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Tasha



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    “I’m not walking through that door!” It’s a statement. No space for discussion. If he wants to send her back to that dead world so she can spend the rest of her miserable existence in solitary, he can better kill her right here and now. Maybe if there is some sort of afterlife, she would be reunited with her friends then, her family… Clint.
    “Well… the door was more of a metaphor anyway.”
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    “There are things known and there are things unknown, and in between are the doors of perception.”
    (Aldous Huxley)

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    10 Jan 2022

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    “Nate, you’re not just my best friend; you’re the best guy I know. Everything you’ve dealt with the past year and a half? You’ve just shown such amazing character and I’m so proud of you. And through everything, you’ve always kept an eye on everyone else; you look after us all. And today? That look … just taking that second to check in with me. It meant a lot. And when he threw me his look? It just brought it all home. He has been an absolute jerk to me for months. He has treated me far worse than you ever did and yet he had the nerve to throw me this look, right before he said I do. I don’t even know what that look was but it felt like an accusation, like it’s my fault that he was in that church getting married and I don’t even know why a word like ‘fault’ should come to mind, but it did and that’s how it felt to me, like that’s what he was saying to me; that he was blaming me. And I thought that when he said it, I do, I mean, that I’d feel like someone had put a knife in my heart ... or my guts. But there was nothing. Like ... absolutely nothing. I’m completely and utterly done … and I really don’t care anymore whether he is happy or not happy. I don’t care if he’s making a mistake … because it’s his mistake to make.”

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    09 Aug 2020

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    The truth is that in the Red Room, there was no part of Natasha her that truly belonged to herself, so it had never bothered her to seduce men, to sleep with them. She had hurt herself, cut and burned her own flesh in pursuit of her missions. Her mind was the last fortress, and by the end, she had given over that as well. It was difficult to explain to the woefully unprepared psychologists trotted out before her that it hadn't hurt her in the least to sacrifice these things at the time, and even now, on the other side, she still carries few regrets. They are prices for war and survival.

    Natasha is only learning now how to make choices for herself, how to claim ownership over herself, her body, her desires. It is as foreign as first learning to walk or speak, stumbling along the way.

    The first time Natasha sleeps with Steve, it is a choice she makes for herself.

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    08 Apr 2014

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    It seemed to Natasha that their relationship was punctuated by appearances from the Hulk, all questions marks and exclamation points.

     

    “What did you see?”
    “You.” Bruce swallowed. “You were behind this…screen… and I couldn’t get to you. I kept pounding and screaming, and it wouldn’t give.” His hands tensed as he spoke, curling into fists. “You were dying, and I couldn’t save you.”

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    14 Aug 2012

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    He checks himself out against medical advice exactly six days earlier than the discharge estimate the Seattle Presbyterian cardiothoracic attending had given him as a guide. A post season six finale fic with a little ray of hope at the end.

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    10 Aug 2012