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    All of My Pain (And All Your Excuses) by

    Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)  

    25 Aug 2025

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    “Eddie was amazing, of course,” Buck replies, balling his hand into a fist. “He offered to talk about it… but I’m not there yet.” A tear runs down his cheek, but Buck is barely aware of it. “I don’t… I think, um, I’m getting worse.”

    Dr. Copeland frowns. “How do you mean, Buck?”

    “I…” Buck trails off, staring at the wall behind Dr. Copeland’s head. “I’m not sure if I was made for… this. Sometimes… I just think it might be better if I… disappear or something. I just feel… not numb… just… nothing. I don’t feel anything. There’s brief emotions here and there. They pop up, flash suddenly, a spark of anger, a touch of joy or laughter. And, then they’re just…” Buck gestures vaguely, “gone, just like that. It’s like… on the surface, I feel the emotions, but inside my heart, it’s full of… nothingness. It’s just a void. So, even when I feel something… it doesn’t change that void, it doesn’t fill it. Nothing can fill it.”

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    the fic where i project some of my mental health problems onto buck bc if i have to suffer, then so does he :)

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    20 May 2025

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    I Miss Being Alone (When It Didn't Mean Being Alone) by

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    14 Nov 2024

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    Buck hates the new grocery store he goes to.

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    15 Nov 2024

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    From Strangers To Friends To Parents.. by

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    26 May 2024

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    Buck is a young , twenty three year old , in the middle of a college gap year. He’s all alone, away from his sister , away from his friends, basically away from everyone he knows. it’s pretty tough. Oh and he’s also four months pregnant from one hell of a one night stand.

    Adoption seems like the only way forwards until he makes the decision to return to LA and bumps into the person he was least expecting. The one person who will change his life forever.

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    08 Mar 2023

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    I want to be more (I want to be yours) by

    Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)  

    20 Apr 2020

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    Maybe I don’t want to be your friend.
    As Buck’s mind plays it over and over again, he starts to believe these words hold a truth he’s not ready to admit yet.

     

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    After fighting to get back to his job, Buck is faced with complications that set him back again. Only Eddie is able to help him, but it only opens his eyes to the bigger picture; the team’s already replaced him. Eddie’s already replaced him. And it hurts in a way he never saw coming.

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    24 Feb 2023

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    We've Seen This Story Before by

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    20 Mar 2022

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    Buck still can't breathe. Fire flashes before his eyes and the hole in the floor gapes up at him. It's too far down for him to tell, really, but Buck thinks he can still see the outline of how Albert fell.

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    03 Aug 2023