Pale_Blue
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such a lovable lamb to me by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
16 Feb 2026
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Ilya swallowed and Shane traced the movement with his little finger. Ilya’s skin was so warm, already tanned from only a few days at the cottage. Like it had just been waiting for an excuse to turn golden.
“Even if I am not a nice man?” he asked.
The self-doubt was almost painful to look at. This was what he had asked for, the morning of Ilya’s arrival at the cottage, but now he had it Shane wasn’t sure how to deal with such open honesty. With such vulnerability.
Shane looked at him for a long moment, tracing his hand along Ilya’s jaw until they came to rest under his chin. The barest hint of stubble there was rough against the pads of his fingers.
“I don’t want you to be some nice guy from Montreal,” he whispered. “I want you to be you. Ok?”
Ilya finally met his gaze, allowed Shane to lift his head up so he had no choice but to look at him. Then he nodded, a small movement. A gesture to appease Shane, to end the conversation that they were both struggling with.
Shane kissed the tip of his nose.
They’d always found touch easier than words.
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say I won’t return (but I never learn) by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Feb 2026
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Ilya made a vague gesture with his hand.
“Is just family,” he reassured him with forced levity. “You know how it is.”
“Right,” Hollander said awkwardly.
He didn’t know and they both knew it. Hollander and his perfect family, parents who attended all his games and hugged him after even if he lost. Parents who had probably never accused him of being a disappointment to Canada if he missed a pass. Who loved him and weren’t ashamed to show it. Who didn’t look at him and only see a bank account.
A family that didn’t feel like a mouth to feed.
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we’ll live in spaces between the walls by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
07 Feb 2026
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“You want to talk about it?” Hollander asked, and Ilya could feel the vibrations of his voice in his chest.
“No,” Ilya said.
Because he was worried that if he opened his mouth now, he’d never stop spilling fears, would never stop haemorrhaging secrets like they couldn’t turn to ammunition in Hollander’s hands if he chose to turn them on him. He’d talk and cry and tell Hollander all of it, the whole sorry lot, and then there would be no way to reclaim what he had given.
It wasn’t worth the risk.
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there wouldn’t be a reason why we would even have to say goodbye by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
04 Feb 2026
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Then Ilya came back and kissed him hard on the doorstep, like the week looming ahead wasn’t breaking both of them into millions of pieces the way it did each and every time. He tasted like too-sweet coffee, so real, so familiar, under Shane’s lips and hands.
“Have a good flight,” Shane muttered against the soft skin beside Ilya’s mouth. “Text me.”
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you don’t see it (your mind’s polluted) by Pale_Blue
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
31 Jan 2026
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Ilya clung to Shane like he was drowning, felt tears finally fall against the soft cotton of Shane’s sweatshirt. Tried to allow himself the comfort that Shane was offering, tried to let the Shane’s familiar scent lull him back to an evener keel again. Tried to let the soothing words being whispered in his ears calm him.
He hated that it wasn’t enough. That Shane could read every book on the subject he could get his hands on, could talk to him, could listen to him, could do all he possibly could to help him through each bad patch. That he could be patient and tolerant and optimistic and try so fucking hard to get things right. Because it wasn’t enough to fix whatever was fucked up in his brain.
Recent series
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can’t change the weather (might not be forever) by Pale_Blue
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
07 Feb 2026
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and my waves meet your shore (ever and evermore) by Pale_Blue
Fandom Supernatural (TV 2005)
10 Dec 2025
- Words:
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Things have gotten worse (since we last met) by Pale_Blue
Fandom Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling, Harry Potter and the Cursed Child - Thorne & Rowling
14 Jun 2025
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- 10,915
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Sherlock Holmes and the Wizarding World by Pale_Blue
Fandom Harry Potter - J. K. Rowling, Sherlock (TV), Sherlock Holmes & Related Fandoms
26 Mar 2023
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A Different Form of Communication by Pale_Blue
Fandom The Lord of the Rings (Movies), The Lord of the Rings - J. R. R. Tolkien
06 Jan 2019
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Some days, Ilya feels carved open.
Not all coping mechanisms are healthy. But sometimes, they just have to get you through.
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Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
17 Feb 2026
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can i help you (not to hurt anymore) by LimpossibiliteDaimer
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
14 Feb 2026
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“Does it scare you,” Ilya asked. “That one day I might leave you?”
For a second, Shane didn’t respond, the question slipping into him without armor. Then he lifted his head slightly, eyes opening just enough to find Ilya’s face in the dim light.
“Yeah,” he said, simple and unadorned. “Always. It always fucking scares me.”Or: Love someone made you petty and selfish in ways no one warned you about. You became terrified of losing them, and in that terror you started to believe you were entitled to their continued existence.
Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
16 Feb 2026
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Ilya is disagnosed with ALS.
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Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
16 Feb 2026
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The dream of Irina is nearly wrung from Ilya’s body. The remnants are only particles of dust, sitting inside the seams of his eyes. Ilya blinks. Blinks to look at what he’s doing to Shane.
Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
14 Feb 2026
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hard times by laundry (lovesjar)
Fandom Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
05 Jan 2026
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Bookmarked by Pale_Blue
14 Feb 2026