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There is something wrong with one of our students.“You cannot possibly think off to go to her, after all this years“ Adams voice echoed through the room. „I need to go“ It was the first time actually made my mind up. I couldn’t sleep all night. Tried to think of ways how someone could check on her without me being present but for the first time, I didn’t come with an idea and there was this pressing feeling that… things had to change. „And what is with your appointments? The presidents wants to“ I turned around in a snippet, locked my eyes on Adam. „The president can wait. This is Tess we are talking about“ Tess. My little girl. I haven‘t seen her in auch a long time. Another thing that kept me up at night. But she was better of with gramps, the farm and her friends. In her eyes I was just the annoying older sister. She didn’t needed that. „Ivy, you know can’t take her back with you. People are gonna know“ He was right, part of me knew what his words meant.
I left the same day. I was used to keep secrets why wouldn’t I be able to keep my own?
The first moment I saw Tess I forgot of to breath. She was so beautiful. So grown up. She hated me. The hatred she had towards me was the hardest to deal with. I could tell in her eyes that she thought I wasn’t aware of my mistakes but I was. I wished I could have got her to my place in DC but its was too dangerous back then. The people didn’t have the same respect for me yet.
She gave me the silent treatment. It was clever, I had to give her that. She didn’t want me to see how she was hurt. How she cared. How she had questions, she wanted me to be convinced that she could continue her life without me being in it. But what she didn’t realise is that I had harder clients than her. „She looks like you“ I put the butter in the flower, no idea if what I was doing was right. Who would have known baking would be so hard. „She looks like your brother“ I said still focusing on the dough, grunting through my teeth’s. „She acts like you“ I turned around at those words. Leaning against the kitchen counter, only realising now how nervous I was. „I don’t know if I can tell“ I looked down at my dirty hands. Adam came closer, his eyes full of concern. „You don’t need to tell her“ I looked up, shook my nervousness of and looked straight. „Yes sure if you could decide, you would have stopped me again to get here. You would have put her in a boarding school“ I turned back to my cookie dough, slammed my hands into it. „I don’t get what would have been wrong with it“ Adam was so calm so nonchalant, he really didn’t care. „ I already lost more than half of the life with Tess. I want my daughter to know that she is being loved“ „I hate to break it to you but this kid things you are the villain“ I formed the dough into little balls, threw them on the baking trey. „If I could only tell her the truth“‘ „Maybe I should go“ and with those words Adam left me alone.
„She ran off“ My heart was still pounding. I nobody should see my crying. The first Lady still was watching me, wanted to know what Tess talked about. I handled, barely but I did. I should be angry with Tess but instead all I felt was concern and guilt. „I‘ll try to call her“ Adam got his phone out before either Bodie and me could tell him that we already tried this. She didn’t pick up. My head was hurting, I let myself sink in the couch. „She‘ll be fine“‘Bodie tried to hype me up, handing me a coffe but I didn’t want one. „She won’t because I fucked up big time“ I had to blink hard not to let the tears come through. „Is this Ivy Kendrick, admitting a mistake?“ I ignored Bodie. He always knew when to make an inappropriate joke. Adam sat down next to me and pushed my hand slightly. „Why did she run away?“ I didn’t had any time yet to explain anything to him. I swallowed. I was so tired. All the tiredness of the last days started to kick in. „Vivvis farther is dead. He killed himself and Tess thinks its her fault“