Used_to_be_human



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    And even though it is pointless, even though Neil has been running a one way track ever since he woke up in Millport, Neil chooses them twice.
    He chooses Andrew twice.

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    Nathaniel Wesninski dies in a basement in Baltimore. Neil Josten wakes up on the bleachers in Millport.

    ( TFC COMPLETED )

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    11 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 68

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    “All I’m saying is, with hair and eyes like yours ― don’t look at me like that, you know you’re a vision, cutie ― with eyes like yours you could really pull off some more vibrant colors. I’ve got half a mind to dress you as a rainbow to see what sticks, you know. Oh! Now that’s an idea: rainbows! Now that you’re gay and all, maybe you could ―”
    “I'm not gay.”
    A strange and uneasy silence falls heavy on those close by in a real-life record scratch moment. Foxes exchange furtive glances between each other, stopped in their tracks in whatever stretch they were in, which Neil can’t help but notice when the easy murmurs of conversations closest to him stop.

    Or: 4 times Nicky pesters Neil about his sexuality, and one time Neil opens up on the subject to Andrew.
    Kind of a 5+1 thing, but I got lazy so you get 4+1.

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    09 Feb 2026

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    In the back of the FBIs’ SUV, Andrew watched the rabbits breathing pick up, watched him grip the door handle like he was ready to jump out at a moment's notice.

    He gripped Neil’s chin between his fingers and met his eyes. “I told Neil Josten to stay. Leave Nathaniel buried in Baltimore.” He ground out.

    Neil’s eyes were wide, pupils blown. He sounded out of breath as he whispered, “What if Neil wasn’t real?”
    Andrew had nothing to say to that stupid question, so he forced Not Neil’s head to rest on his shoulder and let the rest of the ride go in silence.

     

    or. what if Neil Josten didn't make it out of that basement?

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    09 Feb 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 67

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    Neil didn’t realize what was happening the first time he realized he was really missing time. It was just sort of something that happened, usually when he was stressed out of his mind or the world around him was falling apart.

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    the five times Andrew met someone from the system and started to piece together what's going on with his boyfriend.

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    06 Feb 2026

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    Neil traced the outline of her figure, familiar yet unrecognisable in places where time had broken her back, until his eyes caught hers and Mary Hatford—she of the false identities and paranoid promises, of hotel rooms and guns under unfamiliar pillows, of firm love and firmer bruises—blinked back at him.

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    05 Feb 2026