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the aftermath of self-preservation

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THOUSAND SUNS TIME BAYBEY LETS GET IT

hearts — 4/3/25, 3:58 PM
fuck
fuck
fuck
hey
so. i think i might need help
[😭2] [🫂2]

Notes:

Genius lyrics claims that kate pillsbury of the crane wives described their song Higher Ground as "a sort of 2010s alt rock-esque anthem about the aftermath of self-preservation." I couldn't find any sources for it, but I think it's a nice sentence.

i'd also like to give HUGE thanks & a shoutout to emma cymaemesa, who wrote several hundred words of liveblog for a stream that does not exist.

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# THOUSAND SUNS TIME BAYBEY LETS GET IT

hearts 4/3/25, 3:58 PM

fuck fuck fuck hey so. i think i might need help

:sob: 2 :hug: 2

seri1248 4/3/25, 3:59 PM

WILLLLLLL

SayonaraSon 4/3/25, 4:01 PM

Do you need me to get revived now? I told you I'd do whatever you need, I'm not going back on that. I was thinking about coming back tonight anyway, my exams and lab report are done

hearts 4/3/25, 4:01 PM

NO its fine nara you can stay dead for now seri you can keep working on birmingham it's not . urgent . it'll be easier to get a rescue once they're asleep anyway. we can do an EU-friendly rescue tomorrow if i need one lol idk if i'll need one i'm in a trap but they're not going to kill me well. again

:sob: 2

seri1248 4/3/25, 4:36 PM

IDC WHAT WILL WANTS I WANT NARA BACK!!!!!!!!

Betty 4/3/25, 4:09 PM

WILL ;-; i can come help now if you need what are your coords

hearts 4/3/25, 4:13 PM

what time even is it for you anyway you wouldnt win vs them and idk if youd be able to escape given. the trap. plus you have birmingham to help with too like i said. im fine rn. sorry for worrying people and dont stay up too late!!!!!! you’ll need the sleep i’ll let you guys know if i want help i promise

seri1248 4/3/25, 4:21 PM

chips did you take will’s phone. be honest😭😭😭

:point_up_2: 1

hearts 4/3/25, 4:35 PM

unfortunately i’m just like this 😭

:sob: 3

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# THOUSAND SUNS TIME BAYBEY LETS GET IT

seri1248
4/3/25, 5:10 PM

NARAAAAAAAAA can i revive you

SayonaraSon 4/3/25, 5:10 PM

Not right this second I am DRAWING however. tonight. I think Yes

seri1248 4/3/25, 5:11 PM

OKAY ILL GET THINGS READY

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# THOUSAND SUNS TIME BAYBEY LETS GET IT

sin 4/3/25, 8:04 PM

will 😭 pls keep us updated

SayonaraSon 4/3/25, 9:25 PM

I am back and on 10 btw

:fire: 1

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# THOUSAND SUNS TIME BAYBEY LETS GET IT

hearts 4/4/25, 6:42 AM

-4660 -3795

seri1248 4/4/25, 6:47 AM

i cant help rn im sorry D: i get off work at 11 if you still need someone then

Betty 4/4/25, 6:50 AM

omw

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choirwithasinglevoice irrealisms asked:you probably won't see this until you wake up. i don't know if i want to stay. i love you. i love chips. i can't stop being scared of you and chips. i don't know if i'm okay with "terrified but too guilty to leave" as my ending. i'm sorry if you wake up and i'm not there anymore. [DI!ANGEL looks tired. Their hair's still messy, like they woke up recently.]

DI!ANGEL
Well, we tried.


[They laugh, without humor.]

Chips was always so sure you'd go for it. When she was around I'd get caught up in it, like you'd be delighted at the gift we made for you, but when I was alone, I… [they sigh.] I knew there was a chance you wouldn't want it? Maybe I should be more mad at you, but I'm not. I don't… blame you, for leaving. It was fucked up, I knew it was fucked up.

[They twist their two rings around and around their ring finger. Slowly, they take off the second one. They hold it like they don't know what to do with it.]

DI!ANGEL
At least you got me to log on for the last week, right?


#answers#💛 #will 🐈
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will | hearts 4/4/25, 11:21 AM

sooooooooo chips jumped me after i escaped while i was material gathering for 1k it was. weird? it was weird it’s not—i knew i should have expected it :sparkles:2 i froze up. as usual. it worked out because that’s kind of my strategy at this point anyway, with chips, bc i’m not going to actually ever. beat her in a fight. my only possible weapon is to make her feel bad (edited) but it was weird bc of how she was acting like we were still friends. still teamed. except for the sword :sparkles:4:sickosyes:4 she sounded so… i don’t even know. :sparkles:2 i still feel bad. i don’t know what i want to do. i should try to actually meet up with them, probably, for an ending if nothing else like i do really want to help w birmingham before server ends. now that im Really not w elysium i want to help 1k for my ending. but if she’s going to keep jumping me idk how much i would help anyway instead of just being more of a burden and (edited) if nothing else it’s like. idk ooc they put a lot of work into this plan? i don’t want to leave them without an ending and i want to have an ending with them for my own sake too. i love 1k but (edited) they all have their own things going on? (edited) :valid:1 ...it’d be easier if i didn’t love them. that was my question to angel, right? well. now i have my own answer. :sparkles:2 fuck, i’m still shaking :sparkles:2

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choirwithasinglevoice irrealisms asked:did you know, i believed you when you said that you and chips weren’t going to hurt me. i knew i shouldn’t. but i did DI!ANGEL
Yeah, well. I believed me too.


[DI!ANGEL looks away and takes a cigarette out. They fumble with the lighter. It doesn’t catch.]

DI!ANGEL
What do you want me to say, Will? That I couldn’t save you? Couldn’t help Chips? That I was a shitty teammate and even worse husband? I don’t--


[They try one more time to light their cigarette and drop the lighter entirely.]

DI!ANGEL
Fuck!

#answers#💛 #will 🐈
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# mcrp:

Emma Table - cymaemesa 4/5/25, 10:27 AM

:3 will gosh I cannot wait for two different other shoes to drop! Them reading the note they find on Wil''s corpse and Nara jumping out of the bushes to murder them. I don't think from waht Chips has said so far she's got any clue, obviously can't really ask :sparkles:1 :3 Will Has chips worked out this isn't just a random location this is will's - oh yes. "Why's there a bed here do you want to be fucking spawncamped?" sparklessparklessparkles :3 chips was pretty adamant before she got here about killing Will so I don't think this is going to work Angel but I love the attempt. Angel loves Will so much sobs sobs :sparkles:5:cry:2

september 4/5/25, 10:43 AM

Angel… </3

Emma Table - cymaemesa 4/5/25, 10:43 AM

:3 chips Angel being so calm here, Like, it's maybe moving more than the other two because needs to stand betwen them all the time, but it's so much more calcualted than Chips's frantic pacing and that soft slow voice compared to chiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiips:::::((((((( nooooo oh god chips :(((((( :3 chips this is what she was saying at the end of last stream, it's just so horrible to feel abandoned like this andthen will spent so long twisting the knife sobs (edited) :3 Chips "you didn't know how many hearts i was on for any of that." yeah, fuck I didn't think of that at all, actually didn't chips say she thought Will might be on more hearts than this? There's a what if here of what if Will got deathbanned like, yesterday??? sickosyes fuck! :3 will's whole stragey here is guiltrip so hard that chips can't kill her and damn if it's not kinda working? sparkles :sparkles:5

Emma Table - cymaemesa 4/5/25, 10:51 AM

:3 will FUCK "sorry for not playing along with your elaborate suicide, will." sickosyes But actually, might be a good counter to 8both* chips and will's story here? like, making it hard to chips to get a kill and hard for Will to go out in a blaze of glory? :sickosyes:5:sparkles:5:bangbang:3

september 4/5/25, 10:57 AM

will lore voice again!

Emma Table - cymaemesa 4/5/25, 10:58 AM

:3 WILLLLL "I understand bettyisbaffled now" fucking sparkles sickosyes sickosyes yesssssssssss suffer!!!! Like, this is kinda what you were saying in :33 earlier will, but fuck it hits harder when you say it in tears while chips is also sobbing sobs :3 It's kinda interesting how Will's story is so much about the story, about wanting a meaningful narrative with like, plot points and an ending? Like, Chips is telling a story too but it's much more focused on the object level thing of like, feeling betrayed and anbandoned and all that? Will keeps talking about closure, about needing an ending, needing a goodby and it's ahhhhhhh di!Will the character of all thime tbh?????
:sparkles:2
idk who this is even :3 for at this point, either way FUCK "either kill me or let me go free, but pick one!" sickosyes sickosyes sparklessparkles
and fuck! chips wailing on "come back" sickosyes sickosyes sickosyes
:3 will oh ... chips really did think there was hope at the start of this didn't she? Will didn't intend this to be as much of a rug-pull as it was because like, obviously she's not going in the cage no matter how much I'd like that wait who siad that. but like, chips really thought ther could be a happy ending in a cute little house here
:sobs:3:sob:2

Emma Table - cymaemesa 4/5/25, 11:06 AM

:3 chips "i wish you had more people but i can't be one of them" sickosyes sickosyes fuck yes punch her right in the abandonment! I ... legit don't know if chips even can kill her through all the tears even if she wanted to at this point sickosyes :3 Will "the two of you deserved a goodbye." I nearly forgot she's carrying the fucking note sickosyes sickosyes sickosyes I can't say anything obviosuly but I need Chips to kill her it would be such a fucking gut-punch at this point fuck :sparkles:4 "kind of a shitty goodbye" angel did you know you're great? :laugh:5

Emma Table - cymaemesa 4/5/25, 11:15 AM

"it's the end of the world tonight." sobs and I've not even logged on yet because there's too much I need to watch. Thank fuck my party got canceled, (tmi joke) I need to get beaten up emotionally instead of physically "i still love you. are you going to kill me?" sickosyes sickosyes sickosyes YES LIKE THAT FUCK :sickosyes:5:sparkles:5 :3 Will and what are you going to do about the consequences if you do? sickosyes
sobs sobs sobs "no" in a tone of voice that makes it mean "I love you too" through sobs??? aaaaaaaaaa :NOOO:5:sobs:5:sparkles:5 :3 will I did not think Will would survive that at all. fucking hell that was ... intense. But it worked! fuck. gosh :bangbang:3

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will | hearts 4/5/25, 5:03 PM

i… think i’m happy with that ending? :sparkles:3 as happy as i can be, anyway what was the thing emma said? about us all having to essay crunch our character arcs in the last week? im definitely feeling that lol maybe i’ll log on in a bit and help with birmingham before the world ends. help thousand suns. God knows they’ve helped me these past couple days. it was a good send-off for elysium i think but i’d rather have my ending be...not elysium? moving on, even if just for a few hours. do the maze if i can. i want to be there for the world ending. not in an obsidian box. no point to leaving if i don’t see what’s outside (edited) plus i’ll find out if chips still jumps me lol i don’t think she will, though. (edited) :sparkles:5

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partial workskin credit to Discord Work Skin & Tutorial by BookKeep and How to Make Tumblr posts on AO3 by phyripo (orphan_account); I edited the code for both skins but without them as a basis I doubt I would've gotten half as far! liner notes on my tumblr ^_^