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I met he first when i was at that park, around the sculpture i found him. Well dressed, not a usual man you'll meet since you lived in sewer. So i used all my strength to ask for help, he helped me... It's so different. I dont think we actually fit, i tried to be normal i hoped so, my face never changed, all the kids think i have some problems, maybe not all, but i have been asked to do a face surgery many times. I looked at him but all could i care was my broken dress and what the customers in the cafe would think of me. He wanted to see me again and asked me to dress properly, to please him, i said yes. But how how can i find myself nice dress.
Steal, i have done that many times, why not? You dont care right? You wont tell the cops even they somehow know it. Everybody is watching me, they are reporting me, each of them reporting each other, no one is safe. No one can escape, maybe maybe that man could escape but no he has the boss he has to follow orders. Boring boring boring i hate my life, i dont even have a phone.
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Suffering, why both teachers and students dont loved me?
I did intend to show up in school uniform, but i have nothing to wear the shop just don't let me in, i hate them, blood and flesh, sometimes or some time maybe. I just can't wear the fancy dress everywhere. I stol.. No bought it just for him, it would be sad if some living things hurt it...
He gave me the money to buy something nice... He didn't ask why i showed up so quickly in that stupid high heels. Bus taxi i wanted to know what he was thinking, but he just didnt care.. No it's not like that! You are lying!
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We met again and again, he let bailey have me and take me away, thats all right, maybe he just trust him because of our relationship...
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I was a better thief but i couldn't open the door, but i saw him, why was he here? He came to save us! I wanted to cry, finally i felt something, my upper body was so happy, it was something so new so wonderful and strong. I reached out for help...
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46, he loved that much, he said he didn't know who i am, he told me that he knew im a slut, why?
98, he thought im his precious, but that's not how he treated me, he told me the same, but at least he touched, right?
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I dont have tears, I can go back... Some time travel, it's a game. Where i live and how i live, im just an insect but insects want to rape me... Stop talking, just go back to the timeline where he loved us and i didn't know the fact.
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Every time i watched, i stared at his eyes, his smile, he gave me the dress that did't fit me, he let others have me, i thought it was love, but nonono, not love, just lies and lies and lies, i was and am and will be just a gift to satisfy his desire. But i cant say no, no not really, very rare i refused, but i always let it be 100. Perfect. I tried let everyone loved me. But why my face always the same.
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You know the feeling, always hungry, your teeth always itching, you want to bite, you want to tear down his flesh, make his body your nest...
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Another day at Alex's farm, sometimes you looked at the riding school, sometimes you just want to kill all the animals, just for your family in the forest. They may be hungry now.
You ran and ran, all fours... Maybe the running will let you forget everything and totally be yourself.
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When you backed to the town, it's already the time to steal.
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My face, my mouth, my body are covered with white, not pure... I fell asleep in love.
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The dream the illusion, they are haunting me. The medicine doesn't work.
I need to let him pay, money is never enough. He slept next to me, so pure, so fragile, if i have a knife now... No, i can just use my hands, you are strong right? Just around his necks, it would be pretty... But you just got up to make some food you never eat.
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At the party, he introduced me, sometimes you wonder whether he trusted you just because he controlled you, toy, but everyone have a real name, a name on their credit card, you never watched them so you never knew it. There always is mist on wherever your name should be.
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At bar, you wasted your time on the drinks. Time swirled, you heard what he said again, he didn't know that slut... Who am i?
I should let he fall, let him die, or in the fire to purify him. But i didn't, he has a business to run, and i have the key to his chastity.