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Jimmy has been acting distant. Not like I've been paying attention or anything. Okay yeah fuck I've noticed. Ever since i almost died and he thinks it was his fault, but I've tried to tell him one million times that it was my fault for being such a dumb, drunk, idiot and taking his knife... Actually no, I'm glad i took it, because as far as i know he hasn't touched it ever since.
Me and rowan are sat inside the living room, we are ment to be watching a movie but I'm hardly paying attention and rowan is on his phone, probably stalking bliss's instagram again.
Rowans obviously happy that jimmy hasn't had the knife in a while because he's always hated the knife. It always pissed him off when jimmy used to carry it around with him. He said it wasn't safe and blah blah blah, but i guess it wasn't. But i don't think the near death experience is the only reason that I'm being avoided by jimmy. it's obviously because of the kiss. he hates me for it, and i know that theres no way he likes me back. I don't even know why i thought that was an option, like i just thought that maybe...just maybe i had a chance?
I glance back up at the tv nobody's watching then i turn to face rowan,
"Are you actually watching this or are you just stalking her instagram again?"
Rowan looks up from his phone and gives me a "don't you dare" kinda look. Before he says.
"I don't know who you're talking about."
I roll my eyes, he keeps saying that. "come on rowan i know that you've been refreshing it about every 10 minutes...i have a girl i could set you up with if you like."
Rowan grunts "fuck Alister thats way too soon, we only broke up 2 months ago."
I cant believe its been 2 months, 2 weeks since i got my cast off, 3 weeks i have been sober, 2 months since i broke my leg and accidentally stabbed myself, and around 2 months since me and jimmy talked like best friends and not whatever were doing now.
"Yeah exactly you've been moping and stalking her instagram for 2 months. look I'm only trying to help you out, i bet shes starting to move on."
I say trying to be supportive but I probably just sound like a dick based on rowans face expression right now.
"maybe you should sought out your own relationship with jimmy before you try and get me a new one." Rowan says smirking at me
I roll my eyes "ugh please no"
I look behind me to double check that jimmy hasn't left his bedroom.
"He doesn't want anything to do with me."
Rowan raises his eyebrows "he said that to you?"
"Well no but, like he hasn't spoken to me about the kiss or anything like that... and like i think he's avoiding me"
oh my god i feel like an over dramatic teenager.
"Well have you spoken to him about any of this?"
I get caught a bit off guard when rowan says this "well no but-"
"so how do you know that he doesn't think your avoiding him" rowan says smirking at me.
God, i hate it so much that he has a point.
"Fine I'll go and talk to him if you block bliss on instagram."
"What? Hows that fair compromise."
"Thats actually very fair because you are obsessed with her and need to get a life" i say chuckling.
Surprisingly enough rowan actually agrees. which i mean is obviously good because rowan will get off of her instagram and maybe start to move on but, I'm not looking forward to talking to jimmy. i know that I'm just gonna get rejected probably in the nicest way possible because its jimmy but then everything will be super awkward and he's gonna hate me.
I take a deep breath and knock on Jimmys door.