The Heavier Things
Supernatural fics that deal in heavier topics, such as musings on bodily autonomy and abuse.
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During the 'easier' episodes Ilya can manage.
Usually he can gather enough strength to get out of bed, even if it's just to slouch around the cottage or outside. He'll eat whatever Shane puts in front of him. He'll put on a brave face when Yuna and Dave come over to visit. And then when the evening rolls around he's so exhausted he falls asleep around eight.
The 'heavy' episodes are harder.
Ilya will spend most of the day sleeping. He will eat small bites of whatever Shane gives him, sometimes nothing at all. Showering is out of the question. If it's a particular bad episode, he won't even leave the bed.
Shane is scared to leave Ilya alone during the 'heavy' episodes.
He knows Ilya wouldn't hurt himself on purpose. But he also knows that depression is very complex and sneaks up on their victims when they're most vulnerable.
Or, Ilya experiences a bad depression episode. Shane is there to catch him when he falls.
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know it's for the better / no, it's for the better by selfishambition
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV)
03 Jan 2026
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Ilya Rozanov has been carrying his mother's ghost since he was twelve years old.
Sochi is where the weight finally breaks him. Russia is eliminated in the most humiliating loss in their history, and their captain sits on a twelfth-floor balcony railing thinking about letting go.
Shane Hollander has a gold medal game in fourteen hours. He comes anyway.
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The Weight of the Quiet by DamnSterek
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
02 Jan 2026
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WARNING: the Long Game spoilers
WARNING: Depression and (passive) suicidal themesIlya navigates grief, isolation, and the weight of holding himself together, until he learns to let himself be supported when he can’t hold everything together alone.
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I don’t know why. by TheQueenoftheAbyss
Fandoms: Heated Rivalry (TV), Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid
21 Dec 2025
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When Ilya’s depression rears its ugly head in a new way Shane is there to catch him as he falls.
Because everyone deserves a Shane to catch them.
!Ep 6/ The Long game spoilers! (Sort of)
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andante, andante (oh, please don’t let me down) by lovedays
Fandoms: Game Changers Series - Rachel Reid, Heated Rivalry (TV)
24 Dec 2025
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It’s automatic, taking care of Anya like this. Despite the darkness in his head, and the pit resting in his ribs, Ilya manages to ground himself to her. Shane can be just as grounding, but it’s Anya that allows him to let his mind smooth out and focus on just about nothing.
Because if Ilya thinks of Shane, the worst thoughts always return.
OR, Ilya’s depression gets the better of him.