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The Silent Screams of an Angel in Hell by arthropodwithapen
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies)
30 Mar 2025
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After an Avengers mission goes wrong, Tony is captured in an old Hydra outpost with no hopes of escape unless he is saved by his comrades. Inside, he is granted a few minutes a day with a small boy muzzled with a device to stop him speaking, a haunted look in his eyes and enough trauma to fill the Compound.
Can they both make it out alive?
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- Part 1 of The Silent Screams of an Angel in Hell
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14 Feb 2026
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Tony started moving again, this time like a man possessed, infused with a different kind of rage now. It was filled with terror and desperation. He was sloppier than before, unable to ignore the sight of Peter on the floor actively dying in front of him, but infinitely more deadly.
He’d heard stories about mothers being suddenly able to lift cars off of their children to save them. He wondered if they felt like this.
He collided with the man in charge again, a scream of rage leaving his mouth. He’d never moved this way before, never fought so much like an animal in his life. But his kid’s life was on the line and he was going to suffocate if he wasn't quick enough.
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Chasing Forgiveness, Drowning in Apologies by SUGAnonymous
Fandoms: Spider-Man - All Media Types, Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies)
09 Jun 2025
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“I’m sorry for everything,” Peter choked out, voice breaking as he stood before the group, hands trembling and head down in shame.
“I know I’ve messed up. Just... Just give me a chance to fix it. Mr. Stark... please”
The Avengers exchanged glances, with expressions a mix of annoyance and pity.
“We’re tired of hearing apologies, Peter”
Peter’s heart shattered. He came to the painful realisation that his desperate searches for forgiveness might be in vain.
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Peter's desperate pleas for forgiveness fall on deaf ears as the Avengers hold him responsible for a tragedy that was never his fault. Isolated and rejected, he battles in an agonising reality where his apologies seem never enough. In a world where redemption feels out of reach, he's left chasing forgiveness, drowning in his apologies - with no one to pull him from relentless tides.
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14 Feb 2026
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Tony Stark was not a man who easily let people in. He had built his life around walls. Walls of sarcasm, humour, and an impenetrable iron suit. He had mastered the art of hiding behind his persona, behind the smirks and charm. And yet, beneath all the layers of iron and arrogance, Tony cared deeply. Too deeply. That was his problem, it always had been. His heart, for all its metal reinforcements, was fragile in ways no one would ever know. Not even the team. Not even Steve.
It was why, despite all his best efforts, he found himself caring far too much about the kid .
Tony had vowed years ago he wouldn’t be anything like Howard Stark. Cold. Detached. Unreachable. He’d spent a lifetime making sure he didn’t become the man who had left him feeling small and worthless. Vowed to never let ambition or genius override what truly mattered: people. And yet, despite all the promises, despite all the years of trying, Tony could feel it happening. The way he was becoming cold, distant– pushing Peter away like Howard had once pushed him.
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For a prompt in the Avengers Kink Meme: Tony has had a book since he was a teenager, in which he writes down every mistake he has ever made. He decided that when he fills up the book to the very last page, he will kill himself.
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14 Feb 2026
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“Turn to the last page,” Bruce said. They were all around him now. There were hands on his shoulders and someone was softly massaging his neck. He breathed in their scent.
He turned to the last page and stared.
It had been laminated.
“Doctor Banner has enchanted it with an impervious element,” Thor said.
“You won't be able to write on it, Tony,” Bruce explained. “Or more specifically, everything you write on it will be erased.”
Tony closed his eyes. “I don't think it's that easy.”
“No,” Natasha said, “there's nothing easy about it.”
“But we'll be here,” added Bruce.
Tony slowly opened his eyes. He brushed his fingers through the pages of the journal, looked at the worn leather for a long time, breathed in the smell of ink and regrets...
… and closed it, with a soft exhale.
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adult supervision by doveslayer
Fandoms: Spider-Man: Homecoming (2017), Iron Man (Movies), Marvel Cinematic Universe
08 Aug 2018
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Peter Parker should not keep drunk-dialing Tony Stark after midnight. But more pressingly, Tony Stark should not keep answering.
In which Tony tries to convince himself he's doing nothing wrong.
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13 Feb 2026
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“No,” Rhodey says, “but—in that scenario, I was the kid making bad decisions, not the responsible adult.”
“Right,” Tony says, “I just don’t feel like I have much standing to say, you know, underage drinking, wag finger, bell of shame, don’t do it, kids.”
“I think you have exactly that standing,” Rhodey says, off Tony’s glass. “Kids make bad decisions, Tony. That’s why adults exist.”
“And I’m the adult,” Tony says, “in this scenario?”
Rhodey rolls his eyes. “You know damn well you are.”
“I pictured myself as more sort of the cool uncle,” Tony says, “like, you can’t talk about this with your parents because they’ll have a fit, so come to me, I’m the adult who won’t throw a fit but also will try to make sure you get out of it okay.”
“My parents never liked that uncle,” Rhodey says. “What do you think his parents will think about you?”
“His parents are both dead,” Tony says. He downs the rest of his bourbon.
“Ah,” Rhodey says.
“Touche,” Tony says.
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A Thing About Water by NoahWillow
Fandoms: Marvel Cinematic Universe, Spider-Man - All Media Types, Spider-Man (Tom Holland Movies), The Avengers (Marvel Movies), Iron Man (Movies)
30 Oct 2025
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Over a year of radio silence is all Peter Parker needed to understand where he stood with Tony Stark. Now, Spider-Man works alone, and Peter is done looking for a call back. Peter has built a new life, juggling high school, being Spider-Man, and surviving the foster care system that has once again, taken him from his Aunt May.
But when Tony saunters back in New York, Avengers Reassembled, he wants his boy soldier back. He’s expecting the grateful kid from Berlin. What he finds is a hero who’s grown to hate him. The fallout from their shattered relationship is about to make the next chapter between them the hardest of their lives.
Irondad adoption fic but slowwww burn and earned with angst and whump. Check tags for mental health.AU where Spider-Man never revealed his identity to Iron-Man
My take on Skip WescottCompleted
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10 Feb 2026
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Outside his window, the city hums. Peter presses the phone tighter to his ear and tries not to think about how long it’s been since Tony said good job, kid.
Somewhere in the city’s belly, something moves. Somewhere, something breaks. And Peter presses redial.Tony doesn’t answer.
Which is fine. Busy men have busy lives.
May was similar, always moving, always juggling too much, phone calls slipping through the cracks like loose change.
But still, every night he calls. Every morning too. Both men, just to make sure. Just to hear a voice that might remind him he’s not completely forgotten.
They don’t answer. Peter doesn’t care. He swears he doesn’t. He swears so hard his chest hurts with it.