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“So, Bobby. I gotta ask. What’s the deal with that book?”
When he hears Buck come up from behind him, he slams the book shut and stands up.
He really is not in the mood for Buck’s shit today.
“I know it’s a list of people you’ve saved,” Buck continues following after Bobby, really not getting the hint. “Right now there are 46 names in it. There’s a space for 148. Why that number?”
Bobby freezes, a mix of panic and disbelief running through him. “You read my book?”
“I-I mean I peaked, once or twi—”
Bobby sees red.
He slams Buck into the wall, gritting his teeth to hold back a growl as he says in a low voice. “Don’t ever do that again.”
The panic flares under bucks skin for a moment. And then he is not here anymore. He is at his childhood home getting shoved around by his dad.
Stupid
Worthless
Crybaby
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Bobby sees bucks eyes change from question to hurt to fear.and then it hits him. Buck trembles under his grip. The boy looks terrified. He looks scared of him.
He takes a step back releasing his hold only to see buck gasp for breath. His eyes look so much different than usually.
'panic attack'
He takes a step forward to try and help but buck flinches away from him. BUCK IS SCARED OF HIM
He looks around to where hen has been sitting to find her there watching. She doesn't need to be asked. She moves forward to help.
"Hey backaroo can to try and breath for me?"
"C-c-cant......"
"Yes you can backaroo try and match me. In for four........out for four come on."
He tries. It doesn't work.
"Again it's okay"
He fails again
The the alarm sounds.
-Med call-
The sound makes buck panic more. Hen looks at bobby. She is a paramedic, she is needed "Go I got this" he tells her. She gives a worried glance at buck and rushes down the stairs.
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Bobby looks at buck. If he doesn't take in oxygen soon he will pass out. "Buckaroo I need you to breath." buck shakes his head, bobby reaches over, this time buck doesn't flinch away, takes his hand and puts it on his chest. "Try to match what you feel come on."
Buck is holding onto Bobby's shirt like his life is depending on it. Bobby is pretty sure it is. After several minutes bucks breathing is almost back normal. He didn't even realize that he was sitting on the floor.
Bobby is about to speak when buck launches himself, wraps his arms around him and starts crying . Bobby is taken by surprise but is quick to return the hug whispering soft reassurances to buck along with apologies. Buck is also muttering apologies between cries and bobby has no idea why.
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When buck was finally calm enough bobby pulled back to see him. Before he could talk buck interrupted
"Im sorry" deep breaths "I shouldn't have read your book or break down like that."
'Hold on. Why is he sorry. I'm the one who caused the panic attack'
"why are you sorry? I'm the one who caused you to have a panic attack"
"I shouldn't have invated your privacy"
"And I shouldn't have shoved you. You wanna tell me what caused this?"
"Not right now" breath "I'm really exhausted right now."
"that's........ understandable you wanna come over my house after shift around 6 so we can talk? You will talk to me about what caused this and I will talk to you about the book."
"Ok. Yeah that sounds...... That sounds good."
"Good. Now go lie down in the bunks. You need to rest."
"Sir yes sir."
He helps buck up and watches him go to the bunks. He is sure for one thing.......they are going to have a long talk later.