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Cas is mad at Dean because he learned about dean’s suicide in Advanced Thanatology. Apparently all I know how to write is deancas being angry at each other because this is now like a companion to my dean being mad at cas for the empty deal fic. I should start a series. Anyway.
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27 Feb 2026
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Following Chuck's defeat and Jack's vanishing act, Dean Winchester leaves everything behind and takes off running. With freedom comes the fresh hell of grief and the finality of it. But, of course, life has a sense of humor.
Running quickly turns into fatherhood, quickly turns into a cabin in the mountains, quickly turns into dealing with all the rising pain and trauma and grief that he's been holding back. But maybe it'll all end up alright. After all, he's got a baby Jack to take care of, a cabin to fix up, and the relentless urge to sing his troubles away. In a way, it's a life he's dreamed of, mundane and slow with a kid a parent could only dream of and the security of a roof over his head.
Dean's realized that there's just one thing missing. There's always been just one thing missing from it all.
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26 Feb 2026
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“Lily,” Hayden says automatically. “You know about Lily?”
Something flickers across Rozanov’s face. His jaw twitches. “Yes, I know about Lily.” He raises his eyebrows.
Hayden feels like a complete asshole, all of a sudden. There’s just been too much going on to even think about Shane’s mystery girlfriend. “Shit, I should probably, like, call her, or something? I don’t know this girl at all, but Shane’s been obsessed with her for years. If she was watching the game, she would have seen him get hurt.”
“You don’t need to call her,” Rozanov says, and when Hayden glances at him, he still looks fucking miserable but now he’s rolling his eyes, a much more familiar expression of disdain on his face. “She’s sitting right here.”
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Hayden Pike and Ilya Rozanov are waiting for Shane to wake up after he took a bad hit on the ice. They get to talking.Chapter 2: Ilya and Shane talk about what it means, now that someone knows their secret.
Chapter 3: Shane and Hayden hash out the big reveal.
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15 Feb 2026
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"Ilya had loved him through his worst moments. Ilya had helped him find a therapist when he’d collapsed on the floor of their hotel bathroom after losing a particularly brutal game, scratching at his chest. Ilya had held him, even when Shane yelled at him because there was panic crawling under his skin and he felt as though it might claw its way out. Ilya had told him it was okay; that it didn’t make him a bad player to resent the spotlight sometimes, that it didn’t make him a bad teammate to hate the team when they were too loud and too drunk and too physical, that it didn’t make him a bad person to need space to breathe. Ilya saved him.
And look what you give him in return. You’re a shitty husband, Shane Hollander.
You don’t deserve his last name."
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content warnings: discussion of mental health, depiction of a panic attack, depiction of invasive medical procedure, depiction of violence (generally non-graphic), use of hate speech, depiction of a hate crime
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13 Feb 2026
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you don’t have to be sorry for doing it on your own by playexodus
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
26 Dec 2025
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Ilya had realized it the moment he’d opened his eyes a few days prior, too warm under the covers to be comfortable. Nothing had even happened yet, but he'd felt immediately distant from himself. Like somewhere between sleeping and waking, he’d stepped out of his body and into another.
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13 Feb 2026