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Home Out In The Wind by bomberqueen17
Fandom Star Wars Episode VII: The Force Awakens (2015), Star Wars: Shattered Empire
11 Dec 2017
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Bookmarked by Amiril
18 May 2020
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(the one with space drugs, Poe crush video, Poe/Rey hijinks, Norasol) -
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Dean Winchester’s life used to be perfect. He spent his days hunting the supernatural beasts of the world with his brother, Sam, and his boyfriend, Cas Novak. Then his brother quit hunting to set up the Men of Letters bunker and Cas decided that he had better things to do, and Dean’s perfect life shattered.
Two years later, Dean moves from hunt to hunt and tries not to remember everything he’s lost. It’s not a great existence, but he’s managing. At least, that’s what he thinks. Then he takes a job at a resort in South Carolina, where he sees a familiar face. Forced to fake a relationship with Cas in order to work the case, Dean has to battle his own emotions as well as suspicious employees, and a growing threat from within the resort. Something evil is there, and it might not wait until Dean and Cas figure out their feelings for each other before it acts.
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Bookmarked by Amiril
19 Jul 2022
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/30868145?show_comments=true&view_full_work=true#comment_559171851
Cas and Dean are broken up and go undercover to a couples retreat
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It almost feels like, if Dean went to sleep right now, he could get it back. Like he would slip right back into the dream, and it would pick up where it left off. But Dean doesn’t even want to, now that he can see that world for what it is: a cheap hallucination, poking at all his weaknesses, going right for the soft underbelly Dean never shows.
All that work. All that work Dean had done over the past few weeks, trying to numb himself and act like he’d forgotten about it. And now it feels like the Empty took Cas all of five minutes ago, all over again.
Or,
A post-15x19, forty one year-old Dean gets a taste of what twenty seven year-old Dean went through in 2x20, “What Is and What Should Never Be,” and sees how the shape of his own happiness has changed. Then life goes on, same as it ever was—except for the dreams he starts having at all hours of the day, and a familiar voice on the phone that's starting to sound a little too real.
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10 Sep 2022
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/31673102/chapters/81934624
Dean is with Cas in a djinn dream, gets phantom phone calls that knock him out, Cas talks about watching Dean rake on the phone during a hunt, Dean goes to the empty vis Pontiac doesn’t talk about his issues until under werewolf attack in a cabin
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Autrement, Danger - or, The Account of an Exceedingly Long Day by awed_frog
Fandoms: Supernatural
16 Mar 2016
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When Dean looks at it, he sees Cas, and he's not happy about it.
When Sam looks at it, he sees Jess, which is even more unfair and fucked up.
And when Cas looks at it - hell, who knows what Cas is even thinking? Dean is not asking him, because he really doesn't care - like, at all.- Language:
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Bookmarked by Amiril
15 Feb 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/6100813/chapters/13984570
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“Fuck, I can’t believe that, I can’t...you really wanted to fuck me.”
Cas doesn’t say anything and Dean glances through his fingers, just to be meet with the sight of an angel shifting in his seat, staring at him with these stupid blue eyes, but now they are...fuck, they are darker, the pupils blown and Dean’s throat is suddenly very dry. He sits upright like a lightning bolt has hit him.
“You...you still want to fuck me”, he whispers.
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It's their last night on earth and finally Dean and Castiel allow themselves to give in to what has been between them for years now. It doesn't matter if that would complicate things between them. They're gonna die anyway, right?
Until they don't.
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21 Feb 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/36317632/chapters/93982957#main
Dean and Cas sleep together before fighting God and then Dean shoots Cas after a nightmare and freaks
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Sometimes when you run the tape backwards, you find something unexpected encoded in the noise.
Bookmarked by Amiril
24 Apr 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/441141
Eames and Arthur are broken up because they are very bad at being domestic.
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Buck tells Eddie he’s in love with him. Eddie pines.
or, five times eddie watches buck leave, and the one time he goes after him
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Bookmarked by Amiril
21 Jun 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/38430934
Buck tells Eddie he loves him; Eddie thinks he'd be bad at relationships so doesn't say anything; things are fine until they aren't; Eddie has a breakdown at Bobby and Athena's
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Buck develops a relationship with the ocean, avoids talking about the day Eddie was shot, realizes he might be in love, and drives.
Order may vary.
(a fic for the "Buck is going to break all the way down in season 6" truthers)
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Bookmarked by Amiril
06 Jul 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/39396138
Buck doesn't talk about the shooting but he almost drowns trying to rescue someone without a line, he and Lucy get very drunk, Eddie and Buck get in a car accident and bucks legs are trapped
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Bookmarked by Amiril
21 Jul 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/series/1761262
Uncle Benji/Eddie the history nerd/Buck's parents move to California/stranded with Chim in a wildfire/kiss at Madney wedding
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Eddie doesn’t see it happen.
He’s still looking at the ambulance Charlie disappeared into, his mask half off in his face, and Captain Mehta is asking him, “Diaz, you want to ride with the kid to the hospital?” when the gun gets fired, only he’s been off the battlefield for over five years now and had to teach himself not to jump every time a door slams or Christopher drops a glass, and so he has the thought, the thought years of PTSD have taught him to have: you’re okay. Not a gunshot.
The spray of blood hits him, first. And then Buck drops like a fucking stone.
or, Buck is the one who gets shot instead of Eddie.
Bookmarked by Amiril
05 Aug 2023
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He still gets stuck in it sometimes: the absolute silence after the shot, and time so, so still in that endless second when Eddie’s eyes met his. When the air turned cool against the skin of Buck’s face because there was something else, now, something warmer, sticky in his eyelashes, pooling at the corner of his mouth. Staining him in a way that will never, never come out, all in the time it took to remember how to breathe again.
It didn’t happen fast at all. There are days when Buck wakes up and thinks it might still be happening.
And Eddie is—Eddie won’t—Eddie—
or, six months after the near-fatal shooting of a member of the LAFD, footage of the incident surfaces on social media.
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Bookmarked by Amiril
06 Aug 2023
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There's a video of the shooting
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She turns to Eddie and says something else, but Buck is busy fighting the headrush he gets at the sound of Ana Flores calling Eddie and Christopher 'the boys'. Like they belong to her already.
God, what’s wrong with him? What is this?
or, eddie cooks, chris domesticates a slug, and buck tries to figure out why he hates his best friend's girlfriend. to everyone's immense shock and surprise, it goes badly.
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Bookmarked by Amiril
07 Aug 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/33865111
Sewer clog/buck's two week break/"what [Anna] wants is going to matter"
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It’s something about the way Eddie phrases it. Something about the combination of his words and the way he’s staring down at the floor, and the flush in his cheeks and the way he’s fidgeting. Buck thinks, abruptly, he’s going to ask me on a date.
“Well I - wanted to tell you first, and I need someone to watch Chris, anyways - I know he’s getting old enough now he doesn’t like feeling like he’s got a babysitter, so I was hoping - sorry. Not the point. Uh. I have a date on Saturday.”
Just as abruptly as his own hopes had come soaring up above the cloud cover of his own unawareness - they go crashing back down to the floor - to the basement, and into the mud. “A date?” Buck rasps out.
or - the one where eddie decides to start dating again, buck figures out his own feelings just a minute too late, and then he spends a week going through the five stages of grief
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Bookmarked by Amiril
11 Aug 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/46553236
Buck doesn't consider dating Eddie until Eddie lets Linda set him up; goes through a crisis; Cries at work; Eddie's date is secretly with a guy; Eddie and buck are both bad at coming out
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“Did you know if you put a frog in water and slowly bring it to boiling, it won’t hop out?” Chris is chattering as Buck makes a quick dinner while Eddie argues with his gas company on the phone. He can hear the occasional swear word in Spanish as his voice raises. Eddie doesn’t like to raise his voice around Christopher – the very thought makes Buck want to kiss him full on the mouth – so he decided to take it to the living room while Chris sits with his homework in the kitchen and Buck cooks.
“Hmm?” Buck asks, unable to fully pull himself out of Bobby’s baked mac and cheese recipe. It took him years, but he finally convinced the man to write it down. Bobby’s handwriting was juvenile at best on a good day, but this was nearly unreadable. Buck wonders if he did that on purpose. “Frogs?”
“Yeah!” Chris states. “My teacher said that if you put a frog in a pot, you have to make sure it’s not immediately boiling. You put them in water and then slowly raise the temperature and they won’t realize what’s happening. Then once they realize, they have no place to go. They can’t jump out.”
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S6 Spec: Buck decides he doesn’t need therapy, reverts to some bad habits, and explodes. Or, the Breakdown Fic.
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Bookmarked by Amiril
14 Aug 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/41468892
Screaming nightmare w a hookup / drag brunch / not talking to parents doesn't tell Madi / little girl dies of a brain bleed and buck yells at Bobby / fire at the equine therapy place
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ramon's heart is giving out. eddie grapples with the loss of their relationship.
or: an exploration of eddie’s relationship with ramon and, as a corollary, helena.
tw: parent death.
Bookmarked by Amiril
20 Aug 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/41638113
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burn the straw house down by rarakiplin (gmontys) for catchingpapermoons
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
06 Sep 2022
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“Why the fuck are you even in this loop? This day isn’t about you.”
“Well, I die,” Eddie comments idly, not sounding as offended as he maybe should be. “Haven’t you heard? I’m always dying.”
“That’s not funny.”
Eddie shrugs, not really agreeing or disagreeing. It’s a few seconds before he says, eyes still closed, “Maybe I’m here so you’re not alone.”
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or, buck gets stuck in time, has a break down and then, relatedly, a break through
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Bookmarked by Amiril
21 Aug 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/41496957
Time loop over parents dinner, gay neighbor
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It goes like this:
1. Buck and Taylor break up over him kissing Lucy.
2. Eddie and Buck sleep together.
3. Buck and Taylor get back together.(4. Eddie deals. Poorly. He should be used to the whole unrequited thing by now. Was easier when he didn’t know what Buck sounds like when he comes though.)
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29 Aug 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/41358795
Buck and Eddie sleep together after a close call; Buck immediately gets back with Taylor; Eddie avoids him; they fight about it and Buck is upset with Eddie flirting w guys at a bar;
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“I’m not leaving you, Buck.” Eddie says with a tired sigh, like he’s struggling with the weight of the world and Buck’s the one who put it there. “Just switching jobs, that’s all.”
That’s all?, Buck wants to scream, because every relationship he has is tied to the job in some way, and first Maddie left, and then it was Chimney, and now it’s Eddie. But he doesn’t scream, because that would be a little bit too tragic, even for him, and nods instead. Bites his tongue. Pretends that he isn't falling apart where he's stood.
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Or, set post season 5A, where Buck is alone, and angry, and exhausted, but mostly terrified that everyone he loves is slowly slipping away from him.
**rated mature for heavy themes**
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Bookmarked by Amiril
13 Sep 2023
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https://archiveofourown.org/works/40060212
Outed at dinner/past suicide attempt
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i love you, ain't that the worst thing you've ever heard? by rarakiplin (gmontys)
Fandoms: 9-1-1 (TV)
13 Feb 2022
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Buck’s eyes fall shut, something pained and vulnerable sliding into the bend of his eyebrows. “I’m…I’m with Taylor now,” he says, barely a whisper.
And Eddie’s been doing a pretty good job at being brave about all of this, at not flinching away from Buck’s rejection, but that hits and burrows.
“Okay.”
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or, in which eddie's will reveal is a love confession, and buck takes a second to catch up
Series
- Part 2 of we've been lonely too long (prompts)
Bookmarked by Amiril
20 Sep 2023
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Buck knows Eddie loved him; they avoid each other; Adriana visits; Eddie doesn't want to go to El Paso for Christmas
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Buck refuses to pout about it, though. He’s not a child, and he’s not so selfish and immature. Buck’s a grown man who has a grasp on how relationships work. He’s perfectly fine with seeing Eddie less if it means things are going well between Eddie and Ana.
Buck can deal with it.
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Bookmarked by Amiril
26 Sep 2023
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Eddie is dating Ana and Buck can't figure out why he doesn't like it. Then he does. The hand sanitizers are attacking