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  1. Public Bookmark 57

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    Shane Hollander has a 487-game ironman streak. He doesn't miss games. He doesn't miss practices. He doesn't lie to the people he loves.

    Then a hit takes everything, and a small white pill gives it back. Gives back the ability to exist without wanting to crawl out of his own skin. The ability to pick up the phone when Ilya calls and sound like a person.

    The first pill is prescribed. The second is justified. The tenth is necessary. The ones after that are none of your business.

    He's not an addict.

    He's managing.

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    11 Feb 2026

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    He thinks of Ilya’s commanding tone: “Hollander, here”, “take it for me”, or Shane’s personal favorite, “kneel.” Shane, through all these years, has been amazed that to Ilya these little commands are so casual, just a part of fucking for him. To Shane, these words are all consuming. They shut off the hyperactive part of his brain and he can just… enjoy. Ilya takes over, makes Shane feel good, uses Shane to feel good, and Shane goes gooey for it every time. He’s never known peace like getting railed by Ilya Rozanov.

    Shane knows you can't eat your cake and have it, too. He knows that asking too much of Ilya would be plain selfish. Knows that asking to be told exactly what to do so he can shut his brain off isn't normal. And Ilya... well he doesn't think Shane knows shit.

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    10 Jan 2026

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    Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.

    The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.

    It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.

    There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.

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    Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.

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    10 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 91

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    Shane and Ilya have been falling in love for as long as they've known each other, this they've both agreed on. Establishing a romantic connection early on into their careers, an injury during what was supposed to be a routine game threatens to sever their ties, sending Ilya in and out of the past and present as he fights for his right to be by Shane's side, all while trying to keep what they mean to each other away from prying eyes.

    -- Ilya and Shane are essentially together together in this fic, so it's an exploration of what it would be like for them as an established couple if Shane's injury was much worse than in the book.

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    10 Jan 2026

  5. Public Bookmark 56

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    Zevlor is ready to fall asleep on the beach after escaping Moonrise Towers. His body aches, his throat is parched and his utterly defeated. Unfortunately for him, Tav has other plans.

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    26 Aug 2023