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"Slipping through my fingers all the time I try to capture every minute the feeling in it, slipping through my fingers all the time"
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If you were to ask miyano if the thought of graduation ever haunted him, he would say "No! that type of thing doesn't really bother me" and brush it off.
Or so he thought. It was currently the night before graduation and he couldn't sleep. He had been tossing and turning all night and before he knew it, it was already 3:20 am close to 4 and he had to be up early to get ready and make sure he looked good. Frustrated, he grabbed a sweater, his phone and made his way to the front door. He hoped that he wasn't the only one up, so he ventured out to the park that him, tashiro, kuresawa and shirahama would hang out in hopes that maybe they would be up and there waiting for him. Before even realizing it, he was running desperately as if his life dependent on it, he ran so fast that his lungs start to burn from the lack of oxygen he was getting. More than anything he wanted to see his best friends one last time before the big day. He knew that when that morning came then it was official, they would no longer be classmates, they would be going there separate ways and he didn't want that. Why couldn't they stay here forever? Why couldn't they all have chosen the same college? Why couldn't they just stay together? He didn't want to say goodbye. He wasn't ready. He never knew how to say goodbye. When arrival he was panting like crazy and his chest was so tight from the lack of oxygen he was getting but he ignored that feeling, looking around he saw no one there. He laughed bitterly and instead of heading home, he sat on the swings 'Maybe just maybe they will come' he told himself. He closed his eyes and he tried getting his breathe back on track while feeling everything around him. He liked the feeling of the cold air hitting his face, he liked the way he could feel his own heartbeat, he liked the feeling of the cold swing pressed on his fingertips.
"Boo!" he heard and quickly opened his eyes and before him, he saw the people he treasured dearly. The three boys had this stupid grin on their faces but without realizing it, he also had that stupid grin on his face. "So you couldn't sleep either" Kuresawa question, miyano just nodding his head. The four of them stayed silent, they didn't really need to voice their concerns because truth be told they were all just equally as terrified as miyano. There was just a understanding. However that didn't stop them from saying it out loud, they knew though that once it was said, they had to accept reality and there was no escaping it. "Do you guys ever think.." tashiro paused, "think that we could all possible grow out of each other..?" he whispered but they all heard that. Without even realizing it, the four boys started crying. It hit them like a truck, there was so many possibilities and that's one of the millions. They didn't want that to happen though.
Its so weird though. They were never really close at first but over time they became so close that the thought of them not in their lives hurt so much. I mean how can you all just become strangers with one another? the boys became so inseparable and told everything to one another so the thought of them becoming strangers is so scary. They were so close that they practically married into all of their family's so the thought of growing up and saying goodbye to everything you once knew is so so scary. "I'm so scared because you guys mean so much to me and I don't want to say goodbye to you guys and the thought of leaving that school hurts me so much because I have so many great memories there--teach me how to say goodbye?" miyano chocked out, they all looked at him with such a surprised looked. Miyano never really talked about his feelings like this, he was always brushing off the idea of graduating. "You know.. I used to kind of make fun of the past third years for crying after their graduations but I understand.. it's so emotional.." He admitted while the others just chuckled at him. They all sat on the floor, shirahama being in the middle because he was the tallest, then tashiro was on his left while kuresawa was on his right side while miyano sat next to the other black hair boy. All of them resting their heads on one another for comfort.
That night, they all shared their deepest concerns and thoughts while also crying here and there and before they knew it, they were witnessing the sunrise. They all looked at one another and smiled while grabbing their phones they took a picture of themselves and a picture of the sky. This was officially the last time they would see the sun rise together as classmates. "Oh my god remember when we all first became friends and we were so awkward hanging out together outside of school!!" shirahama mentioned and kuresawa started cracking up so bad that he started crying, "Dude it was a nightmare it was like we were on a bad date" kuresawa joked making them all laugh at how cringe it was. "Dude remember when tashiro got stuck inside the trash can at school and we had to explain how he slipped and magically ended up there!!" miyano joked while earning a hit from the blonde, making them all laugh even harder. "Okay okay lets get up and start getting ready we have to met up at the school in like 3 hours" shirahama suggest but the other three boys looked at him like he was speaking another language
"Ho what.." tashiro said while earning a side eye from the black hair boys. "You know what god forbid a dude makes a suggestion.." shirahama says dramatically.. "Oh my god we should go get breakfast at __!!"" miyano said with a smile. The other boys exchanged glances with one another before nodding. With that the group starts walking to the cafe while recalling memories they made with one another over these three years they had together. Before they even knew it, they were seated at the cafe talking away waiting for their drinks and food. Without really paying attention to anything around them, the workers had these soft smiles on their faces as if they knew that these boys were graduating and were absolutely afraid of the unknown, the workers just chuckled and made sure to give them lots of foods on their plates and even gave them coffee for free because they could tell that they didn't sleep. The boys took so many pictures together at the cafe and even when walking, they didn't want to leave. They weren't ready to go home and get ready. They wanted this to last forever. Sighing, they untimely got up and said their goodbyes so that way they could go home and get ready, obviously when they got home they were all scolded for leaving in the middle of the night without saying anything and just how worried they were. They all just chuckled before the parents just smiled and told them to get ready for their graduation.
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And just like that they were at their ceremony, they were all separated though due to being ordered in last names however shirahama, tashiro and kuresawa looked around for miyano and couldn't see him, they were all nervous till they heard their principle mention miyanos name, the three of them looked forward so fast and their eyes widen, he never once told them that he would be speaking at the ceremony. While miyano walked out many of his classmate's and underclasssmate's who did know him screamed his name out receiving a chuckle from him. Miyano looked around at the crowd and his eyes widen and began to tear up when he saw sasaki, hirano, hanzawa and ogasawara but he quickly smiled at the crowd. Clearing his throat one last time.
"Hello family and seniors, I honestly was asked to speak very last minute so please bear with me, honestly if you asked me what I wrote is kinda cringy and not the best so please laugh when you desire too" he said earning a laugh from the crowed while he just gave a chuckle, "Honestly I wasn't sure what to write, I spent so many sleepless nights trying to figure out the perfect speech but I realized that no amount of words are ever going to truly express how I feel." He stopped, looking up to the crowed his expression soften and you could tell he was getting more comfortable. "I'm honestly really happy that I came to this school, this school has taught me a lot and honestly there was so many people here that helped me in so many ways that words cant describe and to those people, thank you so so so much honestly without you guys I truly believe that my high school experience wouldn't have been the same. This school has helped me grow and everyday I learned more about myself and truly without this school I believe that I wouldn't be who I am now without this school especially with these people. I believe that we all have found friends that feel like family and well we found our type of people." A lot of people started cheering at that statement while others screamed 'damn right,' earning a chuckle from the parents and teachers. "We all made many memories here that we so dearly don't ever want to forget and I think.. no I believe that a lot of us are absolutely scared shitless of what the future will hold for us. For a raise of hands how many of you guys weren't able to sleep?" he questioned while raising his hand and just like that everyone had their hands in the air before raising them down, suddenly this speech was sitting heavily in everyone's hearts. "I won't be afraid to admit it but honestly, now that we are all here, me giving this speech its hitting me so hard at the fact that this is reality and that we are saying goodbye to this school. We are saying goodbye to our teachers, we are saying goodbye to the memories we made, we are saying goodbye friendships." This part made everyone start to tear up including miyano himself. "A lot of us applied to different colleges and well this is a new start for us all, this is a big step forward and all though we are all scared of this huge step of life, deep down I believe we got this. I think as long as we continue to support one another we will all be able to move forward one step at a time. So before I close off my speech I want to say my thank you to everyone who has helped me so much. I can see our past third years so let me start off with them. Thank you Hirano for always making sure I was comfortable with the sempai's around me, thank you for protecting me. Thank you hanzawa for always giving me advice about my love life as well as my personal life. Without you I think I would still have been very lost about my feelings. Thank you ogasaware, I know we aren't exactly the closet but without you I think I wouldn't care so much about what others thought of me. Finally thank you sasaki for making me feel less insecure about my feminine futures, thank you for always listening to me talk which I know I can talk a lot but most importantly thank you for never giving up on me. Now moving onto my friends, Thank you Tashiro for always checking up on me and for always making me laugh. I know we all joke about how incredibly immature you are but deep down you were really mature. You taught us that its okay to have so much fun with the people around us. Thank you shirahama for always looking out for me when I was over working myself and for scolding me when it was needed it. You taught me dedication and to always put my everything into something I love doing. Thank you kuresawa for always pushing me to admit my feelings and teaching me its okay to feel the way I do. Thank you for being my first friend here, despite us always complaining about hearing you go on about your girlfriend, I truly treasure those moments because I loved the fact that you always seemed your happiness when speaking about her. So thank you three for always being here for me, I made so many memories that I won’t every forget because they truly are engraved into my mind. Without a doubt you guys are my other half, you guys are so interwind into my souls that I can’t every imagine a future without you three being beside me. To every student here, lets all continue living our lives to the fullest and lets continue making memories with one another. Thank you so much for listening to my speech. Goodbye seniors. Goodbye teachers. Goodbye Fujisawa.” He waved and bowed at the crowd while the all cheered. You can hear a lot of students crying and laughing by now as today was a mixer of emotions.
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After the ceremony friends and family gathered up to take photos with one another. Everyone just laughed at one another’s puffy eyes while hugging each other. Miyano’s speech did hit them all quite a lot, he said a lot of things everyone was thinking about but was too afraid to say. Miyano was now with his friends, the past third years, his boyfriend and his family. Kuresawa, tashiro and shirahama tackled him into a hug which led to them all laughing their asses off. “Oh my god miyano I can’t believe you gave a speech!!” tashiro wailed leaving shirahama to pat his back. The four of them just smiling every though they were crying, “it was a surprise! I had to go out with one final crazy situation” miyano claimed. The four of the got up as their parents hugged them crying saying how old they were getting and that just yesterday they were born. The parents got pictures with their kids before taking photos of their kids together smiling, crying, laughing and yelling at one another to stop moving so much. Their parents said goodbye so that way the past third years could talk to them.
”How did you even see us miyano..” hirano questioned leaving the rest to laugh, “well you guys certainly don’t exactly have a good way of blending in with the crowd” miyano claimed. “Your hair especially yours hirano stands out and well nobody but you has blonde hair” miyano laughed. “Yea yea” hirano smiled.
The group talked for a while till slowly the third years left, hirano left to talk to kagi, then ogasaware left because he had to pick up groceries for him and his girlfriend, next was hanzawa because he had to make it back to classes then finally it was sasaki who had to leave. Sasaki didn’t really want to leave but he knew that the group of boys weren’t ready to leave and plus miyano would be coming to his school, so he would be able to be greedy when it came to always being around miyano. He knew his boyfriend was really upset when he found out that him and his friends wouldn’t be going to the same school so he wanted miyano to enjoy his time before having to say goodbye. He gave his boyfriend a quick kiss before leaving and waving at the group. The group just laughed seeing their friend expression darkened when he saw his boyfriend leave. “Lets walk around the school one last time..?” Tashiro asked, while the others said yes.
Walking around the school, it was like they were stabbed in the heart. This was officially the end of their high school days. They had officially graduated. This was the last time they would ever wonder this school. As they walked they were filled with many memories over the last three years. Crying very loudly they continued to walk around not caring about anything. This felt so unreal, they didn’t want to acknowledge the truth but nonetheless had too.
Finally it was time to leave. In front of the gate, the four boys refused to leave each other’s side. “Slipping through our fingers..” miyano chocked out. As the others three cried so hard that it was hurting their eyes. “Lets have one last sleepover..?” shirahama said quietly, the three of them just nodded and took their final breaths, their final glances of the school. They looked back at what was in front of them. Taking a deep breath, they took their last every step out of the school.
’Whatever happens, I will forever stay by their sides.’ they thought to themselves and started walking over to their parents and their upper classmates who waited for them, laughing at how puffy their eyes were. Looking at one another they all laughed and walked off from the school. The school slowly became smaller and smaller by each step. Goodbye High school. Hello to the unknown.
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The end.