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  1. Summary

    Series set within the "seems like all i'm worth is what i'm able to withstand" fic universe. Including deleted scenes, alternate povs's and miscellaneous oneshots.

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  1. Public Bookmark 94

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    Astarion's long journey toward acceptance, self-love and adulthood.

    Halsin holds his hand through it all.

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    12 Feb 2026

  2. Public Bookmark 11

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    Astarion doesn't feel good. He doesn't feel fine or okay or anything so romantic. He is still a sleep-deprived slave, his arms sliced open and his every move prescribed by a monster masquerading as a man in oversized suits. But there is blood in his body, and the job ahead of him is preferable to his usual orders. He feels marginally better than miserable, and in this moment, that is enough.

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    Astarion is pulled from the Kennel because Cazador needs his new garments tailored. Astarion is a talented tailor, and he loves the art. He doesn't love doing it *for Cazador* or for his wretched siblings. But the quiet and rhythm of sewing is the safest place he knows.

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    5 November: Now with a bonus hurt/comfort chapter further exploring his relationship with his siblings, especially Dalyria.

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    English
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    2/2
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    27 Jan 2026

  3. Public Bookmark 5

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    He's extracted from the big top's backstage, and what follows is the harder act: the aftermath, writing his own life without a script.

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    1/1
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    24
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    5
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    03 Jan 2026

  4. Public Bookmark 18

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    Five times Astarion didn't ask for help. One time they helped him anyway.

    Slices of life at camp, some light-hearted, some not so much.

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    English
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    Chapters:
    6/6
    Comments:
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    16 Dec 2025

  5. Public Bookmark 5

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    "Darling, you really are taking this whole 'checking in' thing rather far. If I wanted tenderness, I'd... well, no. I wouldn't. That's precisely the point."

    Halsin doesn't so much as blink. "You've agreed to the scene, and for that, I'm honored, my heart. But I agree to it only if I get to hold you afterward."

    Astarion is familiar with rough play, but aftercare proves an entirely different challenge.

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    27 Aug 2025