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    He repeats it a few times, scratches his neck, slaps himself again, and then falls into his bed. He groans at the way it bothers his bruised ribs, but he lays there in the pain, letting it cleanse him from his thoughts earlier.

    Here, in the haze of his pain, he is whole, normal, pure. He is repenting, paying his dues, accepting his punishment. He doesn’t need his pa for that, he can do it himself, make sure he’s not some dirty gay.

    Gary hasn’t believed in God in a very long time; in fact, he’s certain there isn’t one. But there has to be some truths in the world, and this has to be one of them.

    Gary Barkovitch is normal. And if he isn’t, he’ll break himself until his bones set right.
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    OR - All Gary Barkovitch's life, he has been the starving mutt wandering the edge of the street light, baring his teeth at any approaching person. Maybe, now in Maine, he can learn to lower his hackles and let people in.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    ”Have I—have I annoyed you, or something? I mean, I’ve only been awake for like, five minutes, but—“ Sid began, raising a hand to try and placate the situation.

     

    ”No, actually the opposite,” Tony interrupted, “you’ve got a migraine.”

     

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    Sid’s got a migraine, and Tony has a way to make it better.

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    17 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 8

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    “Jacket,” Johnny says, perhaps finding his capacity for speech degraded in the face of his jacket-induced desperation.

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    07 Dec 2025

  4. Public Bookmark 24

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    His options are limited, anyway. It's either a 'you're absolutely losing your mind and should reconsider the therapist I know you've been ghosting', or a 'I can't pretend to date our best friend to help you convince your parents to let you study in europe, because I'm actually madly in love with you and I don't want you to go'. Both of which are sadly true, too.

    But, okay. Maybe Sunghoon needs to help Jake understand.

    "Jake, buddy, you're sure you listened when Jay asked us to fake a relationship? not high? fully there?"

    Jake, immune to teasing, just shrugs and stretches his hands up, letting one fall around Sunghoon’s shoulders.

    "Like I said, I'm down."

    All Sunghoon can will himself to do in response is to pull out his weed and roll another joint for them to share, because the universe clearly wants him to not be sober for his next lecture.

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    08 Oct 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 45

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    Choi San, son of devout Christians and priest-in-progress, stumbles upon an old pagan temple while walking along the shore. He isn't a bad Christian just because he keeps leaving offerings - at least, that's what he tries to tell himself.

    Yeosang, an ancient god forgotten due to the global domination of Christianity, is just happy that someone is finally visiting his temple again. If he ends up getting a bit too attached, that's fine too.

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    “Were you the god of the ocean?” he finally asks, tracing the words with his finger as he reads them over and over again. Our Merciful Sea. The statue doesn’t respond.

    And suddenly San feels very, very small. The effigy’s gaze never wavers, even if it never really looks at him, and he doesn’t understand what that means. Why does he feel like he’s being watched every time he comes here? Maybe he really is losing his mind, or maybe it’s God watching him in Heaven and thinking, “Yep, that kid’s going straight to the boiler room. Damn pagans.”

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    04 Oct 2025