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[Podfic] so come over now (and talk me down) by Princess_Moonlight for kurtstiel
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
17 Dec 2025
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Ilya’s hand wraps around his bare wrist and squeezes. Shane barely stops himself from collapsing to his knees.
The pressure lights up every receptor of his touch-starved nervous system, wrenching a small, pained noise from the back of his throat. Every muted sensation comes flooding back so intensely that it almost hurts. He needs Ilya to hold him down until there’s nothing inside him but quiet. He wants to sink into him and disappear.
It takes Shane an entire beat to remember where they are. Fighting against the fog in his mind, he manages to drag his gaze up to meet Ilya’s.
There’s a slow-dawning horror and understanding on Ilya’s face.
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Or: Shane is in subdrop after their encounter in Vegas. Ilya fixes it.
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15 Feb 2026
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have heart, my dear (we're bound to be afraid) by hitlikehammers
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
13 Feb 2026
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“Don’t worry?”
Shane’s hackles raise, because not long ago he’d read Ilya’s last words and felt his heart stop. And not long after that, Shane watched Ilya collapse, fade, and everything in his own body leaped to follow.
Worry seems pretty appropriate, actually.
“Shane,” and the way Ilya says his name, like it’s something precious, will never stop shaking Shane with the double-tap of his blood, rising to the wonder of it; it’ll never stop making Shane feel seen for every raving thought and fear and dread he’d spent his whole life hiding, like Ilya’s first language was Russian, but his mother tongue was Shane.
“I mean only you don’t need to worry, it will all be fine,” Ilya says so gently, steeped in more love than Shane quite knows how to hold. “Is natural for me.”
“Scaring the fuck out of me? Yeah,” the words pop out, like Shane's jittery heart knocks them past his lips without meaning to: “kinda starting to seem that way.”
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A record-breaking blizzard meets the desperate need to see the love your life despite it—should be okay, right? Snow's natural for your husband, he'll be fine.
(Or not.)
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12 Feb 2026
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“I like it,” he says weakly. “I like it, I like you holding me like this.”
“Like what?”
“Like you own me.”
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or; They're falling in love. They can't have it, even if they can have each other, just for a little while.Series
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12 Feb 2026
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If you asked Shane Hollander-Rozanov why his husband was standing in the entry way with a box that is meowing this morning, he would’ve assumed he’d finally fucking lost it. All the concussions, injuries, chirps delivered face first into plexiglass had added up.
Of course, now it is different. Ilya was really holding a box that was meowing.
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11 Feb 2026
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[podfic] I wanna hold you like you needed then by oceans_and_lovers by SD_Ryan
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
01 Feb 2026
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podfic of "I wanna hold you like you needed then" by oceans_and_lovers
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In an incognito tab, brightness all the way to the bottom, he searches "Top gay bars in Toronto," keeping one deep breath locked inside his chest, and immediately finds the phone number for a place called Woody's.
Opens his history to see if it really doesn't show up there. Checks again as his phone sits freezing in his palm.Biting down on his lip like he'll tear it off, he hits call.
Shane Hollander, when he is alone in the dark, calls gay bars, just to listen.
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11 Feb 2026