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Bad Blood by heygaymayday
Fandoms: The Last of Us, The Last of Us Part II - Fandom, The Last of Us (Video Games)
26 Jul 2020
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She’s letting herself think about it, carefully, like the memories are a stray dog that might bite her outstretched hand at any moment. She’s thinking about the pattern of the freckles across her nose and the shape of her dumb, easy grin, and the way her hair would flash red in the sunlight from the window, when it was unkempt and wild from being tangled in Dina’s hands and--
It’s too fucking much. It’s too far. It’s too good, and those stray dog memories do what stray dogs do best--it clamps down on her, sinks teeth down deep, sends her into breathless agony.
So she's folding in on herself, as small as she can get, as if that might help--
it won't--
and she's giving in to the grief again.
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13 Nov 2025
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L'appel du vide. I read it in a book once. Don't ask me to say it, because I will fuck every sound up, but it's French, I think. Means something like the "call of the void."
When I open up the front door, see the snow, I can feel it. The void. Calling me. Like there's a string tied to my spine, threaded through my ribs, exiting my chest, and from somewhere far away, something is tugging on the line. Just a little pull. Small but insistent.
So I get my boots, sitting there by the door next to Dina's like that's where they belong, and even though it’s the middle of the night I push the screen door open and it whines in protest, like it knows I should stay inside. Like it knows the void has a hold on me and maybe it's calling for help.
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31 Oct 2025
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this is me trying (at least i'm trying) by BarlowGirl
Fandoms: The Last of Us (Video Games), The Last of Us (TV)
17 May 2024
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It wouldn’t be so bad if she was alone in Jackson like she was in Boston. She’d figure out where she fit and she wouldn’t really care if people liked her. She’s done it before when they made her switch schools.
But she’s not. She’s here with Joel, and she doesn’t want him to be embarrassed by her. She doesn’t want him to regret this. To regret her.
OR: Ellie adjusts to living in Jackson.
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07 Jun 2025
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They make it out of the subway and no one’s shooting at them for the first time in ages.
Tess is still dead.
So are the Fireflies, and she’s stuck with an asshole who immediately yells at her when she tries to say she’s sorry about Tess. You know, like a normal person.
This trip is going to suck.
Or: Ellie doesn't trust Joel. Then she does. Then she doesn't again.
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- Part 2 of tomorrow will be kinder
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07 May 2025
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The third time Ellie surprises him, as he’s looking through an abandoned office in Bill’s town, is when she starts sputtering air and he reaches for a weapon before realizing it’s just her.
“I’m trying to learn how to whistle,” she says, and goddamn, Joel thinks. This is going to be a long trip.
Or: An exploration of Joel and Ellie's relationship through the ways Ellie surprises Joel.
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- Part 1 of tomorrow will be kinder
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02 May 2025