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*The first half has dialogue directly from PDH S1 Ep 30, then my writing picks up. sry for bad english or grammar*
She's the most beautiful girl I've ever seen. It's not an exaggeration at all. Her black hair is so long, so soft. Her eyes, they make everything go away. I could look at them forever. I love the way she looks at me, her little smile. Trying to hide the fact that she's as red as a tomato. Then again, so am I. I'm in love with this girl and she doesn't even know it. She makes me feel things I've never felt before. The only person who's ever taken genuine interest in me, it was her all along and both of us didn't even know it until recently. She's like a dream to me. The sweetest, most pure and kind soul I've ever met. The girl who takes away all of the pain I've ever felt just by looking up at me, she's so short, so perfect. She makes me feel loved, the love I never felt as a child. But it's all better as soon as I see her. I don't know if she feels the same way, I just need this girl more than anything. She is everything I've ever wanted, everything I've ever needed. I'd do anything to see her smile, to hear her laugh. Anything at all. She's my Aphmau. Mine, but she doesn't know that yet.
Her friends threw a party at her house against her will. She couldn't get everyone to leave. She asked for my help, of course I got there as fast as I possibly could. I managed to get everyone out, I broke a window. I told her I'd help clean it up, I knew her mom would be so mad at her. She didn't do anything wrong. My girl just wanted to sleep, she's so exhausted. Working so hard in werewolf class, it's tough dealing with them. I know it just as much as she does. And she struggles in math, but at least she tries. I'm so proud of her. I love it when she asks me for help, anything to be close to her. She's so goofy. I act like it frustrates me, but seeing her laugh over stupid words on her calculator makes my heart feel so full. God, I love her so much.
Shit, I cut myself trying to help with the window. Too lost in thought about her I guess. She looks up at me, concern written on her face. She doesn't need to worry, I'd be ok. Any amount of pain I endure is worth it, as long as she's safe.
She took her red headband straight off her head, with no hesitation. She decided to play nurse. She really does care.
"Aaron? There's something I need to tell you.." Her voice makes me so happy.
A werewolf walks in as soon as she tried to speak again. It's ok, I'll get to listen to her in a moment.
"Hey alpha, I'm sorry I know you're having some alone there with your mate..I wanted to say sorry for acting up. I know you're not going to be alpha next year, since you'll be gone and all. But for what it's worth, you were the best alpha in a long time! And alpha lady, you take care of him"
Shit shit shit shit shit. She knows.
"Alpha?"
I couldn't even get my words out, I couldn't think straight. She's gonna hate me. I can't lose her, I love her so much.
"Uhhhh" I'm so stupid, that's all I could manage to say?
"Wait! He said I..I was the alpha female? And you were the alpha?? Does that mean..they thought..we were...this whole time?! YOU KNEW?"
"Yes! I mean no! I mean..I didn't want to tell you because.."
She didn't even let me finish, she's so mad at me. It hurts.
"You didn't tell me?!"
"It's not that I didn't want to tell you, it's just that I meant..uhh...you might have known about how I felt...."
"That's just aghhh embarrassing! Why did you? Aghhhh"
I hurt her, why was I so stupid? I should've told her. I was so scared she'd leave me, but I guess now she's probably done speaking to me. It's the worst pain I've ever felt. I feel so sick, even my bones ache. Even my own family issues didn't hurt me this bad...
"Shu wait!"
She ran away from me out of anger. I messed up so bad. Why can't I just tell her how much she means to me?
"Shu! Shu? Where are you?"
"Shu..."
"Go away!"
She yelled at me. I'm so scared. I don't want her to abandon me, I'm so alone. She's the best thing to ever happen to me.
"I'm sorry, it's just being alpha was just..a lot of unwanted responsibility. There's a reason alphas are only seniors."
"It's not that, it's just, when did you mark me?"
She's crying. She's crying because of me. I failed. I wanted to make her as happy as she makes me.
"Was this before or after you found out I was Shu?"
She used attitude with me. I'm not mad at her, I know she's mad. She has every right to be mad at me after what I did. I embarrassed her.
"Before.."
I probably just messed up even more, I'm in too deep now. There's no going back. But she deserves to know.
"Why would you do that?"
"I liked you"
"Well, you sure didn't treat me like you did back then."
"Of course I didn't, I couldn't. Because I was also in love with Shu. But I didn't know her and she didn't open up to me. But then I found out that you were her. The girl I was talking to the entire time, online."
"What are you trying to tell me?"
"I'm going to college next year, I won't be around as long as I want to be. I want to make this summer count with you."
She let out a small sigh, I hope it was a sigh of relief, and not out of anger.
"Heh, we can spend all summer together if you want? Under the sun, maybe go to the beach?"
She's so silly.
"Heh, you make it sound like we're going to a tropical paradise or something."
She laughed. God her laugh is the best sound. I can't lose this girl.
"Well, that would be nice, but probably won't ever happen."
We both laughed. She was hiding in her closet. I want to hold her so badly. I want her in my arms.
"You know, when you go to college, you can't be throwing people out the window anymore. I'll be worried about you with that temper."
She's so sweet, I can't let her down.
"I know, I'll do my best to calm down so you don't worry about me. I know we just met and I don't want to leave you.."
She opened up the door, her pretty face was covered in tears. I hate that I made her cry.
"Shut up FC! You aren't leaving me! I won't let you...we're still gonna play our game together, right?"
She's crying even more, I just want to hug her. I want to tell her everything's going to be ok. I want to hold her in my arms forever. She's my girl.
"Of course."
"I have something I want to tell you..."
She's hesitant. Did I do something wrong?
"Huh?" I'm so confused
"I... I like you, a lot. I want to kiss you!"
Holy shit. My heart is pounding. She's got to be joking, this is some kind of sick prank. She doesn't like me. It was probably a set up, she probably got dared to talk to me in the first place didn't she?
"I want to kiss you!"
Please don't let her be joking, I want this so bad.
"I know it's forward, but I've felt this way since before I knew you. But I'm afraid it's gonna hurt..."
She's afraid of me.
"It might hurt. A lot"
"Why?"
She looks scared
"I'm probably not a good kisser"
Fuck. She laughed a little.
"I bet you've kissed a lot of girls already.."
I can't tell how she feels. She's upset, I can see it on her face. But is she scared of me? Is she angry? Or sad?
"No. This'll be my first kiss"
That's insanely embarrassing. She's gonna laugh at me.
"Your first? Then we can't! You need to share it with someone special and I-"
I grabbed her by the waist and pulled her in. She's so red. What am I thinking?
"Even if we don't end up together, you're someone very special to me. You always will be."
"FC...can I?"
This is a dream, this can't be real, is she serious? Is she going to kiss me?
I'm hesitant. I don't want to get hurt.
"Yes"
She's so incredibly short. She reached up, standing on her tippy toes. She wrapped her tiny hands around the back of my neck. My hands were still around her waist. Just were I want them to be. My heart is beating so fast. She actually kissed me. Of course I kissed her back. I know it wasn't her first, but it was mine. I never want to kiss anyone else, I love the feeling of her soft lips pressed against mine. Even though it was my first kiss, I tried to be good enough for her. I had no idea what I was doing, but to me it felt so right.
"Well?" She's probably going to say I suck at kissing. But her lips were the best feeling to me
"Did it hurt?"
"No..can we do it again?"
Her stutter was so cute. I smiled the biggest smile. Obviously I agreed.
This time she didn't let go, it only got more passionate from there. This hasn't happened before, I'm so fucked. She's making me hard. I can't let her know that, she'll never talk to me again. But I want her so bad. I can't stop myself from kissing her. She pulls me close, I couldn't pull away. I know she feels it, she's against my entire body. I still can't stop though. She hasn't stopped either. It's only getting worse. What am I doing?
She pulls away for a moment and looked me in the eyes. My eyes were full of fear, I know she's going to say something about it. My face is so red, it's hot to the touch. I tried to avoid eye contact, but her eyes are so gorgeous. I've never seen her with this look before.
"Aaron. Can I say something crazy?"
I stuttered, "of course"
I know she's about to freak out on me. I'm so sorry Aph..
"I want you so badly..."
"What? What do you mean?"
I can feel my face get as red as it possibly can at this point. My body is getting hot. And well...I'm as hard as I can be. This is so embarrassing.
Her eyes were full of lust. Completely full of it. I'm just waiting to see if she'll say the words I want to hear. Probably not, but I wish I could have her body so much. I don't think she'll say those words.
She pulls me closer again, her body is pressed all the way up against mine at this point. There's no hiding the fact that I'm as hard as a rock anymore. She begins kissing me again, and then her lips start to move down to my neck. Fuck this feels good. I let out a small moan. She didn't pull away, she just started kissing more and more. And then she made it down to my collar bone. I can't hold back anymore. I picked her up, and she wrapped her legs around me. I can feel her grinding on me, by this point I know she wants it. Her mom isn't home, it's just her and I. We can practically do whatever we want. I lay her down onto her bed, still kissing her. She's got her legs wrapped around me, pulling me closer and closer. I can feel how wet she is just by my dick pressing against her. Hearing her moans while feeling her use me for her own pleasure is the sexiest thing ever. I don't want to stop. I'm pushing myself onto her more. I want her to feel so fucking good. God, her body feels amazing. Even better when I'm on top of her like this. I need to feel her. All of her. She moaned my name. She told me how bad she wanted me inside of her. She's so wet, I can still feel her.
"Aph, you can have all of me baby... Whatever you want. I'll make you feel so good, I promise..."
And then she said the words I wanted to hear this whole time.
"Aaron please fuck me...I want to feel you in me so badly, I need you. I can already feel how hard you are. Please let me have you Aaron?"
I can't stop now. I'm kissing her neck, her hands make their way to my shirt and she's taking it off for me. I practically ripped her shirt off, she was only in a bra and her pajama pants from earlier. But she's soaking wet for me. As soon as she agreed to let me undress her I got her naked as fast as I could. I'm only in my boxers. She's fully naked, begging for me to take her. Begging me to mark her as my territory. And that's exactly what I'm gonna do.
I looked her in her eyes and asked for her full permission. She agreed to let me inside of her. I lead my dick down to her wet pussy, and slowly put it in. We're both virgins, I know it's hurting her a little bit. I'm only putting a little at a time, until she tells me she wants more. I'm all the way in. She's so tight, so wet. Letting me take her for the first time makes it even better for me. I know she feels good too, she keeps begging me to go harder. Moaning my name so loud directly in my ear. Fuck. She tells me she's close, she kissed me and told me exactly what to do for her. I gave her what she wanted. She was biting my shoulder and I never thought I'd be into that, but holy fuck it felt good. Her body tensed up as she came for me. Still moaning my name so perfectly. I'm so close. She's gonna make me fucking cum. And then she wrapped her legs around me and dug her nails into my back while using her legs to push my dick deeper into her pussy. She pushed me off and got on top of me just as I was about to cum and she rode me. Seeing her bounce up and down on my cock and seeing her face every time I give her more, that did it for me. I gave it all to her. I screamed her name as I came inside of her, she's telling me how good it feels as I fill her up with my kids. I hope I did good enough for her, she deserves everything.
I love her more than I even knew I did. I can't let any other man have her. She needs to be mine. I need to protect her.
"Aphmau...that was amazing baby, you felt so good"
She's still out of breath. She's so happy, smiling at me. I know she likes me as much as she said she did now. It's not a joke to her.
And then it hit me like a damn train.
"Aph?"
"Yes Aaron?"
"...Are you on birth control?"
Her eyes immediately widen. I knew that look wasn't good. We messed up. We messed up bad.