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    The past summer should have left Shane Hollander at his strongest. Married and heading into his second season with the Centaurs. But as training camp approaches, strange symptoms begin to follow him everywhere: nausea that comes and goes, crushing hunger, a tightening in his chest, an ache low in his back, and a quiet, growing sense that something in his body has slipped out of his control.

    Shane knows his body. He has always known it.

    And once the truth comes crashing in, he won’t be able to hide from anything anymore.
    Not from his teammates. Not from the season.

    Not from the family he didn’t know he was already carrying.

    Not even from Ilya.

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    hi i need more trans!shane hollander. and as a trans man who wants to get pregnant someday obviously i had to make shane pregnant. without him knowing though. sorry bb

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    03 Jan 2026

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    Shane Hollander is a hockey legend known as "The Golden Alpha of Canada:" and Captain of the Montreal Voyagers. To the roaring crowds, he’s cocky, dominant, untouchable Alpha they want in a hockey star. Yet, behind every goal, Shane hides a secret that could destroy everything he's built up. He isn’t an Alpha at all. Born Omega in a world where Omegas are sidelined from traditional "Alpha" sports, Shane’s entire career is built on a lie: daily suppressants, fake scent, relentless self-control. The cost is soul-deep exhaustion and the constant fear that a single mistake will cost him not just his trophies, but his identity.

    Enter Ilya Rozanov, known as “The Dirty Russian” by fans and foes alike, a brutal, magnetic Alpha who’s battled his own demons to make it on the Voyager team. Growing up in the shadow of an abusive father who threw him into sports to "make me fucking rich", Ilya learned to survive by being harder, meaner, and utterly unbreakable. Hockey is his way out, but family obligations and old scars still chain him down..

    When a chance encounter lets Ilya see Shane for who he truly is, both men are forced to confront the walls they’ve built, around their histories, their bodies, and their hearts.

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    01 Feb 2026

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    It only took basically a decade but Shane finally has Ilya in every aspect. He should be celebrating and enjoying it, should be focused on slotting into his new team in Ottawa. Instead he's watching the news cycle with bated breath, waiting for the inevitable moment that his name pops up alongside words like "victim" and "Dallas Kent."

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    09 Feb 2026

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    His outstretched glove hangs there, frozen, as the noise of the arena mutates into a ringing buzz. Then he’s moving, pushed away by Marlow, and then Boston’s goalie. There’s a flurry of movement, a trainer with a towel, more blood dripping onto the ice, and he just. Stands there. Staring.

    Ilya is helped off the ice. Shane doesn’t even tap his stick.

    Remember when Sidney Crosby caught a puck with his jaw? That doesn't happen to Shane. That happens to Ilya.

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    14 Feb 2026

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    After coming out to Rose, Shane decides he doesn't want to lie anymore, even if he isn't sure coming out will mean he gets happily ever after with Ilya. When coming out to the Voyageurs leaves him wondering what his future in Montreal might look like, he lets himself be a little selfish, he lets himself wonder if there might be somewhere else he might be happy. If Montreal wants to get rid of a generational player, he's not about to stop them, especially if it means he can get a little closer to joy.

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    Or: Shane Hollander leaves Montreal in search of something better.

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    15 Jan 2026

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    Ch 42