, exactly,” he said.
    “Good, I find it very hot,” Ilya said, and kissed him.

    An insecure over-thinker and a self-destructive thrill-seeker walk into a relationship.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Ilya tries to breathe. Shane is the one who panics. In fact, Ilya has been so calm over the past hour. So, so calm. Soooooooo so so so amazingly calm that maybe Shane will reward him with a very nice blowjob later. Ilya has been calm because Shane needs a rock to lean on, but Shane is gone and now Ilya is panicking. This is his only chance to rectify the first, shirtless impression he made on Shane’s father.

    “Do you still read New Yorker?”

    OR: Ilya, on the confluence of Shane with David, Yuna, and Svetlana.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Shane gets laid out cold on the ice for the first time in his career. A month later, things go sideways again, and Ilya realizes he doesn't have forever to figure it out anymore.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Pretty much the first thing Scott figured out about hockey is how much men who don’t play it love the high of it. Execs love to push the guys to skate harder, faster, get the adrenaline so high they can feel it from the box. Or, well, that was the first thing he figured out about hockey after he ended up in a billet in Albany after his parents died. His parents had taught him a hell of a lot before the car crash, but sometimes the thing he played as a kid feels like a different sport altogether.

    OR: Scott Hunter at the MLH awards

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Most people in Shane’s position would call a doctor after two positive tests, but Shane isn't most people, so instead of doing that, he takes 17 tests over the course of two days.

    Final result: 16 positive, one negative.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    "It just works better like that. Taking his mind off of the logistics and the meaning of it all and the implications lets him put that focus to better work on the actual thing he cares about: hockey. It really isn’t that different from outsourcing his branding to Mom, or any less embarrassing than his dietician meal prepping for him or his trainer mapping out his workout plan. They’re experts in their field, nutrition and marketing and fucking. Shane is an expert in his: taking all that into his body and using it to be fucking awesome at hockey. It’s win, win, win.

    Meals get delivered at his door. Room numbers and plans get texted to him. And appointments with photographers get emailed with subject lines reminding him to remember to use the good shampoo in his hair before them.

    He’s still in control in the sense he’s letting it all happen for him, except that sometimes, especially at these stupid fucking photoshoots, it feels a little bit like it’s happening to him, instead."

    Shane gets into a bad situation with a photographer who has pictures Shane would rather not get out. Ilya and Rose find out about it, eventually.

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    09 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander is worried about everyone and everything.

    Ilya is mostly just sick of air travel.

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    Shane and Ilya are having trouble balancing their very private relationship and their very public lives.

    A slice of life.

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    03 Jan 2026

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    Five times Ilya lied (but not really) to his teammates about Shane, and one time he didn’t have to.

    Inspired by two Cliff Marlow lines: In the airport, when their game with Montreal gets cancelled and he tells Ilya, “Whoever she is, she’s gonna get over it,” and the scene in the locker room when he says, “Wow, this Montreal girl works you up, brother—you’re straight up blushing, Roz.”

    Or, the Boston Bears’ perspective of Ilya and Shane’s “secret” relationship over the years

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    02 Jan 2026

    Bookmarker's Notes

    “Yes, bragging rights!” Ilya caught his wrists and pulled him in. “My Montreal Girl, who took none of my shit, and was rich girl, and came all the way to Boston to watch my games-”

    “Only when I was playing against you, you asshole!”

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    Fuck,” Rozanov swore, quietly. He sounded like he’d just been slammed against the boards — wounded and winded in a way Shane thought, privately, he had no right to feel. “What are you going to do?

    “Well I can’t fucking keep it,” Shane said, voice shrill. “What the fuck am I going to tell my team? Oh, sorry guys, I have to bow out of this season halfway. Oh, you know, nothing super serious, it’s just that Rozanov — yeah, you know that guy, captain of our franchise fucking rivals? — he fucking knocked me up!

    Two babies Shane and Ilya never have, and the daughter they do.

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    30 Dec 2025

    Bookmarker's Notes

    MPREG! MMISCARRIAGE! MABORTION!

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    Ilya died, yes, but then the doctors saved him. Cardiopulmonary resuscitation in the ambulance, three electric shocks, two emergency surgeries, twenty-six units of blood. Ilya died, but then he came back.

    If only Shane could get his subconscious to understand that.

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    22 Dec 2025

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